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rowan "oh shit" cousland. ([personal profile] trudge) wrote in [community profile] driftfleet2017-11-27 12:08 pm

if you love me let me go (OPEN)

Who: Rowan Cousland and all the unfortunate souls he might run into
Broadcast: Text
Action: The Bishop, The Iskaulit, Probably everywhere else he's allowed.
When: Anytime after 11/23



It's been a little over a week since they returned to Orbit, and apparently that is too long for Rowan Cousland to be sober and left to his own devices. Zevran is around, and there are a few others who 'visit' his blanket-fort bedroom for idle romps. But none of them keep the nagging voice in the back of his head at bay. No amount of mind-blowing sex or company of any sort keeps him from thinking of everything that's happened. It was easier on the planet to forget, to not think about anything because there were cannibals to kill and people to protect. No time to think. No time to remember. No time to regret.

He had time now, though. Too much. Back home he never regretted anything he did, not even dying, but that had been easier when death was the last and final thing that came. Now, he was alive again, with the knowledge that his brother was alive and left alone. Once he had been the last Cousland. Now it was Fergus, and it was his fault. And Zevran —

No. He needed to forget. He needed a distraction. He needed alcohol.

Soooo much alcohol.


GUESS WHO'S DRUNK? I guess Rowan.

He starts off at The Space Bar simply because it had the word 'bar' in it. He's there every night for at least a week, for hours on end taking shot after shot and mug after mug of whatever he can shove down his throat. He doesn't have a lot of money on hand, but he has a silver tongue, crafty hands, and enough charisma to charm the fuck out of some other patrons if necessary.

He flirts with everyone of legal age and the more he drinks the more ridiculous he becomes. Which is saying a lot, because he's ridiculous to begin with.

If he recognizes someone, they're approached almost immediately by a likely inebriated Rowan — a drink in his hand and the most fake smile you've ever seen in your life. He pulls it off though, somehow. Years of practice? Definitely. He unceremoniously slams his drink on the table, sloshing whatever liquid is inside around onto the wood.

"Fancy meeting you here." He says with all the eloquence of a completely shitfaced sailor. "Buy a girl a drink?" But he already has a drink, you say? Rowan downs the remainder of his alcohol in one long swig, shaking his head afterwards as the fire hits his throat. Anyway, buy a girl a drink?

Alternatively, for those he doesn't recognize so easily — no, nevermind, there's no alternatively. He's doing the same thing.


He eventually migrates to Malum at some point, already drunk and probably kicked out for a) starting (finishing) a fight, b) hitting on the waitstaff, c) peeing in a corner, or d) all of the above. The neon lights are pretty and distracting; just what he needs during this long bender he's secretly hoping might end with him in a coma.

He tries to behave a little better despite his absolutely piss poor state of being, but it's all for not when he spots the beautiful shiny pole on the dancefloor. After asking around a bit on the true purpose of the pole, Rowan decides he's going to use it for its intended purpose. He shoves some broody nerd leaning against it - trying to chat up some uninterested woman. have some class - and promptly sheds his shirt, garnering the attention of everyone nearby. Disgusted? Intrigued? Slightly aroused? All solid responses to an inebriated man shimmying up an down the pole. He's not a great poledancer, but he's flexible and nice to look at?


THE BISHOP
Most of the time Rowan passes out in someone else's room, or in the hallway on some ship (the Bishop, the Iskaulit, somewhere else??), and it's only if he's really lucky that he ends up back in his own room. Even through a haze of alcohol the sight of the blanket fort still, for whatever reason, always seems to upset him. He remembers him and Zevran excitedly building it together, he remembers telling him that he and Fergus used to do this, and then he remembers the knowledge that set all of this off in the first place.

He should be happy. And he is! He's fucking ecstatic to hear that his brother is alive. But Rowan isn't. Rowan pissed his potential future away when he decided to be a hero. He throws the small bottle in his hand clear across the room, shattering it and letting the remaining contents trickle down the wall. It looks like blood - red, seeping blood that reminds him of home in the worst possible way.

He should be happy, but he isn't. Second chances don't matter if you piss them away, too. Lying and faking your way through them like you did the first time. He's pathetic.


TEXT
ANYONE DTF? ??? ?????? ?????? [ That's it. ]


( OOC: feel free to decide how drunk you want rowan to be when you meet him/when during his bender it is. or just wing it. if you want a specific scenario hmu @ [plurk.com profile] winemom and we can discuss something! C: also you can switch to brackets if you want. )
onlyanapple: (Lean)

Málum

[personal profile] onlyanapple 2017-11-27 06:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Crowley is absolutely watching this with utter delight. Because finally, FUCKING FINALLY, someone used the stripper pole. Very quickly, Rowan might find himself being circled by this strange creature as Crowley leans across the bar to watch smugly.

"Don't mind Tim, his owner bet me no one would ever use that thing, so I'm having him record it for prosperity - in case he ever comes back and I can laugh in his face, " the demon gives a thumbs up. "Nice moves, by the way. You've earned yourself a free drink."
Edited 2017-11-27 18:36 (UTC)
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The Bishop

[personal profile] crowkiller 2017-11-27 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Zevran isn't sure if he will ever be use to space. He remembered looking up at the night sky as a child and wondered if the Maker was looking down on them, and why He did nothing to help him. He had those thoughts again around the dying campfire with threats of Darkspawn in the distance, and again as pryes burned. The only thing he saw were stars now. The Maker was not a part of his thoughts.

He has only spend one night in his room. The rest of the nights have been in Rowan's, whether he is there or not. Even if he didn't make it back at night, it was still more comfortable for him to be in a room that was warm with his scent than to be cold and left alone with his thoughts.

He isn't exactly sure what time it is, but he is tired so it doesn't matter. He heads back to Rowan's room, and as soon as he steps in he hears the scattering sound of glass against the wall. His heart leaps into his throat and his first instinct is to defend himself- because clearly someone broke into their room. His hand goes to the knife at his thigh but he stop when he sees who threw it.

"Rowan?" His eyebrows raise as he cautiously closes the door and takes another step in. "Why did you-" he looks back at the bottle. The glass on the floor, the red against the wall. He's trying not to show how uncomfortable he is. But he's never seen Rowan like this.

"What's wrong?" He isn't even going to ask if he is ok. He knows he isnt.
Edited 2017-11-27 20:02 (UTC)
bryces_pup: (65)

Space Bar

[personal profile] bryces_pup 2017-11-27 08:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Riona doesn't frequent the bars as much as she used to. Fewer reasons to and all that. Still, she comes in every now and again to grab a drink and say hello to Fenris and the other staff here. Tonight she's nursing a glass of wine when she sees Rowan from the corner of her eye. A smile forms, but it diminishes a little when he stumbles over, and she can see how clearly inebriated he is. Something's a little... off. Something in his smile and the way he just knocks back his drink.

"How about this girl drinks a bit of water for now?"
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space bar

[personal profile] asphodels 2017-11-27 08:56 pm (UTC)(link)
Aerith's interest in the space bars is minimal at best but she goes there because she can get something simple to drink - often without alcohol, because she has very little interest in it - and sometimes have some quiet. When someone comes in and starts making her little quiet space a little noisier she watches him. It's easy to recognise that something's wrong, and she takes her drink to go over and talk to him. It's the best option, even when he absolutely goes out of his way to hit on her.

All it does is make her laugh.

"I have enough boyfriends." Settling down, she tilts her head. "Would you like another drink, maybe?"
onlyanapple: (Smiles like a snake)

[personal profile] onlyanapple 2017-11-27 11:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Probably a good thing, that. Tim is known to bite. Crowley seems to consider this proposal deeply, tapping a finger against his chin and making thoughtful 'humm'ing noises.

"...Yeah, sure, why not. Knock yourself out, buddy. "

If it gets him more footfall, he'll take it.
bryces_pup: (168)

[personal profile] bryces_pup 2017-11-27 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
"This is very true." Riona flags down the bartender and orders the glass. "And that's exactly why you should have some. You're going to be dealing with a nasty enough hangover in the morning. Make it a little easier on yourself." Step one, try to get him some water. Step two, carefully step into a conversation about what's bothering him. Step three, well, doesn't seem like there's a lot of profit to be had here.
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[personal profile] crowkiller 2017-11-27 11:58 pm (UTC)(link)
His frown deepens as Rowan turns and he sees the state he is in. From one stepford smiler to another, he can tell nothing seems to be going right at this moment. He wonders if his presence is just adding to the list right now. He doesn't move after the first step. He can feel his heart beat thumping against his ribs as Rowan speaks and stumbles closer. He isn't exactly sure how he should feel in his moment. He's glad to see Rowan, but not exactly like this.

His smile is uneasy, but he doesn't push Rowan away. "Missed me? I've been right here." Right where he said he would be. It was kind of pathetic really.

His whole body tenses when Rowan comes closer and he can actually smell him. The alochol and cologne wouldn't be too awful if it wasn't so much and if it was his. But it wasn't, he knew the smell of Rowan's colonge and he wonders just how many people he had been fawning over before he came here to him.

"Let's lie down."
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[personal profile] crowkiller 2017-11-28 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
Zevran doesn't answer to the first comment. He knows Rowan has been avoiding him. It hurt to hear still. He doesn't want to linger on that thought, but lately it's all he can think about. Ever since they got to orbit, Rowan has been placing more and more distance between them. He wonders if it would have been better if he stayed on that planet. Maybe Rowan wouldn't be in this state right now. Too bad that cannibal didn't gut him when the chance was given.

With Rowan's arm over his shoulder he finally moves. He is still silent as he moves to the blankets and pillows that still lie scattered on the floor. Zevran doesn't lie down with him. He sits on a cushion next to him, one hand holding his, and another moves his hair from his face. He hopes that Rowan just passes out and forgets this all in the morning, but then he speaks and Zevran feels his heart sink down into his stomach.

"What?" There is disbelief in his voice. How could Rowan even think to ask that? He tries to think just what could have brought this one, and what he did to cause such thoughts. I love you, how could I hate you? He should say that, put to rest any second thought the man might have, but he doesn't. Because he's isn't even sure what love is, and he knows Rowan doesn't want it. "Of course I don't."
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[personal profile] onlyanapple 2017-11-28 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
That is the least sexy strip Crowley has ever seen, and he has lived in a time period where people wore like sixteen layers of clothing. Still, a deal was deal, clumsy at it was. And so, Crowley pours him his strongest stuff.

"You asked for it. Drink it slowly, it's very strong. I'm not letting you sleep here if you pass out on my floor."

Yes. Yes he will. He slides the drink over. It's an alien one, picked up some worlds ago. It really is ridiculously strong.
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[personal profile] bryces_pup 2017-11-28 12:34 am (UTC)(link)
Riona knocks back the rest of her wine before setting it aside. Yeah, she needs to be dead sober for what's about to happen, she reckons.

"Perpetually drunk. That's quite a feat there." Personally she's never done it herself. She remembers Fergus once telling her he was drunk for three days straight in Antiva. She also remembers how stupidly sick he said he got afterwards. "So, what's the occasion for wanting to be permanently drunk?"

As the tender takes away her wine glass and asks if she wants more, Riona declines, instead asking for two glasses of water.
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[personal profile] bryces_pup 2017-11-28 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Remember that look Eleanor had, that stern, motherly, "did you really just say that I didn't raise you like this" look she had that could stop a man cold in his tracks? Yeah, Riona's sort of inherited it. Granted, it's not quite to the efficacy that Eleanor had, but it's there, and she's giving it to Rowan right now. "How about you don't?" she says as the drinks arrive. She pushes the water towards him.

But oh boy, does that question catch her off guard. She blinks stupidly a moment, almost answering "No". Which, it's true, she really hasn't ever known that, but that's not what he needs to hear. "Probably one of the most heartbreaking situations there is. Who can't you have?"
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[personal profile] crowkiller 2017-11-28 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Zevran's eyes soften as Rowan spoke. His eyes closed for a little longer than a standard blink as he felt his lips against his knuckles. He wishes that he could fix this. To take this pain that Rowan is feeling away. If only he knew what Rowan is thinking about doing, about telling him. It would break whatever was left of his heart to leave him, but he would if that's what Rowan wanted.

"I..." His eyes open once more and flicker to the floor. He doesn't know the answer to that. "You saved the world, Rowan." That's the right thing. They would all be dead if not for him, but for Zevran-- well, his world ended that day.

"I'm a selfish man." His frown turns to a hollow, melancholy smile. "I'd rather you have lived." At least then Zevran wouldn't have had to find his body in the rubble, or have his heart ripped out each night and morning when he realises that this isn't a dream. That Rowan really was dead and no amount of praying, or begging, or killing Darkspawn would bring him back. At least if he lived, they could have died together.
Edited 2017-11-28 01:10 (UTC)
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[personal profile] crowkiller 2017-11-28 01:20 am (UTC)(link)
"What?"

He's never heard this before. He had been under the impression that it had to be a Grey Warden, and that whoever dealt the final blow had to die. Sure it could have been Alistair, or the one from Orlais, but Rowan wouldn't allow anyone else to do the deed.

"What do you mean? What offer?" He hunches over to lean down. Maybe he misheard him. Surely such a thing would not be possible. Even if it was, Rowan would have taken the offer to live-- right?
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[personal profile] wolfehawke 2017-11-28 01:26 am (UTC)(link)
whats a dtf?

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