Mattias "the thoroughbred of sin" Larnaca (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
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driftfleet2015-04-22 07:04 pm
noctiphile) wrote in driftfleet2015-04-22 07:04 pm
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Who: Mattias Larnaca
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: general waystation area?? vague hand gestures
When: April 22nd
[Lo and behold: Mattias fretting on a bench. It's not an obvious sort of motion, restricted to subtle shifts and twitching fingers, but it's noticeable enough to matter. He's hunched over the comm and what little the background shows is unrevealing. The corner of a building here, the awning of a kiosk there, everything unspecific.]
It's been quite a month, hasn't it? What with the attacks... [he drifts off, never very good with small talk. One of the many gifts he lacks.] It's been good to watch all the repairs. People working together... [Wow, he sure does suck at this. He chews his lip, glancing around as if looking for help. Nope. Nothing. Maybe he'll just get to the point.]
Still, tensions must be running high. Stress and such. Always have a way of sinking in. I've my own, of course. My ship fared poorly in the attacks and that—[He glances away, head sinking slightly.]—it's been the lesser of many events. I don't mean to complain but the effects are starting to wear. My usual methods aren't working. Reading—I just can't seem to concentrate and beyond that... Well. I've little else.
[He sighs, leaning back and running a hand through his hair. It messes it up a bit, but he's careful to smooth it back down.] It feels inappropriate to ask something so selfish but I'm at a loss. And there are a great many things that all of you know... [That I don't is heavily implied. He glances away, switching the comm to one hand so he can properly wring his wrist.] So, I was wondering—how do you cope? With... all of this. It doesn't have to be personal just. Just simple things. Like... jumping off a building. [Immediately, he scrunches his eyes closed.] —Bad example. But, you know what I mean.
[Fiddling nervously, he searches for something else to say, finds nothing, and cuts the feed. ]
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: general waystation area?? vague hand gestures
When: April 22nd
[Lo and behold: Mattias fretting on a bench. It's not an obvious sort of motion, restricted to subtle shifts and twitching fingers, but it's noticeable enough to matter. He's hunched over the comm and what little the background shows is unrevealing. The corner of a building here, the awning of a kiosk there, everything unspecific.]
It's been quite a month, hasn't it? What with the attacks... [he drifts off, never very good with small talk. One of the many gifts he lacks.] It's been good to watch all the repairs. People working together... [Wow, he sure does suck at this. He chews his lip, glancing around as if looking for help. Nope. Nothing. Maybe he'll just get to the point.]
Still, tensions must be running high. Stress and such. Always have a way of sinking in. I've my own, of course. My ship fared poorly in the attacks and that—[He glances away, head sinking slightly.]—it's been the lesser of many events. I don't mean to complain but the effects are starting to wear. My usual methods aren't working. Reading—I just can't seem to concentrate and beyond that... Well. I've little else.
[He sighs, leaning back and running a hand through his hair. It messes it up a bit, but he's careful to smooth it back down.] It feels inappropriate to ask something so selfish but I'm at a loss. And there are a great many things that all of you know... [That I don't is heavily implied. He glances away, switching the comm to one hand so he can properly wring his wrist.] So, I was wondering—how do you cope? With... all of this. It doesn't have to be personal just. Just simple things. Like... jumping off a building. [Immediately, he scrunches his eyes closed.] —Bad example. But, you know what I mean.
[Fiddling nervously, he searches for something else to say, finds nothing, and cuts the feed. ]
proceeds anyway tbh
I... don't know. It would depend on what it was. But... [she pauses, her eyes brightening a bit] Even though someone I know almost destroyed everything, and took my friends from me, I knew I couldn't hate her. It would have only kept the same cycle going. If you can find it in your heart to forgive them, even piece by piece... maybe you can find peace with each other!
It might take a while... but I think even if you think its unforgivable now, with time your feelings might change. So you shouldn't give up on them!
no subject
Are you always this idealistic?
[Was this what it was like talking to him? No wonder half the population found him insufferable.]
no subject
Mm.... [She's quiet for a moment.] I think so. I think it's important to remember the positive points. If all we did was despair then... we wouldn't survive, would we?
no subject
Put like that, yes. But there's a point where we must confront the reality of the situation. People aren't always as we wish for them to be and we must become satisfied with that.
no subject
I guess so. [There's a long pause of silence, long enough that Mattias might get the impression that she's left but...]
If your friend really is why you're upset, then maybe for now you should surround yourself with different people. Don't give up on them though! Even if they're not perfect, they still deserve to be loved. Even if it's hard right now. Don't give up on them.