driftfleet | 01. Oh not this again.

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01. Oh not this again.

Who: Gendry
Broadcast: Nope
Action: SS Golden, Planetside
When: Today and June/July

The Golden

He hadn't been on the Marsiva all that long, but he had been on the vast ship long enough to come to the conclusion he didn't care for it at all. The food was strange and it all reminded him a little too much of the Station, which he'd never really liked all that much in the first place. More than that, he'd noticed how different things were around here. It reminded him of blood granite, though he didn't really mind that part all that much. All that business with Shards had always been an enormous headache equal only to the amount of times he banged his forehead in the tunnels of Troichean Beinn. Still, he hadn't been prepared for being in space. He hadn't figured out how to deal with that, so he'd made the decision not to.

When he arrived on the Golden to fanfare and annoying bits of confetti, the first thing he did was scowl. The second thing he did was find a direction to glare at and then scowl a little bit more. It was not that Gendry was extremely upset, it was just that brooding was something of an art form for him and he was at his best when boiling in sullen silence. All thanks to a bit of a chip in his head, he now knew exactly what he ought to be doing. So after mumbling his greetings to anyone who just so happened to be about to welcome him, he found himself in the engineering room. There were a few tense moments where he tried to grasp exactly what it is he was looking at, why he seemed to know so much about it, and if that was the sort of thing it was worth getting worried about. In the end, he decided that as long as he had valid reasons for hitting, then he might as well get on with it. There was a valve that he could instinctively see needed a great deal of banging, so he did.

Don't Hug Me I'm Scared

By the time the first native had got around to giving him a reassuring hug, Gendry had concluded that he now knew of three worlds he held a deep contempt for, which coincidentally happened to be all of the ones he'd experienced so far. But it was better than the ship, so he simply took extra care to watch that no one got close enough for any unexpected proximity. After spending a few hours wandering about the market area of one of the primary settlements, Gendry had found exactly where he ought to be. He'd found a smithy and after talking up his own experience (he'd apprenticed with dwarves after all!), he'd found himself gainfully employed and under the incredibly misguided idea that he had simply found a new planet to live on, this was how the rest of his life was going to be, and that he'd better just decide to be happy with it because that's simply how it was.

Rather than engineering as he was supposed to be, Gendry spent quite a lot of time making whatever was required of him, though it generally tended to be of the more mundane tool-like variety. When he wasn't working, he was finding places to buy his meals, trekking back to his private treehouse in an attempt to avoid risky hugs, and not actually paying all that much attention to the forests because he'd only just been in a world chock full of magical forests and this one didn't really seem all that exceptional to him.

(ooc: Gendry will just be here and there, trying to start his life entirely over because this is just the sort of thing that tends to happen to him. Find him at a smith, or out shopping, or trying to shoo little native children from trying to hug his leg because why)

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"Only important when we made it important. I never really liked all the titles - I just wanted to help people." Which is her way of doing her very best to avoid being called 'my lady' for as long as she can manage. It never sat comfortably on her shoulders, especially since she was never really meant to be a leader of anything at all. It was meant to be June's job, but it was passed onto her when June left and she had stepped up to the mantle with as much vigour as she could manage... Which, knowing her, might well be a little more than most.

Gendry's questions come, though, and Hermione hesitates before she shakes her head. She doesn't want this to end up hurting him, but it's not as though she can lie; she could, literally speaking, but she had never been particularly good at it, too shrill and nervous when lying was the only option.

"She went home, and there was some problems with Robb being there, since it was Seelie aligned and he was Unseelie. He ended up losing his shard and coming to stay with me, and I helped him find a place in Treun. After that there was... A power struggle? I'm not entirely sure what happened, it was never really my area, but I think Ser Loras ended up being the leader in place of Sansa."

She went home. Not to Winterfell, though. She went back to being Alayne Stone, an exile and accused murderer, hiding in a place far from home. He'd spoken long enough to know what that meant for Sansa Stark. Yet somehow that brought her here instead, only with no memory of the Drabwurld. She would never know all the things he'd done for her or how when it came time to offer an oath, he only hurt her instead. He swallowed and nodded.

"I ought to have been there. I left not long after the city was attacked. I could've stayed there, been a Shield of Cothromach. But I chose this instead." He lifted the hammer he had set aside, feeling the weight of its burden. "I left for some underground city. A half dozen times, I thought of just letting them take my shard and be done with it." He snorted and shook his head. "You know, Master Bordan had me working on this gate. The Doorway to Beyond. I was making a bleeding way home, but didn't ever think a second of actually wanting to walk through it."

Stupidity. It's all he could think to describe of his actions and the year he spent away from the people he'd called his friends. And all it had bought him was this place, friendless and unable to use any of the skills he had spent so long learning. He'd gone from forging elaborate weapons of war to making shovels.

"I wanted to be there too - I wanted to be there for her. I don't know if she really considered me a friend or if we were just allies or... Trying to be, but she deserved better. I think she deserved far more than she was ever able to get, and - her family is here, on the fleet. Maybe that's making her happier, too." Hermione shifts, awkwardly, before her eyes dance over to Gendy and she hesitates, feeling a sudden rush of empathy before she tilts her head up, steeling herself to what other truth she can give him.

"There was a way to go home. Not long before I ended up coming here the shards were drawn back together and the dwarves attacked with mechanical monsters. A group called the Red Hand stole all the shards the Unseelie and the Seelie were keeping and performed a ritual to rejoin them, and they created a huge mountain. When it was all done we were all able to visit our homes and... And we could stay there, too, if we wanted. I didn't want to go home - it wasn't home anymore."

Hermione's hands drop away and she shakes her head, feeling lost and uncertain.

"And now I'm here, and - and nothing really feels as important anymore."

He knew what mechanical monsters she spoke of. He felt a flicker of shame to think that those beasts he'd had a hand in creating might have harmed those he called friends. Another mistake, he realized. But the rest he had a hard time grasping. He remembered only vaguely that the shards were all a part of some other whole, but he never really understood what that meant. If it left the both of them here, he supposed it must've not been a whole lot.

"Might be it was all some big jape. A game played by those fairy lords. Why else cast us off here? What use was any of it?"

"We managed to stop the Void coming." Hermione believes that is what they were meant to do - she never believed in the Seelie ideals of letting the void come and destroy everything so things could be reborn. She couldn't handle the idea of losing everything she'd worked for and losing all the people she loved with all her heart; she couldn't bear the Unseelie ideals of letting the world survive but come to an end, a rotting one, where everything would just die. She believed in finding another way, and she was determined.

"But - I don't think Solais or Morla sent us here. If they did we'd still have our shards, and - well, I don't have mine."

"Nor me," he said morosely. He was in some sense relieved to be free of the responsibility, but it was strange to feel lesser than he once had. "But you were right in the middle of all of it, weren't you? Why?"

After he nearly got himself murdered by Reynard, he'd done very little to involve himself in the conflict between the courts. He'd secured himself away in Troichean Beinn to avoid being caught in the crossfire of all that. It was hard to imagine why she would want to be wrapped up in all of that.

"Because there were people I cared about that I had to protect." The answer comes easily to her, at least, and Hermione shakes her head, trying to think. It's not as easy as just knowing, not really, and she has to pause for a moment to consider, her expression tightening as she tries to explain properly. It's hard, especially since the responsibility and the power she had been given had exhausted her, but she knows she would never have given it up, not really.

"I was able to do some good in the world. I could help people, and I could give them tasks and offer them rewards that were useful to them - and I could be there, too, when the worst came about and there was a battle or a war. That's what made it worthwhile."

Brave. He supposed she would have to be, in the end. Those were all very noble reasons for which Gendry could certainly understand, though he'd never been nearly willing enough to stick out his neck for it. Not when a fair number of his friends were either on the other side or were sensible enough to keep their heads low.

"Hm. Still here, though. Was it worth it?"

"It was. I'd do it all again, too." She thinks so. Hermione knows might make a few changes - she might do things a little differently - but whatever the pain and the suffering was... She would keep fighting and she would live through it all again. She had been in a war before she had been brought by Solais and she lived through another one, and - she's glad that this place isn't making her suffer through another one.

Hesitating, she turns her head back to Gendry before she swallows.

"Are you - are you okay with the fact that Sansa doesn't remember?"

That was a tricky question for which he had no answer. There were things he wished she did remember, but others it was easier she didn't. Had Sansa arrived here knowing everything, he wasn't sure he could even face her. At least like this, he could keep some distance. Gendry's eyes traveled to glare off at some hanging leaf before he answered.

"It makes no matter," he said. "Someone else decided whether she'd know. They chose this."

That was how things were. Gendry was not opposed to defying the established order, but it took quite a bit to sweep him up into it. In this instance, he didn't see the point.

That's not really what she asked, but Hermione isn't going to push on a topic with someone she barely knows. She would have been there for Gendry had he needed it, but it's rather obvious that he doesn't - that he's fine, just the way he is, handling this with his own strength. She hadn't dealt with Sansa and Robb forgetting particularly well, but she had managed to scrape her emotions back together and now? Now she was doing okay. She was finding some hope in the midst of dozens of people not recognising her and it was good. It was easier.

"You're right. We just have to try and manage with the fact that we know them and they don't know us. It's not easy, but - it's doable."

Robb knows now, at least, but Sansa - well. Sansa might never know that she and Hermione knew each other and were on the cusp of friendship, but that's okay. She can get to know Sansa just as well here, and she looks forward to that, at least.

"There's plenty of people about. And them, they're with the fleet, besides. Ain't no use trying to remake something broken." He lifted his hammer a bit higher. "People ain't like steel. There ain't no point in tryin' to mend something broken. I'd just as soon make something new."

It was a very, very embittered response. But this was the defense he had established for himself in order to justify trying to avoid the close friends that had forgotten him. If he could simply treat them as being beyond repair, then he could justify having nothing to do with them. It was the path of least resistance. Forgetting them back was easier.

"No, you're right. You're completely right." Hermione drinks him in for a moment, her eyes flickering over his face before she smiles and nods her head. He makes a good point, and maybe that's part of the problem she's always had - she wants to help people, to repair their broken parts, and she feels it sting somewhere deep inside of her before she breathes out, shifting to hold herself a little higher. She doesn't want to let on to that, though, and instead she focusses on him.

"A broken relationship - it's broken. But you can try and make something new with someone if you care about them enough. I think that's what I have to remember myself, really. That's what I have to remember with Robb."

This was not easy for either of them, that much was plain. It was a terribly difficult thing to be thrust into yet another new world with different rules when they had only barely managed to grasp how the last one worked, or even their originals. He dealt with it much like he dealt with all the other things life had given him. He set it aside.

A moment like this was the sort of thing where he expected that two persons such as themselves ought to hug it out. Somewhere he suspected someone was actually watching them waiting for them to do that. But that was not Gendry. Instead he reached out, gave the side of her shoulder a light double tap. "You'll be alright."

By which he meant to say, he was going to be alright and maybe she would as well.

Honestly, Hermione had zero expectations from Gendry; she knew it must be strange, to come across someone who knew the world you were in before but had seen more of it, had been around in it for longer, and to hear news about Sansa and the others... It couldn't have been easy for him to hear. The fact that he was keeping his head held high and appeared stronger despite the weight of new information... That was something she respected, and her lips turn up into a smile as she nods her head.

"I know. I've gotten used to weird, mental things happening - not just every now and then anymore. It's practically every day." She lifts a shoulder, trying to act as though all of this hasn't bothered her as much as it has in reality. She turns to look out at the rest of the market instead before she breathes out, crossing her arms.

"Do you know what ship you're on yet?"

Ah, this was easier to deal with. The Drabwurld was not ever going to be forgotten, but he found it very easy to compartmentalize it as just another strange twist his life had taken after he'd been sent to join the Night's Watch. Spaceships were something he'd started to deal with and very promptly discard.

"Mm. The Golden. I didn't much like it, though. I ain't been on it since I landed on the planet. I don't mean to go back."

Oh. Hermione hated to be the bearer of bad news, but it happened to be that she often was - she ended up being the person that would give out the bad news because she had all the information. It was one of the downsides of trying to learn as much as you could, and she shifts awkwardly before she breathes out and tilts her head back up to look at Gendry properly.

"You can't exactly stay on the planet. If your ship does leave without you, which I can't imagine it will, then the Atroma will just bring you back to the Golden. We can't actually stay that far away from them."

One thing that could be remarked about Gendry was his difficulty in properly expressing himself, but in this instance he demonstrated a remarkable example of just how deep and ingrained his own stubbornness was. This was seen in the complete lack of reaction he had to the difficult news she had been forced to give him. What he did do was simply shrug, rub at his nose, and glance scornfully at the sky.

"Aye, so I keep being told. Might be that's what will happen. Might not. I'm no one important, they may just forget all about me." They would not be the first, clearly.

For a moment Hermione just watches him, staring, before she bites her lip and forces herself to swallow her laughter - certain that Gendry wouldn't appreciate it. His stubbornness reminds her of a few people she'd met in the Drabwurld, not him, of course, but others, and it's almost fantastical to be reminded of it by someone who was actually there. Instead of laughing she just crosses her arms behind her back, nodding her head.

"There are worse places to end up staying, I suppose. The last planet we were on had poisonous air, so we all would've died without gas masks. At least here it's... Happier."

"Too happy," he said dryly. The last thing he wanted was anyone trying to get too close to him, but this seemed a particularly important effort for the locals. "But it's better than anywhere else they're like to take me."

Whether it was another poisonous planet or worse, Westeros itself.

"You're probably right. We could end up back in the Drabwurld at any point, though - that's something to be optimistic about, I think." Hermione thinks that, at least, because she thinks that going back home is something that she can look forward to. They'd have to let her go back eventually, and she needs to believe that. She can't just... Not. She can't let go.

"Really?" He scratched his head thoughtfully. It was true that he had begun to think of the Drabwurld as home, but he'd done the same thing for the Brotherhood and King's Landing before that. Home as he knew it was not something which had much in the way of continuity. "I was content to stay there, aye. But folk was talking often about the Void. Seemed the world wasn't to last long. Besides, that war didn't seem like to end any time soon. At least here there's no fighting. And nobody trying to gut you for some bleeding shard you never asked for."

Besides, he was one year behind the curve it seemed. He wasn't sure what that would even mean if he went back.

"If it makes you feel better, we managed to deal with the Void situation." Mostly. It wasn't exactly easy, and they'd had to do a lot of work and risk a lot of lives, but they had done their best. It had stopped the world from ending and stopped both Solais and Morla having total power and control, which was enough to give them time to try and plan around the way things were going. The world would've ended up either dying of rot or being forced to be reborn, both of which meant losing all the people she loved. Despite being Marchioness of the Caer Glaem White Citadel Hermione hadn't been prepared to follow the Seelie course to the end.

"We were actually... Trying to fix things properly. That's when I was brought here."

Gendry considered that and gave a good solid look at the people all around them. There had been one thing that had been lingering in his mind. "That's good about the Void. But, you know, they used to always make a lot of fuss about how it was all ending. Not just that world, but all of 'em. But here we are, off in spaceships. You reckon that all of that stuff was all a bunch of bunk?"

He'd always held the opinion it was probably bunk anyway, but all the talk of doom and finality didn't seem to add up to a whole lot when the two of them could land themselves here instead.

"Well. Maybe? I don't think it was all a lie, because we saw worlds ending - there were visions, and the monarchs were getting angrier and angrier, especially after Ridire died. We went back in time and - hopefully we can find another way. It would be amazing to find a road that meant we could just keep going, that nothing had to die, but I don't know how easy that would be. We'd already lost fire magic, at least until Kaio was born, and then the wind magic was getting damaged too... It felt like it was never going to end."

Hermione breathes out, closing her eyes - because she still has nightmares about the world ending, and her own powerlessness.

"As long as we're alive and fighting we'll try and find another route. That's just how it has to be."

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