[He keeps staring at the bartop, staring into the past instead of looking at Marian.]
I visited him sometimes, but conversations rarely were more than small talk and he always seemed so uncomfortable around me. I thought it was to do with my being a mage, so I left him be much of the time. I thought I was doing him a service by not bothering him more than necessary.
[He closes his eyes, the lines around them readily apparent, deep cuts of regret etched into his face.]
When he showed up after Meredith went crazy, I thought at first he'd come to see something had to be done, but... That wasn't it.
[He pours himself another shot and downs it with a grimace, leaving Marian's still there alone on the bar.]
So no. I didn't try. I should have, even if it was unpleasant. I regret every day I still draw breath that things happened the way they did all because I couldn't make myself have a bloody uncomfortable conversation.
[He puts the shot glass down with more force than necessary.]
I'm not going to make the same mistakes again, here. The people I care about, they're going to know it. They're going to know that I will lay down my life to protect them no matter our difference in creed or country because I will absolutely not let that happen again.
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[He keeps staring at the bartop, staring into the past instead of looking at Marian.]
I visited him sometimes, but conversations rarely were more than small talk and he always seemed so uncomfortable around me. I thought it was to do with my being a mage, so I left him be much of the time. I thought I was doing him a service by not bothering him more than necessary.
[He closes his eyes, the lines around them readily apparent, deep cuts of regret etched into his face.]
When he showed up after Meredith went crazy, I thought at first he'd come to see something had to be done, but... That wasn't it.
[He pours himself another shot and downs it with a grimace, leaving Marian's still there alone on the bar.]
So no. I didn't try. I should have, even if it was unpleasant. I regret every day I still draw breath that things happened the way they did all because I couldn't make myself have a bloody uncomfortable conversation.
[He puts the shot glass down with more force than necessary.]
I'm not going to make the same mistakes again, here. The people I care about, they're going to know it. They're going to know that I will lay down my life to protect them no matter our difference in creed or country because I will absolutely not let that happen again.