Bucky Barnes ★ Captain America (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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driftfleet2019-02-16 03:39 pm
stillgotmyleftarm) wrote in driftfleet2019-02-16 03:39 pm
★ 1 | ACTION ★
Who: Bucky!Cap Barnes
Action: Throughout the Marsiva holding area
When: Feb 15-17-ish
[Bucky is new. He's new, and confused, and he figures the best way to get answers is to go find them. For better or worse, there's not a whole lot of space in which to find them, since he's limited to the same holding area as the rest of the passengers, but on the plus side, given that everyone else is confined to the same area, he's more likely to run into said passengers. When he spots someone who looks like they might be amenable to talking, he's very likely to approach.
For the most part, the faces are not familiar; he wanders the living area and the kitchen (where he's likely to stop and get some coffee, thank God that seems to exist here). He pokes his head into the bathroom and gym, too, and of course actually makes use of the former to take a shower on a regular basis. The gym he doesn't so much use as inspect and note; he's still too wary of where he is for anything resembling recreation, and thanks to the serum, he doesn't actually need to do much in the way of regular training to keep himself up. Maybe later.
Mostly, what will strike people is the fact that his face looks like the Bucky Barnes already on board, if you've managed to get a good look at that, but his hair is cropped short and his face is clean-shaven and his left arm is definitely not metal. All he's got to wear is the dark blue STRIKE uniform (sans helmet and shield) that looks - to some people, probably - like it should belong on Steve Rogers instead.]
Action: Throughout the Marsiva holding area
When: Feb 15-17-ish
[Bucky is new. He's new, and confused, and he figures the best way to get answers is to go find them. For better or worse, there's not a whole lot of space in which to find them, since he's limited to the same holding area as the rest of the passengers, but on the plus side, given that everyone else is confined to the same area, he's more likely to run into said passengers. When he spots someone who looks like they might be amenable to talking, he's very likely to approach.
For the most part, the faces are not familiar; he wanders the living area and the kitchen (where he's likely to stop and get some coffee, thank God that seems to exist here). He pokes his head into the bathroom and gym, too, and of course actually makes use of the former to take a shower on a regular basis. The gym he doesn't so much use as inspect and note; he's still too wary of where he is for anything resembling recreation, and thanks to the serum, he doesn't actually need to do much in the way of regular training to keep himself up. Maybe later.
Mostly, what will strike people is the fact that his face looks like the Bucky Barnes already on board, if you've managed to get a good look at that, but his hair is cropped short and his face is clean-shaven and his left arm is definitely not metal. All he's got to wear is the dark blue STRIKE uniform (sans helmet and shield) that looks - to some people, probably - like it should belong on Steve Rogers instead.]
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But Natasha got t know that face very well over the last couple of years, and while it may have been a different man wearing it, it wasn't an entirely different man.
She doesn't pry. Instead, she lets the reaction slip past her with no more than a mental note.]
Thought that might come as a surprise. Sorry I was too late to warn you? [She offers up an apologetic smile, which softens slightly as she continues.] Hard to kill might be one way to put it.
Not for lack of people trying.
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[Bucky makes a noise that is just this side of too polite to be a snort, if barely.] Not on you.
[The smile that twitches his lips a moment later is wry.] Yeah, there seem to be a lot of those people. I mean - I guess I can't ever complain again, given... [you know. All the shit this other him has apparently been through.
And he knows it's not on her to keep him informed, and he won't blame her if she doesn't answer, but he still can't stop himself from asking (well, it's mostly a question, if somewhat a statement), quietly:] Steve took it badly, didn't he.
[Bucky knows how he feels, after all, given the possibility that he missed Steve somewhere in that ravine. And he's seen Steve's face, here. He knows. He just maybe needs that outside perspective, and if she's willing to give it to him, he's going to trust it.]
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Biased, to put it lightly.
But it's not really Natasha's place to explain the ins and outs of how Steve's friendship with Bucky (his Bucky) had become leverage for upending first SHIELD then the Avengers.
Finally, she huffs softly.]
Took it badly is one way to put it, yeah. [Confirming what he already knows.] But he's had chances to reconnect. That's more than some people get.
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[That look definitely tells him what he needs to know, and he already knew the answer to the question before he asked it.
But okay. Yeah. It's probably as bad as he thinks, if not worse.
He nods.] Yeah. It is. [Some small part of him can't help but be jealous, at the same time he's afraid and excited that maybe he might get the same. God, it's so complicated. Nothing with Steve was ever easy.] Sometimes I feel like I couldn't make this shit up if I tried, you know?
That's even if I leave Loki and his army out of it, [he adds, jokingly, a second later.]
You been all right here? [he asks, a moment later.] If you're inclined to give a guy you just met an honest answer.
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It has its ups and downs.
[Which is an honest answer, as far as it's an answer at all. He'll see it for a dodge but, she hopes, a gentle one. She's not trying to push him off.
But wearing that face, can't blame a girl for trying to maintain some boundaries.]
Sometimes more downs that ups. [Added with a gesture around them, indicating the Marsiva, calibrations, the whole current situation.] Can't say I'm a fan of all this.
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Yeah, [he agrees.] Definitely weirder than not knowing anyone at all.
[But also probably more entertaining from the outside. If one wants to think about it that way.
He gets, though, that she's not going to just open up to him and tell him all the details. Honestly, what she does give him is more than enough - it shows that she's willing to trust him with at least a little, and to know that everything can't be hunky dory here.
Especially for her.] Yeah, [he agrees, a little more emphatically, with an understanding smile.] I'm guessing people poking around in your head is pretty much the last thing you want.
I mean, hell - even the general 'you.' No one really wants that.
And there's no way out of it? [It's a dumb question, he knows.]
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And he's right about her being the last person who wants this.]
Have you had people crawling around in your dreams?
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I guess that's a better alternative than everyone seeing everything, and me forgetting about it.
Guess I'll just have to wait and see. [Which he's not a big fan of, but he is also much more capable of as a plan of attack than, say, Steve.]
But this is a... not-normal thing, right? Like, it's not like this all the time?
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[A little shake of her head. That's still more often than she'd like, and it's never good.]
But it's not really an every day thing. Once every... year and a half or so.
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[By which he means, okay, it could be worse, but it's still shitty.
He lets out a breath, and then looks at her a little more seriously.] Sounds like there's other stuff that happens a lot more often than that, though. And I know you don't know me, but - whatever happens around here. You can count me on your side. As much or as little as you're comfortable with it.
If that means you don't call me in for help... I get that, too.
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[Which isn't to say she doesn't appreciate his consideration. The distance and respect he shows for her boundaries, however hypothetical, makes this easier.]
All things considered, I didn't know Steve all that much longer before we were fighting aliens together. If you want to consider me an ally... we can go from there.
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I would like to do that, [he admits.] I think it's a good place to start.
Where can I find you, normally? [When they're not all crammed into a single space.]
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[Possibly his, once she finds out where he's assigned. Depends on her relationship with the current crew more than anything.]
And I'm pretty much always available on the network.
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[Although,] Seems like most of the Avengers are spread out.
[He can see that being a good thing, really. He's wondering how intentional it is. If she even knows.]
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We are. [And she gets the questions that raises. She's thought of them herself.] It wasn't always that way. The Steve here before, he and Peggy and Sam, they were all on Starstruck. Vision and Tony, and me before I was here, were all on a ship together too.
Personally, I thought it was good to keep spread out. Decided to stay where they put me.
[That, and the accords, and the fact she'd wanted her space. That was more than anyone needed to have put on them in one conversation.]
It's come in handy before, when the Fleet's been attacked. Good to know who you can work with on other ships.
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An idea that just got more concrete.] That's why you travel in a fleet, isn't it? Seemed to work for the Navy. [Sometimes.]
I don't know the fucking first thing about fighting in space.
[And that's unnerving and unpleasant. He's gonna have to learn, it sounds like. Hopefully not through failure.] Does it happen often?
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[Pilot or security would both be real useful if it came down to an attack.]
In the past when we've been attacked, ships have been boarded. Even if you can't fight in space, you'd still be real fucking useful.
[Playing with his word choice.]
If it comes up. I'd say not often, but then... this doesn't happen often either.
[Not often is still often enough.]
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Still, he laughs, softly.] Somehow that's as not reassuring as it is reassuring.
[But he gets her point. And he nods, because it's a good one.
And so is the next one.] Sounds like no one really has much of an idea what's coming until it's here, huh?
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Most of the time, just enough to give us a fighting chance.
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[Honestly, he'd prefer the truth over reassurance, anyway. At least, in a situation like this.
He grins, tight and lopsided.] Sounds exactly like home, then.
I guess being on TV ain't a vacation.
[He maybe still wishes he had a weapon on him, but he'll make due. Steve said something about getting things from home, or having someone make something, so it's not impossible, after all.]
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Honestly, this might be a little bit of a vacation. Some people don't hate it.
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She's right. There are no vacations, because there's always something that needs competent people to handle.]
I could see that, [Bucky admits.] I mean... I guess it's like the ultimate form of escapism. Hell, some people probably love it.
I just don't think I can, y'know, be one of 'em.
[He definitely doesn't think she falls in that category, either.]
I guess I'll just stay on my toes, instead.
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Her smile might say as much.]
You didn't get that advice from me.
[The smile falls and she glances away, her look inclusive of the ship around him.]
If you're here long enough, it's hard not to relax somewhat.
Don't. Not if you can avoid it.
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'Course not, [he agrees genially as she smiles, like they're sharing a little secret.
But it doesn't take long for his mood to change, either.] I could see that, [he agrees. Spend long enough anywhere, even when it's someplace extreme, and at least certain aspects of it start to feel normal. Okay.
See: his experience in the future.]
I don't plan to, [he promises. Then, eyes on hers,] Let me know if it looks like I'm doing a bad job of it?
[It's hopefully a show of trust, as much as it is a genuine request.]
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She does wonder how much it comes down to his experience with his Natasha.]
I'll keep an eye out.
[All right. A little trust.]
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