You bringing it up would have made it a lot easier. [There's a flicker of a smile.] I thought I was going to tell you. It kept not happening.

[The stroking is relaxing so she lets it relax her and she does her best to open up on her thoughts. Unfortunately there's no clear path in them.] I thought I'd do it if I was ever sure it was something I wanted to try, but I love how we are together. It's not like I need something more or different. But I did like the way things were when I was different. I mean, I hated a lot of that too, but you still made me feel so loved and attractive when I didn't feel like I could be.

I don't know, it was probably more that feeling than anything we actually did.