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[goldenglasses]

Who: Vash and you
Broadcast: The type you regret in the morning!
Action: On the planet, Twin Roses, or The Space Bar
When: Backdated to July 21st

[When the fleet first arrives to the planet Vash for once doesn't look overly excited by finally reaching a populated area. Usually he's so excited to meet the locals and take in the sights. Those who spend a lot of time with Vash regularly may have noticed that his smile doesn't seem to reach as far or seem as genuine over the last few days.

It drops completely when the twinkling lights of the city come into view. It should be breath taking and beautiful, but they had to show up to a large city on that anniversary. Those who sampled the chocolate donut with sprinkles during Vash's calibration room may know that this is the anniversary of Lost July. The day Vash destroyed a city of millions.

Going to one of the food courts in a busy shopping center was a mistake. He thought being around a lot of people would help ease the nightmares of the destroyed city and the terrible silence that followed the destruction, but no, it only made it worse. Which may explain why Vash is sitting with an untouched hamburger in front of him as he grips his right arm tightly. He's not making a scene, but his eyes are starting to fill with tears and his mind has gone for a wander. He probably won't notice if someone walked up close to him right away.

As he is having literal nightmares at night. Luckily he doesn't wake up screaming, but the crew of the Twin Roses with good hearing may pick up that he has been waking up at different points at night with a loud gasp or shouts of STOP! or NO! in his room. He can only do so much to try to hide the tired eyes he has during the day. Or maybe Vash has accidentally fallen asleep in a common area and has suddenly sat bolt upright once someone walks into the room with him.

To try to distract his mind Vash will try to take up extra shifts at The Space Bar. Or if he's really not wanted in the kitchen he'll hang out and have a few drinks. He'll also take his drinking home to the Twin Roses as he feels like the drinking helps him sleep. To his credit he never drinks to the point of being obnoxious, but it will likely be noticeable he's drinking a bit more. Stupid rapid healing making it hard to stay buzzed.

Or at least most of the time he doesn't get completely drunk. There is the one time he drinks a bit too much and opens his communicator.]

Hey. [A long pause.] Do you ever think about big events that happened back on your planet. Maybe it was world changing or- or maybe it just changed your world--

[He trails off for a moment. What was he talking about?] And think about how none of the places we visit have ever heard of it. Life, it just goes on. I suppose that's a good thing...

[He's not drunk. You're drunk.]

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[alwayscomeback]

[UM. ]

...You okay there, buddy?

[Because you seem very Not Okay. And also drunk. ]

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[goldenglasses]

Ha! Of course I'm okay! Why wouldn't I be okay? I'm fine! Just fine!

[He's drunk. Just drunk.]

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[alwayscomeback]

You really don't look or sound fine. How much have you been drinking?

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[goldenglasses]

I haven't had that many! [He scoffs as if insulted that Sokka would even SUGGEST it was the drinking. Only, the problem was he couldn't rightly remember how much he's had now.]

Okay. I may have had a couple.

voice.

[paraclete]

[Even when Kaworu opens the line, there's a couple of seconds of dead air. Radio silence. An evocative stillness. And when he does finally speak...]

Any one person is the only person who knows all and exactly what has happened to them.

[...his voice is like gauze pressed over a wound, that pristine cotton with an underlying pressure and sting. He's tender, when he says it. Maybe weirdly tender. And he doesn't often elaborate on anything he says, but,] That includes what a person has felt, in their world, in the changing of their world. Life goes on. Life will always, always go on, for one person if not another. Without the hope of that, there is no world to change. It's a good thing. Everyone needs that little hope. Something to stand ahead of you, waiting for you to come see it.

voice.

[goldenglasses]

It is good. I'm glad that it goes on. It's good it keeps going. [He may not realise that he repeats himself in the current haze the booze has created.]

But-- still, I'm sure every world has a giant event that has happened that has changed... changed, well, everything. Then you find people who haven't even heard about it. Let alone-- let alone even think about... you know... things.

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[tempredmental]

Yeah. I try not to, though.

[Keith frowned.]

You okay?

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[goldenglasses]

Yeah. I suppose that's the best thing. [A beat.]

About how other worlds know nothing of those types of events or try not to think of the event itself? [Because he can completely understand both.]

Me? Ha! Yeah! I'm fine! Perfectly fine! [It's like people think it's NOT healthy to try to drink away your feelings!]

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[tempredmental]

The event itself. If others don't know about it and can't acknowledge it, then it's easier to just not think about it in the same way.

[He shrugged.

The insistence at being okay got a frown, but Keith didn't push for now.]

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[goldenglasses]

But, so many people died. Would it be wrong to not think about them anymore?

[As he forgets he was trying to keep this question open and vague.]

[morphitudinous]

Yes, but...

[He hesitates. His secret's kind of blown open, but still...]

I only hope that everyone's safe.

Are you all right, by the way?

[goldenglasses]

Yeah, yeah. I'm fine. [Why was everyone asking him this? Isn't it normal to open up communication after drinking for long hours and asking sad questions?]

I hope everyone is safe too. Something happening back home for you?

[morphitudinous]

Frequent attacks at home. I'm always worried about my friends and family.

I mean...it'd be out of my control, but not knowing is the worst part.

[goldenglasses]

Oh. Well. That's terrible.

[He should say more, but he's too drunk to think of the right thing to say to that.]

Not knowing is pretty hard.

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[moseyin]

[Hey...it's that guy]

...maybe nobody just wants to talk to our neck of the woods. Maybe all our Planets are the embarrassment of the universe.

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[goldenglasses]

[Hey, it's that other guy.]

Well, I mean, I don't think it's on purpose. I don't know about your planet. Well, past that there are churches on it.

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[moseyin]

...are you drunk? Are you doing that musing philosophical 'what is the meaning of life' drunk thing right now?

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[goldenglasses]

What?! No way!

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[goldenglasses]

[A pause as he looks around at the empty bottles.]

Oh, wait.... maybe.

[voice]

[scanninggaydis]

[Felix still doesn't feel like facing anyone who was in his head if he doesn't have to, but at this point he's not avoiding anyone.

....And this is such a different side of Vash that he finds it difficult to ignore it completely.]

This has got to be the least cheerful I've ever seen you.

[He...can tell Vash isn't okay, though, so there's less wryness behind that statement than there could be.]

[voice]

[goldenglasses]

Can't be cheerful all the time. [He admits it freely on this anniversary and after drinking as much as he has.]

Some days, you just need to feel sad. So long as they don't outnumber the happy ones.

[scanninggaydis]

[It's not like he's happy that Vash is sad....it just makes him a hell of a lot easier to deal with.

...That probably says a lot about Felix.]

See, that actually makes sense.

[Not the love and peace stuff, though.]

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[ecclesiophobic]

Considering what was happening to the universe where I came from, I'm glad no one here knows of it. Means we aren't fucked.

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[goldenglasses]

Huh. [There's a pause as Vash thinks about that for awhile. Something being that bad that it was a good thing not to hear about it.]

I hadn't really thought about that before. Kitty had mentioned things were pretty bad where you two are from. [And from what he had seen of her memories.]

Ah, you two are from the same universe, right? [That can be so confusing at times.]

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[ecclesiophobic]

[He hums a soft affirmative, adding a second later:] Same world, ten years apart. More or less; afraid I lost track of time for a while during the second war.

The point is, our planet was in the midst of being destroyed, with the rest of the universe to follow. So that's why I'm glad no one we've met here knows of my world's sorry fate; it would mean the rest of this reality wasn't long for existence. [He says it calmly and with little more than a thoughtful expression, as though he didn't watch everyone he'd ever loved fall or be turned into something grotesque in a vain attempt to stop the inevitable.]