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driftfleet2016-01-10 08:16 am
nulliverse) wrote in driftfleet2016-01-10 08:16 am
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Who: Celeste Blackwell and anyone!
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Golden, p much the most aimless of wandering
When: Day(?)break Jan 10
[Celeste's arrival a day earlier was essentially passed in a whirlwind of cold shock. Everything was so wrong, so alien, and she was already riding a wave of grief following her departure from Eudio; she expected to see her dorm room, the not exactly welcoming but familiar walls of BIAPA, and instead she found a bloody spaceship.
She also found the truth, thanks to it being broadcast in a loop until she could hear the sound ringing through her head even as she tried to sleep, but it wouldn't sink in. This was wrong. It was either a mistake or a betrayal. By the time she was being swept off once again, apparently assigned to a more permanent lodging, she'd come to a decision: Eudio had until the next morning to correct this. If she didn't wake up back in the city or in England, then she had been betrayed and used and lived over half a year of her life in service of a lie.
She woke up (apparently she did sleep, although it felt like it couldn't have been more than a minute or two) in space. And that's when she broke.
Fellow members of the SS Golden can find her wandering the ship, but she doesn't look like she's getting her bearings: her shuffling around is more ghostlike, lost and distant, eyes perpetually red and swollen whether she's crying in that exact moment or not. Sometimes she'll open her mouth as though she's about to start a rant, anger flashing across her face, but then she'll just look helpless again a second later. She's lost so much, two entire lives, for nothing, and now she honestly can't find her way into starting this one. She doesn't know what any of it means.]
[Eventually, Celeste finds her words and settles on an emotion to guide her as she addresses the entire fleet. Her eyes are still rimmed with red, her face a bit puffy from crying, but her expression is hard and ice cold and her stare is furious.]
I've got one thing to tell you lot, and one thing only. [A quiet voice accented with the sound of middle-class London, rubbed raw from crying but taut with rage yet to explode.] If you're ever approached by someone offering a wish - I don't care if a genie pops out of a bottle or a fairy godmother appears in a shower of sparkles or a star comes right out of the sky or it's just two civil servant sorts in smart suits, any sort of person - if they tell you that you can make things right, you can fix all your cock-ups and get your life on a proper track - even if there's a cost, no matter if the cost seems reasonable and this all feels like a very fair exchange -
[The icy mask over her features slips for a second, and it looks like she might be back on her way to tears, but then it's back.]
- no matter how bad it is, and how desperately you want to believe - trust your gut. Wishes like that don't come true. There's no correcting what's already happened. You don't get that sort of second chance, not from anyone, for anything.
It if sounds too good to be true, it is. Don't let any false promise convince you otherwise, or you deserve what you get.
[She sniffles, then looks rather annoyed with herself at having given away even that much and closes things off:]
That's it. That's all I have to say.
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Golden, p much the most aimless of wandering
When: Day(?)break Jan 10
[Celeste's arrival a day earlier was essentially passed in a whirlwind of cold shock. Everything was so wrong, so alien, and she was already riding a wave of grief following her departure from Eudio; she expected to see her dorm room, the not exactly welcoming but familiar walls of BIAPA, and instead she found a bloody spaceship.
She also found the truth, thanks to it being broadcast in a loop until she could hear the sound ringing through her head even as she tried to sleep, but it wouldn't sink in. This was wrong. It was either a mistake or a betrayal. By the time she was being swept off once again, apparently assigned to a more permanent lodging, she'd come to a decision: Eudio had until the next morning to correct this. If she didn't wake up back in the city or in England, then she had been betrayed and used and lived over half a year of her life in service of a lie.
She woke up (apparently she did sleep, although it felt like it couldn't have been more than a minute or two) in space. And that's when she broke.
Fellow members of the SS Golden can find her wandering the ship, but she doesn't look like she's getting her bearings: her shuffling around is more ghostlike, lost and distant, eyes perpetually red and swollen whether she's crying in that exact moment or not. Sometimes she'll open her mouth as though she's about to start a rant, anger flashing across her face, but then she'll just look helpless again a second later. She's lost so much, two entire lives, for nothing, and now she honestly can't find her way into starting this one. She doesn't know what any of it means.]
[Eventually, Celeste finds her words and settles on an emotion to guide her as she addresses the entire fleet. Her eyes are still rimmed with red, her face a bit puffy from crying, but her expression is hard and ice cold and her stare is furious.]
I've got one thing to tell you lot, and one thing only. [A quiet voice accented with the sound of middle-class London, rubbed raw from crying but taut with rage yet to explode.] If you're ever approached by someone offering a wish - I don't care if a genie pops out of a bottle or a fairy godmother appears in a shower of sparkles or a star comes right out of the sky or it's just two civil servant sorts in smart suits, any sort of person - if they tell you that you can make things right, you can fix all your cock-ups and get your life on a proper track - even if there's a cost, no matter if the cost seems reasonable and this all feels like a very fair exchange -
[The icy mask over her features slips for a second, and it looks like she might be back on her way to tears, but then it's back.]
- no matter how bad it is, and how desperately you want to believe - trust your gut. Wishes like that don't come true. There's no correcting what's already happened. You don't get that sort of second chance, not from anyone, for anything.
It if sounds too good to be true, it is. Don't let any false promise convince you otherwise, or you deserve what you get.
[She sniffles, then looks rather annoyed with herself at having given away even that much and closes things off:]
That's it. That's all I have to say.
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["What are you" is a question she's always avoided, since it was thrown at her in several different variations as a biracial girl in England, but she does like to know. You just don't ask people that way.
(It's something she likes about these multiverse situations, the fact that she doesn't stand out in the slightest because everyone does in their own way.)]
I don't know if Earth is terrifying... there are natural disasters, earthquakes, volcanoes, typhoons, that sort of - [Her brow slowly furrows, deeper and deeper.] - well, when you think of all together, it is rather terrifying. I thought you said you were an optimist.
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[He frowns a little, raising a long, owlish eyebrow.]
Obviously not fictional, either.
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[And here she pauses again, thinking about Eddie. Ramse. So many people. And her face twists between the emotion that wants to come out and anger at herself for the way she keeps crumbling.]
I'm sorry, I - this is absurd, it's pathetic. I've got to get on somehow.
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My phone doesn't even work. I suppose it worked on their cuddle power as well. I can't even look at photos.
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It's not easy to have that access denied. A photo can sustain a memory for a long time.
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[He did give her permission to be upset, after all, and she's doing it. The quick swings between blaming others, blaming herself, and just dissolving into tears are pretty standard for this sort of outburst.]
I'll never forget him. I don't need photos for that. But... this may have been the only way I could see his face again.
[Caleb said he'd find her, but she never made any mention of being in space. Sure, she'll get out of here, but all the time she's here is time in which he could be looking and not finding.]