nothing is perfect, but your imperfections are quaint

[diomedea]

Who: AN ENTIRE BLOODSPORT AND ANY VISITORS
Broadcast: Nope!
Action: On the Bloodsport!
When: 6/14-6/21

[WELCOME TO THE BLOODSPORT HICCUP don't mind the crew. They're. Uhh. Unique.

Enjoy your pudding! What's the crew up to this week?]

Comments

[killedwithlove]

[Cole sniffs, doesn't recognise the smell off hand but that doesn't mean much.]

I don't eat...

[pompous_today]

[Simon smiled.]

Probably for the best here, admittedly, when all we have to eat comes in cube and gel form. Are you doing well?

[killedwithlove]

Other people said that too. I think I'm glad I don't have to eat if the food is really awful.

Yes. I liked the place we went to with the trees, but I'm glad we're not there anymore.

[pompous_today]

It is made for sustenance and nothing more- for those who need to eat, it keeps us alive, so I suppose it serves its purpose.

[He nodded.]

I never did get the urge to go to that planet. Was there something wrong with it?

[killedwithlove]

No. Not wrong. It was different from most places.

It was alive and vibrant, surging with magic and power and intent. It was beautiful.

[pompous_today]

[Simon smiled.]

That sounds wonderful- I thought about going down, but with our communications jammed, I wasn't sure I wanted to risk it, just in case we ran into something dangerous. I am sure you know by now I'm not a warrior.

[killedwithlove]

Cadash said I'm not a warrior. I'm not very good with swords and I don't like heavy armour. I can't move right in it.

[pompous_today]

And I would much rather fix people than put new holes in them, so to speak. The few times I have tried to fire a gun, I do not think I hit a single thing. I am not sure if that is a good thing if we're going to run into danger here, though...

[killedwithlove]

I don't know what a gun is.

I mean, Personnel Augment shows me things, but I don't understand them. I don't have the context, I think.

Solas taught me that word.

[pompous_today]

Ah- a gun is a weapon. It fires bullets- small shaped pieces of metal, designed to pierce the target's body. They are quite often lethal.

[He seems curious about the augment, however-]

So your augment shows you things you didn't know before? I have yet to experience that- I suppose mine fits my skill set.

[killedwithlove]

It tells me about the technology here. We don't have anything like this in Thedas. It tells me how to not crash shuttles, and how the lights work, and all sorts of things I didn't know before.

Thedas doesn't use electricity. We use magic instead of technology sometimes, but most people just use candles and lamps and fires.

[pompous_today]

[Simon nods, fascinated. He finds the augments to be both fascinating and horrifying- modifying someone's brain rarely turned out well, and it reminded him a bit too much of what had been done to River- but at the same time, the medical and scientific part of his brain wanted to know the how of it. However, they seemed to resist all attempts at examination.]

So that each of us is able to perform a task, to play a role on our respective ships, even if we lacked the knowledge back home. ... Atroma really thinks of everything.

[killedwithlove]

Yes. Because without Personnel Augment, I wouldn't know how anything worked and I'd just be stuck in a room. I can move through doors that are shut, but not across space.

[pompous_today]

Handy. But how is it that you can move through a closed door?

[killedwithlove]

[Cole steps back and focuses hard, flickering across the open space as thick, black-green smoke]

And usually doors open when I ask them.

[pompous_today]

[Simon tries not to gape, but it's a close thing. And then suddenly something slots into place-]

That's how you vanished the first time we spoke. You can change into... that other form. I was wondering, because not even River is that stealthy.

[killedwithlove]

Not change. Just... be somewhere else.

And I can make people not notice me. Forget I'm here, while they're looking at me.

[He focuses and he starts to fade away from awareness, only to drop it moments later.]

Like that.

[pompous_today]

That's... quite remarkable. [Which was an understatement, of course- Cole can probably sense Simon's wonder, his curiosity.]

Was that something you were born with?

[killedwithlove]

I wasn't born. I came through the Veil, from the Fade.

But I don't know why I can make people forget me, or not notice me. Cadash said it was because I was traumatised by Cole's death. They forgot him and he died.

[pompous_today]

[Simon tilted his head. He was, admittedly, a little confused by all this, but he hoped to straighten it out.]

You knew another Cole? I think you have mentioned him before.

[killedwithlove]

I knew Cole. He was young and scared and dying and alone. I came through to be with him and then I became him.

He's dead. But I'm alive. I live for him. It's all I can do.

[pompous_today]

[Simon was a little touched by the story- but saddened, as well. Young men shouldn't have to die scared and alone.]

So you are now Cole, and you are living the life he was robbed of. What... what happened to him, if I may ask?

[killedwithlove]

[Cole rocks on his feet briefly and hums.]

He starved to death in a cell. They forgot about him. He drank the moisture from the moss and drips, but the moss didn't stop his stomach from curling, coiling, knotting and kneading...

[pompous_today]

[Simon shivered at that.]

Starvation... is such an awful way to die. [He knew the biological processes, what happened when the body was forced to consume itself in a desperate attempt to gain the nutrients it needed, though he knew just as well that it was hard to conceptualize how it felt unless someone lived it.] I hope having you there during the last moments was some sort of comfort to him.

[killedwithlove]

[Cole rests a hand over his own stomach. He's not as thin as he used to be, but there is a perpetual gauntness to his face and stomach which Cole's death goes some way to explaining.]

It was. He wanted to not be alone. That was why I came to him.