arcanepower: (🙧 he drank but finally drowned in sorrow)
belthazar spellscry | ch(i)ef tsundere ([personal profile] arcanepower) wrote in [community profile] driftfleet 2015-07-29 04:20 am (UTC)

[Right. He remembers this, back when Hiro found him hiding under something. The awful things they have in common.]

... You are braver than I am.

[He adjusts his sleeves, pale fingers disappearing beneath the hems.]

It's easier to drive people away. It's easier to be above attachment, and you won't get hurt because you never expect anything out of anyone. Depending on yourself, and making your way alone-- that was my creed, my secret to how I lived this long.

When things became difficult I always ran. If food was scarce, I ran. If danger was nearby, I ran. And then Exsilium happened and I could not run anymore, even though I tried. Adra hunted me down. And now this place, and you, and I still want to run even though I am happy because I don't really know anything else and I am--

[His rant comes to a sharp stop, followed by a soft confession in the stillness.]

I'm scared.

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