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Who: Vash and you
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Three Twins, Space Bar, and Planet
When: July 21st

[The change in Vash over the past month or so is subtle. Only those who spend a lot of time around him or know him well will have probably noticed. As of late though the smile that’s normally on his face doesn’t quite reach his eyes anymore. It’s still big and there, but just lacking a small something. He’s not as loud and rambunctious as he is normally. Still full of pep and annoyance, but again there’s a slight undertone of simply going through the motions of what’s expected.

He still shows up where expected. Bakeries ordering mountains of donuts. On the beach enjoying the sounds of the ocean. Cooking at the Space Bar. Laughing and enjoying life as normal. Although, if he doesn’t notice someone around at times he can be caught staring off into the distances. The mask nearly breaking for a moment during these moments as a frown tries to break through. Then with a shake of his head it’s gone and the normal Vash is back.

Hopefully people ordering food during Vash’s shifts at the Space Bar like well done food. Whoops.

Then the day he hates every year arrives. July 21st. The anniversary of the destruction of the city of July. Or at least, as best as he can figure by the fleet’s calendar.

Today Vash sits quietly on the beach, uneaten donuts and bottle of whiskey sitting next to him, and he can’t muster the strength to even pretend to smile. Not today; even though he tried earlier.

It’s at this moment Vash’s communicator he had placed in the sand decides to turn on. Catching him just as he stands with the whiskey in his hand. He considers the bottle a moment, twisting it in his hand, before opening it and pouring it slowly out onto the sand.]

I’m sorry, that this is all I can do for now. I promise, I’ll find a way back one day. I’m not running away this time. I’ll make sure it won’t happen again. I’m so sorry.

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Maybe that.

[He goes near cross eyed looking at the slug without moving away from it.]

You're like them.

[Vash manages to hold back a soft chuckle watching Cole interact with the slug.]

Yeah? You think so? [He use to be told daily sometimes by how he can be too nice. So he won't argue that.] I guess I just really want to believe that cheering up one person can do a lot for changing the world into something better.

I think so.

[Vash wants to help people. So do the slugs. So does Cole.]

It can. You've made that person's entire world better. And if their world is better, they share that with everyone they meet.

Exactly! [Someone who gets it!]

Just think of what the world would be like if we all just smiled at each other a bit more.

I don't really smile. My face doesn't... move a lot.

Well, there's more to life than smiling. But you could always practice I suppose if you want to try to change your face more. I hear smiling can actually make you feel better.

Does it?

I don't know. Having a real body is strange. Most people don't choose to smile, they just do.

Well, it takes more muscles to frown then it does to smile. So it's a bit easier to do. But it doesn't really matter too much if it's a lot of work to smile. Just do what you're comfortable and makes you happy.

I don't frown.

[Frowning is a bit more alien than smiling.]

Yeah, but you don't always look very happy.

Are you happy?

I am... content.

[Cole has been happy, but isn't that. Content feels like the right word.]

Content is pretty good. Much better than being sad and upset at least.

I don't really get sad much. I get upset when people hurt other on purpose. I don't like it much.

And you shouldn't like it. But I'm glad you're content most of the time. [Because he wondered for awhile if Cole was always secretly miserable.]

Yes.

I'm lonely without Jove and Elly and Solas and Varric and Cullen and Cassandra, but Mikleo and Sorey and you and Nami are still here.

Yeah. It's hard to be away from friends, but good you're making new ones so you're not lonely.

And I'm glad you think of me as a friend too. [As Vash would be quick to admit he wasn't too friendly at the start.]

Unless they come back here, I won't get to see them again. We're not from the same Thedas.

[He gives a small shrug and then a tiny smile.]

Of course! Why wouldn't I?

Well, it's just I wasn't exactly very nice at the start when we first met.

You thought your brother had sent me. You were scared. That's okay. We're all scared sometimes.

Yeah, well I'm still sorry. You're way too nice to work with someone like him. I should have known better.

You couldn't have known differently. I knew lots of things and he's hurt you a lot with other people.

I forgive you. Forgive yourself.

Thanks. I'll try to let it go. [And he means that. He did have a pretty good reason for wanting to avoid anything to do with Knives for awhile there.]

You should. You're better at forgiving others than yourself.

Yeah, I suppose that's true. [No argument there. Although he's not good at forgiving certain people more than himself.]

Cadash would say you hold yourself to a higher, stupid standard. She said things like that. Then laugh and poke people in the stomach and say 'boop'.

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