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driftfleet2019-01-05 11:34 am
rebuildyourruins) wrote in driftfleet2019-01-05 11:34 am
Entry tags:
- haggar,
- loki,
- lup,
- taako,
- thor odinson
action and video.
Who: Thor + you
Broadcast: yes, video
Action: First Breath and Blue Fish
When: January 3rd - 4th
closed to Natasha.
[It takes some time for Thor to calm down enough from the shock of his memories to even think about what to do next. He had effectively chosen one thing of importance - Loki - and firmly shoved everything else to the side for hours. To take stock of the rest of it, look his own glaring mistakes in the face, was too much for him at the outset. But Thor isn't selfish at heart. There's only so long he can take focusing on himself before his mind turns to others.
He has to review what he knows from those last shattering moments on Earth with a grim objectivity before he gets in touch with the others. Once he does, it's easy enough to put together some of the pieces from his conversations with Natasha and know she's the one to call.
Not call exactly, but text.]
Can you meet me in the Space Bar?
[He briefly considers saying something else, bracing her for what he wants. There's no way he can think of to put that into text, though, so he doesn't. Once it's sent, he heads over to the Iskaulit to wait.]
action - first breath.
[Thor hadn't exactly been subtle when he came hurtling through the First Breath the night before, running straight through the ship in full battle armor before shutting himself in Loki's room. And that's where he stayed for a long time.
He does eventually come out though, rubbing tiredly at his face and heading into the kitchen. Thor's been here enough times to know where everything is. After a few moments of staring blankly at the countertops and cupboards, unreality threatening to unmoor him, he shakes himself and smacks the coffee pot onto the stove.
He'll be there for a while, drinking coffee at the bench and gazing vaguely at some fixed point on the wall. Still in full cape and mail sleeves. The bone-deep exhaustion in his face might have something to do with it.]
action - blue fish.
[Thor returns to his own ship during the day, knowing abstractly that the Fleet is due to depart this world soon. In the past he would prepare for this, restocking the food supplies and ensuring everything in the armory was locked back into place and accounted for. That was when the ship had more crew, and he hadn't yet become captain. Still, it needed to be done. Regardless of how unworthy he feels when he enters his own bedroom and sees the captain's bed in there.
Thor can be found stacking up crates in the cargo bay, checking through the fridges and freezers, and doing systems checks. Later on, he opts to sit on the top of the ship, watching the snow fall in silence.]
video.
[It's not the sudden reappearance of the short, jagged hair Thor used to sport or the incongruous brown eye where his eyepatch usually is that most dominates Thor's face when the video switches on. It's the weariness etched in hard lines all over him. There's no mistaking it, regardless of his otherwise composed demeanour. He merely nods at the camera before he starts, gruffer than usual.]
For those who knew her, Riona Cousland Theirin has left the Fleet. She was here for over three years, so I know she will be missed by many of us.
[There's a pause as though he might say more, but decides against it.]
The captaincy of the Blue Fish has fallen to me in her place. If you have any questions about that, you can bring them to me. [Thor shuts his eyes briefly, shaking his head.] Or... anything else.
[No doubt there might be some. He switches off the feed.]
Broadcast: yes, video
Action: First Breath and Blue Fish
When: January 3rd - 4th
closed to Natasha.
[It takes some time for Thor to calm down enough from the shock of his memories to even think about what to do next. He had effectively chosen one thing of importance - Loki - and firmly shoved everything else to the side for hours. To take stock of the rest of it, look his own glaring mistakes in the face, was too much for him at the outset. But Thor isn't selfish at heart. There's only so long he can take focusing on himself before his mind turns to others.
He has to review what he knows from those last shattering moments on Earth with a grim objectivity before he gets in touch with the others. Once he does, it's easy enough to put together some of the pieces from his conversations with Natasha and know she's the one to call.
Not call exactly, but text.]
Can you meet me in the Space Bar?
[He briefly considers saying something else, bracing her for what he wants. There's no way he can think of to put that into text, though, so he doesn't. Once it's sent, he heads over to the Iskaulit to wait.]
action - first breath.
[Thor hadn't exactly been subtle when he came hurtling through the First Breath the night before, running straight through the ship in full battle armor before shutting himself in Loki's room. And that's where he stayed for a long time.
He does eventually come out though, rubbing tiredly at his face and heading into the kitchen. Thor's been here enough times to know where everything is. After a few moments of staring blankly at the countertops and cupboards, unreality threatening to unmoor him, he shakes himself and smacks the coffee pot onto the stove.
He'll be there for a while, drinking coffee at the bench and gazing vaguely at some fixed point on the wall. Still in full cape and mail sleeves. The bone-deep exhaustion in his face might have something to do with it.]
action - blue fish.
[Thor returns to his own ship during the day, knowing abstractly that the Fleet is due to depart this world soon. In the past he would prepare for this, restocking the food supplies and ensuring everything in the armory was locked back into place and accounted for. That was when the ship had more crew, and he hadn't yet become captain. Still, it needed to be done. Regardless of how unworthy he feels when he enters his own bedroom and sees the captain's bed in there.
Thor can be found stacking up crates in the cargo bay, checking through the fridges and freezers, and doing systems checks. Later on, he opts to sit on the top of the ship, watching the snow fall in silence.]
video.
[It's not the sudden reappearance of the short, jagged hair Thor used to sport or the incongruous brown eye where his eyepatch usually is that most dominates Thor's face when the video switches on. It's the weariness etched in hard lines all over him. There's no mistaking it, regardless of his otherwise composed demeanour. He merely nods at the camera before he starts, gruffer than usual.]
For those who knew her, Riona Cousland Theirin has left the Fleet. She was here for over three years, so I know she will be missed by many of us.
[There's a pause as though he might say more, but decides against it.]
The captaincy of the Blue Fish has fallen to me in her place. If you have any questions about that, you can bring them to me. [Thor shuts his eyes briefly, shaking his head.] Or... anything else.
[No doubt there might be some. He switches off the feed.]
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[Thor might have survived the blast and the drift in space, but he wouldn't have lasted that way forever. He knows that.]
And they wouldn't have come at all without that message.
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Good. That's all I wanted.
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[Loki had made that clear, though it still sits terribly inside of Thor, like a rock in his gut. There's only so much death he can swallow, it seems.
He picks up his coffee again and has another sip, cutting his eyes over at Loki.]
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Are you . . . angry over my choice?
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Am I-- what?
[It's definitely the most emphatic reaction Thor's had to anything since their awful first day back. He gapes at Loki for a moment before shaking his head in disbelief.]
You think I'm angry about it?
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No. I don't mean — [ he breathes out, rattled. ] — I don't mean that you're angry at me.
[ but a long pause descends after those words and loki tries again. ]
I think that you don't like that I gave it all up.
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Of course I don't. Of course I'm angry at what happened. I'm-- you died.
[What part of that doesn't make sense? Thor doesn't know what Loki is expecting otherwise. For him to be glad it all happened? He can't stomach that idea, knowing where Loki's sacrifice lead. That's his failure, not Loki's. Releasing his death grip on the mug, Thor sets it down before he shatters the stupid thing.]
I don't like any of what happened.
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loki had to construct his own myth to feel validated. ]
Of course not.
[ a sigh. ]
Nevermind. Perhaps I am not saying this correctly.
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[Blunt and simple. Thor wants to know what Loki's getting at too, before he bolts too far down another path.]
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I — I don't value my life as much as yours. I . . . imagine that is what was — what could be something that made you angry.
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Yes, [His reply is low, strained] yes, it can. It does. Only I haven't thought about that much, Loki.
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I didn't mean to bring it up. I am merely . . . concerned.
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About me? [He sighs, turning back to Loki at last.] I don't know what to tell you, Loki.
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. . . Is there nothing you can tell me then?
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I don't know what I'm doing anymore. What I'm supposed to do now.
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It is difficult to know when you are trapped here. But you can find Valkyrie. Stark will return and the rest — well, I have no doubt you will find Thanos and obliterate him. The Gems, altogether . . . is not something he can use over and over. It'll burn him away.
After that, I imagine you will do whatever heroes do. For heroes are needed.
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Thor does remember the acrid stench of the burned gauntlet, though. The smoke rising from the metal. He remembers all of that.
He takes a breath.]
I do not intend on giving up. [He had said as much to Steve earlier today, a comment that surged out of nowhere despite his lack of any firm basis to rest it on. As always Thor manages to dredge it out of himself like an anchor hauling up something stubborn.] But Valkyrie is far away. [If she lives.] There are other things I'll-- need to handle first.
[The wreck and ruin of Earth, for one thing. The disintegration of some of his last remaining team.]
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Of course. You have a lot to see to.
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[Much like last time, where he spent all that energy working on plans that would never come to fruition.]
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[ it's not imbued with confidence, but there's a veneer of calm. it might remind thor of days long past, when they sat shoulder to shoulder. your time will come, loki had said then. not that much has changed. ]
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There's familiarity in the words. Thor wishes it inspired something more resolute in him instead of the wretched wrench of loss. If his time comes he doesn't know if anyone will be there beside him.
He wipes at his eyes and nods, not trusting himself to speak.]
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