[ The funny thing no one bothered to mention about brainwashing was that he were a passenger in his own head. Watching out his eyes behind a double-sided mirror as his fists hit uselessly against the barrier of his mind. Left inside with only thoughts and the barrage of orders and motive-laced praises, he started to break down.
Once it happened? Once they'd broken him down until he was nothing, all that was left were their words. Another thing nobody mentioned was how fucking hard it was to stop the programming. Going against what they taught him for years, and punished when it wasn't to their liking.
Jim knows he's trying, but all the same, it feels to Winter like there's more he can do. He can be whoever he wants to be, but who is it? Both men in the room, despite what they say, want him to be Bucky.. At least on some level, don't they? Made to believe that it's fine if he isn't, but what happens if he doesn't? Where does that leave them, then?
Logically, he knows this is all fucked up. Steve missed him. Doesn't care what the hell he remembers- even if it takes him years to remember something or nothing. But it does little in the face of the looming threats on the outskirts.
The scrape of the chair makes him alert again, and he looks between Jim and Steve, nodding almost immediately. ]
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Once it happened? Once they'd broken him down until he was nothing, all that was left were their words. Another thing nobody mentioned was how fucking hard it was to stop the programming. Going against what they taught him for years, and punished when it wasn't to their liking.
Jim knows he's trying, but all the same, it feels to Winter like there's more he can do. He can be whoever he wants to be, but who is it? Both men in the room, despite what they say, want him to be Bucky.. At least on some level, don't they? Made to believe that it's fine if he isn't, but what happens if he doesn't? Where does that leave them, then?
Logically, he knows this is all fucked up. Steve missed him. Doesn't care what the hell he remembers- even if it takes him years to remember something or nothing. But it does little in the face of the looming threats on the outskirts.
The scrape of the chair makes him alert again, and he looks between Jim and Steve, nodding almost immediately. ]
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