mingle mangle

[takeabow]

Who: anyone!
Broadcast: why not!
Action: sure!
When: Whenever!

[ what are you up to, flooters? passing the time playing cribbage? watching Die Hard with a Vengeance, or maybe trying to repair friendships and perceptions of people that were dashed by invasive dreamscapes?

This is a mingle, so enjoy! ]

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[reconstitution]

I know how that is.

[ He's 100% guilty of it, too. ]

[takeabow]

This is just how bored I am.

[reconstitution]

What would you rather do?

[takeabow]

Breathe fresh air.

[reconstitution]

That would be nice, yes.

[takeabow]

I'd love to be hunting, too.

What about you?

[reconstitution]

Not being trapped in a prison would be a start..

[takeabow]

Isn't that always the problem.

[reconstitution]

I don't think it really ever ends. Didn't before, and doesn't now.

[takeabow]

[ the tone changes a bit, after a long pause ]

I'm remembering more things.

[reconstitution]

Good things, I hope?

[ Really, he does. Everyone's going to have bad memories, he knows, but she is someone he would want to be spared that disappointment. ]

...Or at least important things?

[takeabow]

I don't know yet. Probably not good things though.

[reconstitution]

Do you think it's better than not having anything?

[takeabow]

I... don't know. I've thought about it a lot. I didn't have anything when I got to Aather. Well, I had one memory, and it sucked. I didn't want to take them. But then I remembered Prim. Prim, and Gale, and Peeta. Cinna, Haymitch... Rue.

I'm better for remembering them, I think. But... sometimes I know it'd be easier not to.

[reconstitution]

I'm trying to decide still. I want to know what I've done- what they've made me do. Maybe if I take enough of them, I'll get something good in return..

[ Maybe it's naive, but Jim has such wonderful memories of before it all started. Winter can't help but be a little jealous of that fact. What he wouldn't give for a solid memory instead of these irritating, nonsensical fragments. ]

[takeabow]

I hope so. I really do.

[reconstitution]

[ He offers a small shake of his head. ]

I'm not so sure yet. But it can't all be bad?

[ It can. Mostly. ]

[takeabow]

Nothing can be all bad. Otherwise, what's the point?

[reconstitution]

I don't know.

[takeabow]

There's always something worth fighting for. Or someone. There's a reason we do what we do, and bad people do what they do. Otherwise there wouldn't be any sides.

[reconstitution]

No, I know that..

[ He pauses, brow creasing as he tries to put his thoughts together into something concrete. ]

I'm just not sure when it gets to end.

[takeabow]

What do you mean?

[reconstitution]

It's difficult to explain.

[takeabow]

Try me.

[reconstitution]

I've been forced to work for a cause I was tricked into believing.. They took everything that made me a person. Turned me into their machine.

[ He pauses, watching the plates of his left hand shifts as he clenches his fist. ]

I killed innocent people and I couldn't-- can't do anything to stop it.