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Who: Sam Winchester
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Red Fish
When: Today-ish

[Sam's currently taking the time to heal after certain people we shall not name shot him in the arm; it's all good, it's all good. Pop some pain meds, keep the arm from getting worked too hard, it's going great. But now that he can't go do some work down on the moon, he's a bit more restless. Maybe he should tell Katie about his arm, have her work a little magic mojo...? Or should he just. Not tell the small child that someone shot him in the arm. Anyway.

He takes some time to voice some internal stuff. It was mostly spawned by Nightingale, and he can't help but speak up; it's utterly bizarre, he thinks, that he does that now. Speak up. He's still shitty at it, like, 60% of the time, but every percent counts. He compares it to the guy who was dying in a chapel not so long ago, and really, the amount of worth he's found in himself compared to then is staggering when he thinks about it.

Things change. He feels like he's been changing at a vicious pace for the last eleven years. But is that so surprising? Considering the friggin' circumstances, he supposes it only makes sense.]

Someone here asked me how to think positive.

More than that, how to be positive about yourself. And honestly? That's a work in progress. Don't get me wrong, you're talking to a hypocrite if I go... chiding you on healthy outlooks. But you know, someone from another world gave me a task, back when I was low — I mean, really low. She said... Even if it's only once a week, once a month, you should stop and remind yourself of something positive — about yourself. Some good thing you do, or some skill you have. Something that makes you you. Strengths. Foundations for others to work off of. Or hey, maybe you just like the way your nose looks.

If's kind of important, isn't it? Feeling like you're worth something in some way. I'd argue it's kind of a survival technique, right? Believing in your capabilities, they kind of help you get through rough situations. Help you be a better person, or contribute in a way that makes you feel like an important puzzle piece.

[He sweeps his hands though the air, palm-up, simply gestures that come with conversation. One arm is less lively than the other.]

And yeah, I can already hear some of you, telling me to pipe down on the armchair psychology, can it with the talk show advice. Kind of sappy, right? But I mean — hear me out, huh? Humor me.

What's something you guys like about yourselves?

...

And if you give some creepy, flippant, or otherwise wise-ass reply for some chuckles, we get it. You like how edgy you are.

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Oh, I have no doubts there. But my focus is children with powers. Mutants.

... Oh.

[huh]

And these children are... uh. Born with their powers? Or are they given? Maybe through supernatural means?

They're born with them, though the powers usually manifest at puberty. Though there are earlier cases.

As for the supernatural, that's not really an aspect of my world.

Right, right, I can get that. Yours is from a genetic standpoint, right?

We have some like that, but... I mean, my experience with humans with powers is that it's usually induced by supernatural intervention. Save for psychics, I guess. Mentalists. A lot of them are quack palm readers, but we have legitimate ones.

[He thinks about himself, quietly. Of his time being someone with abilities. A freak. It was a dark time in his life, feeling outcasted, feeling dangerous. Not knowing why he was the way he was, only that it was bad enough that his dad would consider killing him if it came down to it and he 'turned'.

It's been so damn long, but it's also something that's never gone away, thanks to Azazel.

That dirty feeling.]

... It'll be good. For them to have a place to belong.

[ Charles doesn't always need telepathy to have an innate sense of how people feel. And even though it doesn't extend over the ships, he can guess that this topic feels personal. ]

For mutants, especially, it is important to have that security and hope.

I can imagine... It's easy to feel alone in the world. And it's been worse when you feel like something's wrong with you, or that people don't understand you. Something like a school with others like them will make them feel like they're working toward a better future for themselves and people like them.

Everyone's got a right to that.

[ Carefully. ]

It sounds like you're speaking from experience.

[He smiles thinly.

It's been so long, he can at least say it's... easier to discuss. In comparison to what happened to him in the cage. Or the demon blood. Or anything regarding his brother — time and distance helps, even if he still feels tainted (and probably always will), but he also figures this guy gets it.]

Guess so. When I was really young, a... um — something supernatural infected me.

Because of that, I started having visions a lot when I was in my twenties. I was also having an easy time detecting spirits, even had a little telekinesis going on when I got particularly stressed and panicked. It wore off after the thing that infected me was killed later, but... it really freaked my old man out.

[ Charles nods. ]

I got my powers when I was young. I can understand how difficult it can be to process such an ability.

Yeah. I was lucky that it happened when I was in my twenties, but I always - had a feeling. Since before I can remember, really.

Um.

But that hardly compares. I'm guessing you had a lot of trouble with acceptance, too.

People don't really take well to different.

Mutants weren't very well known during my childhood. And my mutation was . . . one of the few I could hide in plain sight. Not everyone was so fortunate.

... Ah. Physical mutations.

Most of the supernatural back home learned how to blend in. Not really a luxury for everyone in your world, though.

My sister is blue. She could shapechange but blending in isn't always viable. Or acceptable.

[ Something Charles has had to learn the hard way. ]

... A shapeshifter?

[Lord have mercy. He tries not to wince.]

I'm betting shes centuries nicer than some of the shifters from back home.

Debatable. Try not to get on her bad side.

[ Normally, he's not so light-hearted when talking about Raven but things were on the mend. ]

Trust me, I try to be as far from people's bad sides around here as possible.

I know I'm pretty low on the power chart in comparison to most around here. Which I mean... is usually how my life always is. One of my closest friends is an angel, so, y'know. Feeling small in comparison is natural.

[ Charles smiles warmly. ]

Perhaps. But I think there's something special about being small and the differences you can make. And everyone's feelings - no matter what they are or how powerful - are the same inside.

[He smiles back, a little modest.]

Guess that's true. I've faced some pretty... crazy things and somehow I'm here.

So that's got to count for a lot.

It always counts. Always.

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