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[versusnurture]

Who: Abigail & open!
Broadcast: Fleetwide!
Action: None unless, you know. You wanna. She's on the Iskaulit I guess.
When: Right meow!

have you ever killed anyone? if you have, are you proud of that?

[It's a thoughtful kind of day.]

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[versusnurture]

that's exactly why i asked. i think it's also interesting that you are the first person who's contacted me privately. that says a whole lot about you. not that you're ashamed or need someone to talk to, but that you like to gloat, i think, about the kind of person you are - how you're different from other people.

i'm not ashamed of anything. not anymore.

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[heresyandlace]

It also says that I am picky about who I care to gloat to. I don't bother to mind the impression I make with just anyone, you know. If I really wanted attention, I would have left my response public.

And you like to gloat too, I see.

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[versusnurture]

i'm honored. i like your gloating. it's nice to hear. or read, whatever.

it's not even liking gloating for me, really, it's just something i have to do. i have to practice it. i used to be really bad at it, i wanted everyone to see me a certain way, so i didn't want to be anything but normal. now i know i can't be.

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[heresyandlace]

Though, isn't practicing gloating done for the same sort of reason? Now you just want everyone to see a different face.

Or, isn't it like that at all?

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[versusnurture]

oh, i want everyone to see a different face. i still haven't grown out of that.

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[heresyandlace]

I see. Your honesty is refreshing.

And the answer to the first part is obviously a yes, but I'm unsure how to answer the second. I suppose it depends on your definition of the concept.

[even though he is well aware of the fact that she is probably more interested in his definition.]

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[versusnurture]

it's hard to define. that feeling like the inside of your chest is on fire because you did something amazing. what comes after adrenaline, before exhaustion.

that's how i would define pride.

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[heresyandlace]

[...aww, sweet little killer girl.]

Ah. Then that would be a very rare feeling for me, indeed.

I almost envy you.

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[versusnurture]

i've only felt it a few times. so i'm not taking it for granted, if that helps at all.

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[heresyandlace]

I think it's better that way, for little things like you.

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[versusnurture]

little things like me?

[Exsqueeze you.]

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[heresyandlace]

[he turns on the audio then, so she can hear him giggling. yep, he'd wondered if that would prickle at her a little bit.]

I suppose text doesn't carry tone very well, does it?

I didn't mean anything by it. [except maybe a little bit of teasing.] I only meant that you're young, likely mortal, and not some giant murderous beast.