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Who: Katie and anyone!
Broadcast: Yes
Action: Vanquish
When: Today!

[So ever since a couple of weeks ago when she spent a couple nights off ship (for reasons she still hasn't explained), Katie has remained basically shut up in the personnel office instead of getting underfoot or sticking her nose out of the ship and making faces at the moon, a quieter shadow of herself. She's hiding. She also feels guilty for hiding, because she wasn't raised to hide, but she's at a complete loss of what to do about what, to her, is a critical and terrifying problem. What she'd really like to do is just tell an adult about what she saw, because that would be the simplest and wisest thing for any other child. There's something terrible. Make it go away. But with how much honesty would have to be involved she'd be a wreck on the floor within minutes.

There's a brief few days in there where her mind shies around the idea that she may have to kill someone on the Fleet. Which makes her shut down on multiple levels, because she's just a kid and kids shouldn't have to think about that, and it's a horrible act, and nobody would understand at all why she did it, and on a very base level she doesn't want to, she's not made that way. But not going through with it just means she's letting the problem roam free and he's hurting people just by existing. Any older fae would have dealt with this by now. Ignoring the problem is equally a terrible option.

So there's a third choice. She's just terrified of making that one, too. It's never ended well for anyone. Sam and her mother are testament to that.

In short, Katie is hiding because she can't make a choice and getting more and more frazzled and withdrawn because in not taking action she's letting things get worse and this suuucks--

Sometimes it might be nice just to be, in fact, a little girl.]

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[By the second week she starts making dolls. Simplistic blue yarn dolls at the base. It's just something to do with her hands and mind at first. Then she makes one in which her blue wool is dipped sporadically into black ink as she makes it, so the doll looks rather like it got thrown in a tar puddle when she's done. She attaches five or six pieces of loose, spattered wool to its shoulders, closes her eyes, and blows gently on its darkened face.

Don't ask why she does creepy things.

Then she stares at her little collection, swallows... and goes to watch Princess Bride instead. It's video courage! (Which small children have to make do with instead of liquid courage.) Which leads to this post on the network twenty minutes in, very grumpily:]

[Video]

If we're in space and everything's so very future and all, why don't we even have television? [Petulant, pale child alert. Please ignore the spattered bits of ink on her chin.] Aren't we allowed to watch alien TV?

...I don't suppose anyone can make a TV with magic, can they? I don't think you should have to watch movies on this thing. [She taps the screen and accidentally turns it off. OH WELL. Question stands.

...but now that it's off, after a few minutes there comes an addition in text:]

[Text]

If it would make everything better, would you do something terrible so that nobody else had to?

[Hopefully, that part's anonymous. Right?]

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

I suppose it would to you easiest choice I've ever made

if you don't want to do you, then don't

It's not about what I want to do!! I do what I want all the time! But adults have to do things they don't want sometimes.

[I'm totally an adult.]

well yeah that's part of being an adult
which you don't really sound like
so either do it, or dont

[YOU ARE THE OPPOSITE OF HELPFUL]

there is no try

[Does that even make sense
who knows
she's given up on you as a source of advice gosh]

[ He's the least helpful ever, tbqh. ]

only do
so either do it or stop worrying about it

have you ever stopped worrying about anything

yeah i have

[ NOTHING LIKE MURDER OR THE END OF ALL LIVING THINGS but he has gotten over his nerves when taking exams......... ]

did you find it easy

after I figured some stuff out yeah

how long did it take

honestly? a while
but after that it solved a lot problems i had about it

what if I don't have a while

then again: do it or dont
if you're not committed to it theres no real point in worrying in the first place

that's a silly way of doing it for all you know what I have to do is stopping the fleet from crashing into the sun

if we are about to drive into a FUCKING SUN then you sure as shit better make that NOT HAPPEN?????

[...bahaha. She grins despite herself.]

but what if I'm not committed to it? You're not very good at motivating me. It's all your fault we're all dying.

[ Katie you are SUCH a brat!! ]

IT'S YOUR FAULT IF YOU'RE LETTING IT HAPPEN

[And don't you forget it.]

I'm sure that will make you feel much better in the minutes before you die

you too you know

[Oh...

...you know, that's a good point.]

all right then I suppose I will stop you from dying

that's what i thought
moron

[ AND HE MEANS IT IN THE...uh....nicest way possible? Maybe? ]

[omg don't call her a moron]

I will stop everyone but you from dying

no way if i go into the sun you're coming with me

are you asking me on a date

[Katie pls]

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