ofbelief: (rileyicons0098)
Rɪʟᴇʏ Mᴀᴛᴛʜᴇᴡs | ❝Hᴀᴘᴘʏ Bᴇᴀɴ❞ | Lᴀʀᴋ ([personal profile] ofbelief) wrote in [community profile] driftfleet2015-08-12 02:07 am

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Who: Riley/Lark and you
Broadcast: Fleetwide, video
Action: Huntress if they want it...?!
When: Late August 11/Early 12

[So, things happened. Teammates arrive. It's kind of a mess and so Lark-- Riley-- hasn't left her personnel room as much as she usually might. There's still random pictures being put up around the Huntress when she gets up to it, but mostly she's been sitting under the tiny window where she's shoved a desk and covered it with blankets and pillows.

This is the first time she's been without her Bay Window. Even before, it was the one thing that followed her. And while it didn't solve everything, even then, this false one doesn't seem to hold the same magic. It's not solving her feelings or her problems and it's. Well, lonely... for starters.

So it's eventually that she decides to say something again. It's more than a little bit of nervousness that she turns the communicator on holed up on her make-shift window seat as she brushes back her hair. ]


Hi, again. Sorry I don't say much-- But I wanted to ask something. Because this isn't my window and i t's not working because it's not got it's magic. And I don't think it will ever, because it's not actually a window and I need a window.

[Wow, Lark, calm down.] I have two names, Riley Matthews and Rainbow Lark. And they're both really important. Riley is what mom and daddy gave me [--a slip, to those who knew her, she only says daddy when she's upset. not that it's hard to tell--] Lark is the name Takshaka gave me, before I cam here. And at the time... I only really remembered them? I remember lots more not but. That's not the point.

I know a lot of people are here from different places. I've spoken to them. And it's hard because... Things feel different? And people say I'm not different, but that's. Places like this are way different then where we're from. So I wanted to ask...

What do you do about that? Are you really still you? I think that's it. I don't really understand anything at all right now.

[She looks a little apprehensive, but tries to smile warmly. She knows people will see this she doesn't want to exactly, but she's also not good at lying. And it's not that she doesn't think she can't be Riley-- she's still a mess and wants to do good for the people she loves that are here. So of course she sat in the window for a long time. It's probably too bad none of this made sense outside of head.]
interspace: (⎌ turn the page)

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[personal profile] interspace 2015-08-12 07:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ MISHA HAS AN ANSWER FOR THIS...! Not like she hasn't had the exact same sort of crisis over different circumstances or anything. That someone so young is asking it, well, Misha can't really not-answer. She just has to be vague about it. ]

Of course you're still you. It's like... when you're ten, you get the choice to join an art club or a sports club. Say you pick art, learn how to draw or sculpt or whatever, and that's still you five years later. Or if you picked the other one, grow up getting all sporty and strong and agile and stuff, that's still you, too. Just because you aren't the same as when you were ten doesn't mean you aren't you, right?

I mean, that's simplifying it to the extreme but the same idea applies. Probably.
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[personal profile] interspace 2015-08-12 03:46 pm (UTC)(link)
That doesn't make it any less you. It's just... another path you took. Point being — you can't not-be you. No matter what happens, any way you deal with it is the way Riley, or Lark, deals with it.
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[personal profile] interspace 2015-08-17 04:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't think there's a supposed to be involved. People aren't made to follow a track. There's no... messing up a grand design or anything.
demideific: (♟or a moment that’s held in your arms。)

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[personal profile] demideific 2015-08-12 07:32 am (UTC)(link)
You're whoever you fucking want to be.
demideific: (♟you see the things。)

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[personal profile] demideific 2015-08-12 03:48 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Then you're a sucker, sry2say. ]

Then just do what you want to do. This isn't wormhole science here. That shit gets complicated.
demideific: (♟want to touch things I don’t feel。)

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[personal profile] demideific 2015-08-17 04:23 pm (UTC)(link)
Why the fuck not? Expectations are bullshit. If people want you a certain way instead of just knowing who you are, then fuck them.
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-12 07:35 am (UTC)(link)
[Miah sees that post, and... Well, it resonates. For many reasons. She went through the same thing- in many ways, she still is. Still... For the first time since arriving, she's traded off her armor- armor isn't what this kind of conversation needs- and instead wears a different costume as she knocks on Riley's door.]
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-12 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
... Good evening, milady.

[She'll refrain from 'Lady Matthews' for now, with the name problem she seems to be having.]

I thought you may wish to talk.
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-12 08:10 am (UTC)(link)
[She enters with a faint smile.]

By design, I imagine, that we may breathe.
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-12 02:57 pm (UTC)(link)
... You are speaking of a window?
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-15 06:57 am (UTC)(link)
...

If that is what offers your heart solace, then may I sit with you for a bit?
Edited 2015-08-15 06:57 (UTC)
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-15 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
Then, when your place of comfort is unavailable, people may suffice.

... I apologize if this seems forward of me. Yet you are kin to Marhi, and she to me. Though I do not know you well, I would call you kin as well.
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-15 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
[She smiles, though it's very faint.]

Ask what you wish.
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-15 08:19 am (UTC)(link)
To begin, let us sit?
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[personal profile] curiositykilledthecats 2015-08-15 08:47 am (UTC)(link)
[she'll sit down, tail twitching back and forth.]

... Would you rather ask about me, or the matter weighing upon your heart?
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[personal profile] punchingly 2015-08-12 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
[ Hmmm. It is an interesting question, and she can't help but be concerned when someone looks so young, asking so many questions...it happens to be a subject on which she also concerned herself, not too long ago. ]

You can be different, and still be yourself. [ Hmmm, she pauses, words are hard to come by for her and she seems extremely thoughtful. ] Change is...natural. And names -- you can have more than one, and not be selfish for wanting them.

I have many names, and have changed much, but that does not make me any less me. As long as you are happy with the changes.

[ And then she lets out a small hum of consideration; this is more words strung together than she's said in a long time, to be quite honest. ]
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[personal profile] punchingly 2015-08-16 06:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[ She hums a bit, thoughtfully; the response comes slower this time because she's choosing her words very carefully. It's a pause that seems to be relatively familiar to the user, as she doesn't seem overly agitated by it. She's just a quitet person. ]

Then...couldn't you accept the changes and keep your past, too? People who you love...they love you too.
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[personal profile] stefanged 2015-08-12 08:14 am (UTC)(link)
[Funny how she's asking the one thing he's been wondering himself. It doesn't sound like she's Numbered - which makes him worry more. There were other groups wrestling with double lives and two sets of memories? Not good.

Stefan takes a while to reply, though he tries hard to keep his voice as reassuring as possible:]
I wonder about that myself, but... your memories or your names don't have to define you. They're not who you are if you don't want them to be.

I guess, what I'm trying to say is... don't feel like you have to be just Riley or just Lark. You can still be both. [Or so he's coming to learn, even if he hasn't fully accepted it himself yet.]
stefanged: (that is a fair point)

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[personal profile] stefanged 2015-08-18 11:23 pm (UTC)(link)
It does change things, yeah. One life may've been peaceful, but then you get all these memories of things you'd never dream about, or people you'd never think you'd meet. [He's trying hard not to keep the voice of experience talking, but at the same time, if it'll help her out... He could help out there some. He thinks.] I wasn't talking about forgetting your Echoes - er, your memories. That doesn't always happen. [Except when it does, because Stefan has watched one too many people forget their past lives.]

I mean more, you've got two sets of memories rolling in your head, right? Go with the ones that make the most sense to you depending on what's going on.
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[personal profile] preformthisneigh 2015-08-12 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's a good question. He's definitely not the same pony he was back in Equestria. Not after his time in Paradisa, not after his time here. ]

I'd still say you were still you. Not the same you, because you've experienced things that probably don't even exist in your world, right? That sort of thing would change anypony. But that doesn't stop you being you, there's always things that stick, right? The important things. Everything else just builds around that. Like the walls to a foundation of a house.
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[personal profile] preformthisneigh 2015-08-15 06:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[Always this. Still, he keeps smiling. ]

I am absolutely one hundred per cent real and definitely not the figment of anypony's subconscious.
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[personal profile] preformthisneigh 2015-08-15 09:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[That's a little creepy, but he'll roll with it. Humans. ]

I...yeah, sure, why not. I'm Cheese Sandwich. I'm glad I made your day awesome just by existing, apparently.
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[personal profile] gunslinger 2015-08-14 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
[ Oh gosh golly damn, more than one name? Screwy memories? Not like this cheeky brat knows anything about that nope nope, yes. The poor kid, he feels for her. ]

You're always going to be you. The name and location doesn't define you; you're just making another promise. Something like that...you should just go with your gut.
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[personal profile] gunslinger 2015-08-15 11:52 pm (UTC)(link)
Not like I know the details, exactly...but maybe you're just trying too hard to listen, then? Nothing wrong with change. It's gonna happen.