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Who: Sam Winchester
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Red Fish
When: Today-ish

[Sam's currently taking the time to heal after certain people we shall not name shot him in the arm; it's all good, it's all good. Pop some pain meds, keep the arm from getting worked too hard, it's going great. But now that he can't go do some work down on the moon, he's a bit more restless. Maybe he should tell Katie about his arm, have her work a little magic mojo...? Or should he just. Not tell the small child that someone shot him in the arm. Anyway.

He takes some time to voice some internal stuff. It was mostly spawned by Nightingale, and he can't help but speak up; it's utterly bizarre, he thinks, that he does that now. Speak up. He's still shitty at it, like, 60% of the time, but every percent counts. He compares it to the guy who was dying in a chapel not so long ago, and really, the amount of worth he's found in himself compared to then is staggering when he thinks about it.

Things change. He feels like he's been changing at a vicious pace for the last eleven years. But is that so surprising? Considering the friggin' circumstances, he supposes it only makes sense.]

Someone here asked me how to think positive.

More than that, how to be positive about yourself. And honestly? That's a work in progress. Don't get me wrong, you're talking to a hypocrite if I go... chiding you on healthy outlooks. But you know, someone from another world gave me a task, back when I was low — I mean, really low. She said... Even if it's only once a week, once a month, you should stop and remind yourself of something positive — about yourself. Some good thing you do, or some skill you have. Something that makes you you. Strengths. Foundations for others to work off of. Or hey, maybe you just like the way your nose looks.

If's kind of important, isn't it? Feeling like you're worth something in some way. I'd argue it's kind of a survival technique, right? Believing in your capabilities, they kind of help you get through rough situations. Help you be a better person, or contribute in a way that makes you feel like an important puzzle piece.

[He sweeps his hands though the air, palm-up, simply gestures that come with conversation. One arm is less lively than the other.]

And yeah, I can already hear some of you, telling me to pipe down on the armchair psychology, can it with the talk show advice. Kind of sappy, right? But I mean — hear me out, huh? Humor me.

What's something you guys like about yourselves?

...

And if you give some creepy, flippant, or otherwise wise-ass reply for some chuckles, we get it. You like how edgy you are.

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I see. What did you typically study?

[though he can't see the smile, it's fairly evident in her voice.]

That is rather convenient, too. I hadn't thought of it before.

History, culture, folklore and fables, things of a paranormal nature.

I'm pretty good at math — well, last I checked, but reading and writing is my favorite.

Paranormal? You're referring to spirits and the like?

I like to read as well. What are your favorite fables?

That's right, spirits. And the like.

[He gives pause, thoughtful.]

Ah, hmm... You know, um. King Arthur?

That was one of my favorites growing up. Him and the knights of the round table.

[immediately sounds more interested at the mention of knights, tbh.]

King Arthur... I don't believe I'm familiar with his legends. Is there some significance to the table his knights used?

Oooh, yeah. It was a round table so that nobody sat in command — they all sat equality, able to look each other in the eye. King Arthur greatly respected his knights, so he wanted them to all know their opinions and idea had a place there.

What an interesting idea.

[pondering it for a few moments]

It can see how important it was for them to feel heard, but if they were all equal... What did they do in situations where they needed a leader to advise them?

Suppose they just all remember King Arthur is still king. It's more the idea of it, the ability for them to offer their opinions. It can separate good kings from dictators, can't it?

I think there are a great many more differences than the shape of their tables.

[a small laugh.]

It's an interesting idea, though. I'll have to remember it when I return back home.

I can't argue that.

[He cocks his head to the side, zeroing in.]

Sorry — you're, uh. Are you... royalty?

No. [pause] Well, yes, I am, but I was more keeping it in mind because I'm currently leading an army.

You run an entire army?

Wow, that... sounds like a heck of a lot of pressure.

It isn't too large, all things considered. And it's as you said - even leaders have plenty of assistance, even if they give the final order.

[what might be more surprising is that she doesn't sound like more than a teenager]

Leading any size army is hard enough. Wow.

That's seriously impressive.

It's strange to think of it in that way... It was simply something that needed to be done.

Ah, but I seem ungrateful. Thank you for your compliment.

Not ungrateful at all, don't worry.

The biggest army I've ever been a part of was... um... Four people? Five?

[He laughs, shaking his head.]

Not much of an army.

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