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[killedwithlove]

Who: Cole
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Pathstone unless asked to go somewhere
When: Now-ish?


[The broadcast is very unusual, coming from Cole. He replies, sometimes, but he very rarely initiates communication through the network.

The camera points at the ceiling, catching just the edge of Cole's hat. He has it in his lap but doesn't try to look into it.]

I need someone who is able to kill me if I turn into a demon. Cassandra promised to, but she's gone and Jove and Solas said they would, but with them gone, I need someone to make sure I'm not a danger to people.

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[intelligently]

What would make it happen?

[killedwithlove]

Um, I'm not sure? Maybe... lots of Despair around me?

[intelligently]

You could look at cheering up the people around you?

[killedwithlove]

... that's not how Despair works. Or me. I don't know much about happy, just about stopping hurts.

[intelligently]

Stopping hurt how? Injuries?

[killedwithlove]

No. Well, I can make the pain ease. I can help spirit healers heal.

I know what hurts people. Deaths, actions, losses, a sip of water for the dying, the smell of mother's cooking easing the way.

[intelligently]

It's hard - being able to know that.

( She knows. Not as much detail as Cole does but she's seen enough death and pain )

Is there a way to ground yourself? So you don't have to die.

[killedwithlove]

I... don't know?

I listened to Solas, he made things okay.

[intelligently]

And now he's gone. What did he used to say to you? Repeating it could help.

[killedwithlove]

...he said lots of things.

If you ever try to think to tell her, I will take your memories so you can't.

[He looks off somewhere else.]

I won't let them hurt you, Cole.

[intelligently]

Maybe he was right. What if we could help you without hurting you?

[killedwithlove]

I don't know how.

[intelligently]

That's why you don't do it alone. How much do you know about demons?

[killedwithlove]

I know... more than a lot of mortals, but not as much as mages who study them?

[intelligently]

It's a start, and I've been told there are mages here - they could provide more information.

Would turning into a demon mean that you'd die? Before someone kills you. Would you be gone?

[killedwithlove]

Not mages who know more than Solas did. Not always the right sort of mage.

I don't know. Not die. Would Cole be gone? Maybe.

[intelligently]

But maybe mages that know enough.

( They would at least be able to give some information. Lydia doesn't like the sound of the next part, however )

I can tell when people are in danger - when they could die. It might be able to help you.

[killedwithlove]

Maybe.

[He clearly doesn't believe that.]

No. It's not like that. Cole would die, but my body would continue. It's not really alive anyway.

[intelligently]

But I'd sense the danger. We could try and stop it.

[killedwithlove]

I thought you said you sensed death, not danger.

[intelligently]

It might still be able to help. It's more than nothing.

[killedwithlove]

Yes.

Thank you, for wanting to help. I appreciate it.