[003 🐚 Video]

[goodandtrue]

Who: Jeyne Westerling
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: She can be found on Blue Fish
When: 5/02

[If she had been hysterical before, it doesn't show now. Jeyne seems composed and calm when she switches on the feed, despite what she has to announce to the Fleet. It isn't the first time she's faced this, but it's the first time that she's been here when it happened.]

For those that might need him, Robb will be unable to tend to his duties or visit for awhile. He's currently asleep. [She won't say coma, she won't say stasis or whatever else it was called. He was asleep and he'd wake up again.] Seeker is with me, but he might some exercise. If someone could help me with him? I don't want to leave Robb while he is sleeping.

I will also have to defer my duties for a time to another. I know this is an inconvenience, I am sorry for that.

Thank you.

Comments

[goodandtrue]

I don't want to seem like I'm shirking my duties.

[But it's Robb. She will always choose him first.]

Gods, I don't know how I can bear this again. He's here, he's so close but it's like he's gone.

[bryces_pup]

He's just sleeping. He'll awaken, as he always does. And you can scold him for it. Try to remember to take care of yourself, too.

[goodandtrue]

I know he is sleeping, but it doesn't change how close it feels like losing him again.

[She wiped at her eyes.]

I wish I knew how to wake him. I need him with me.

[bryces_pup]

Jeyne. [Her tone is soft but firm.] Take a deep breath. He is still here, and he has not gone anywhere. I know you miss him, but you must gather your strength. Fretting over him won't help.

[goodandtrue]

This is the second time he's been in this sleep.

[She takes a deep breath, but feels no different than before. She's still worried, still afraid.]

Why do the Atroma do this?

[bryces_pup]

I wish I knew, Jeyne. For their own amusement, perhaps. We could go round and round all day trying to figure it out.

[The poor girl is going to worry herself into a fit at this rate. Riona places a hand on her shoulder.]

Let's take a walk. Get you out of here for a bit.

[goodandtrue]

It still wouldn't wake him up.

[Gods, she never truly attacked anyone, but she wishes she could now.]

No, I can't. He doesn't sleep well without me. He will have nightmares.

[bryces_pup]

Jeyne, you can't be at his side all hours of the day. You must take care of yourself. Besides, this isn't a normal sleep. He may not even have dreams. I know I didn't when I was in one of these.

[goodandtrue]

When he woke last time, he had memories of the wedding. I don't want him to wake alone, in case there is something else in his head.

Please, Riona. Would you leave your husband were he like this?

[bryces_pup]

My husband would not want me hovering over him constantly, worrying and fretting. I am not saying you can't be at his side at all, but you need to give yourself a break.

[goodandtrue]

I will sleep, Riona and I will eat. I won't neglect myself.

[bryces_pup]

Taking care of yourself goes beyond the basic necessities. Keeping yourself cooped up and at his side all the time isn't healthy. You need fresh air, and a break from that.

[goodandtrue]

And if he disappears while I am gone? How could I ever forgive myself for that? He's gone from my world. I wasn't with him when he died, he left me behind.

I won't leave him! If something happens, I would rather be here than separated again.

[bryces_pup]

If he disappears, there is nothing you could do to stop it. People tend to leave when we're asleep, so no one sees it happen. And you won't get to say goodbye, not unless you say it to him every time you see him, bracing yourself for it. I'm not saying you can't sit with him for awhile, Jeyne. Just give yourself a half hour for fresh air.