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[killedwithlove]

Who: Cole
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Pathstone unless asked to go somewhere
When: Now-ish?


[The broadcast is very unusual, coming from Cole. He replies, sometimes, but he very rarely initiates communication through the network.

The camera points at the ceiling, catching just the edge of Cole's hat. He has it in his lap but doesn't try to look into it.]

I need someone who is able to kill me if I turn into a demon. Cassandra promised to, but she's gone and Jove and Solas said they would, but with them gone, I need someone to make sure I'm not a danger to people.

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[killedwithlove]

Alistair, precious child, never know, it's best if you never know.

[Ah. that's why he seemed familiar and unfamiliar. He nods and hums, satisfied he's worked it out.]

Maybe.

[At least he's honest?]

[nugqueen]

Cole.

[Better change that 'Maybe' to a 'Yes' at some point in the future, young man.]

This isn't Thedas and with Solas no longer here to keep you, this needs to be handled responsibly. Do whatever you can to see that what needs to be done is done.

[Unfortunately she can't help that she's Hardened!Leliana so her first idea is if he needs to die then well that's just too bad :(]

[killedwithlove]

If I can contact someone, I will.

[nugqueen]

Good. That is all anyone can expect of you.

[She relaxes a bit, resting her chin in one hand.]

It is not an easy thing, no? No one else can even begin to imagine what you experience. People only understand that when there is something they don't understand, they should fear it.

[Like mages, like spirits like Cole. Thrust them into a trying situation and they become desperate, like a bird with a broken wing.]

[killedwithlove]

I experience lots of things. Some of them, I actually physically go through.

Cadash, my Inquisitor, she said she worried about me. Walking into other people's darkness. But if I don't go in, I can't help them. I just want to help people. Even when I was doing the wrong thing, I thought I was helping.

... do you remember, Leliana? You protected Rhys. He always needed protecting. He wasn't very good at looking after himself.

[nugqueen]

There are some times when a person must do things that they don't quite understand themselves, for the good of others.

[She gets it. He wants to help even if it does damage to himself. They are the same in that.]

I do remember, yes. You two were friends.

[And he was a good boy, honestly. Wynne, despite her stiff demeanor at times, would have been proud of him.]

[killedwithlove]

Faith found Evangeline. Wynne carried Faith, but she had Faith that there was a reason, a reason she still lived, still had that Faith. Faith found Evangeline.

[He plucks at his hand wrappings.]

[nugqueen]

Cole. Will you be alright?

[She didn't know how to help him and damned if that wasn't frustrating on its own.</small.] What do you do when you are like this? It's happened before, hasn't it?

[killedwithlove]

When I'm like what? When I'm not Compassion?

I didn't know, back then. But Rhys... made it better. Less desperate. Warmer.

[He misses him. He still misses him. He misses that simple, warm care and being able to curl up in Rhys' cloak and be comfortably tucked against him. He misses someone who seemed to understand him, without the explicit threat of mind wiping.]

I just need to have... um, contingencies. In case it happens.

[nugqueen]

I was referring to your emotional state of being, not specifically your state as Compassion. You aren't well, that much is obvious.

[Poor kid. She understood that feeling too well. Justinia had been like that for her, in a sense. Her and Riona both had given her purpose.]

Understandable but I don't want to see you jump to the worst conclusion so soon. There has to be a way to help that doesn't involve killing you.

[killedwithlove]

I don't get sick. Or eat. Or sleep. I nearly drowned once, but Cullen pulled me out of the water and hit my back until I coughed up the water.

[nugqueen]

[Cole... sometimes the things you say make zero sense to the conversation. For you, she is going to try.]

Did you? Lucky he was there then.

[killedwithlove]

[Cole frequently doesn't make sense, but there's a logic in his conversation to him.]

Yes. The branch didn't hold me. The water was cold, but it burned in my nose and throat.