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Who: Anakin
Broadcast: Fleetwide video
Action: Marsiva - Hospitality Deck
When: Dec. 17th

[ His first moments of waking up are pretty typical; groggy mumbling, hands and arms flapping around and a jerk that brings him upright then standing. Something... feels wrong. ]

Wha- Where am I?

[ His hands goes to his belt, only to grasp at air. It's alright, don't panic. It's not the first time he lost his lightsaber, not the first time he's gotten a concussion with the foggy space in his memory either. He checks his right arm, gripping it along the junction where durasteel meets flesh while he takes in his surroundings.

He scowls at the video feed that looks particularly turned on. But he doesn't care about that now. His arm is brought close to his face, and his own Jedi commlink beeps. ]

Obi-Wan? [ Nothing. ] Artoo, come in. [ More nothing. ] This is Anakin Skywalker, requesting emergency-- [ An odd electrical sound and click later, he sighs. ]

Great. I better not have to ask Obi-Wan to pick me up.

[ The same arm reaches out towards the ship's communicator and it flies to into his fist. Now, the feed points away from him and through his point of view as he scans the Hospitality deck. ]

What is ... this ship? [ The communicator shuffles. ] Where is this transmitting to?

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It's not just the Council!

[ He can't even believe Ahsoka is asking this! ]

It's a network of people who knows, have been trained, to do good. You can help people, by yourself. But can you help civilizations, a whole planet, by yourself?

[ A sigh; why the fuck is he even defending them. ]

Ahsoka, I know you have ...anger against the Council right now. [ He does, too. But it doesn't do well to encourage that by saying it. ] But you have to remember that the Masters on the Council are not the Jedi as a whole.

Edited 2015-12-27 03:09 (UTC)

Maybe not! But the beliefs and actions of the Council filter down into the ranks of ordinary Jedi. How many Jedi do you think are out there right now, who believe that the actions the Council took against me were right and justified, simply because it was the Council who did it?

How many Jedi do you think is still out there! Our ranks are thinning, the Separatists are unrelentless. They only lose droids while our friends are dying and you--

[ You quit. ]

I what, Anakin?

[She doesn't really need him to complete the sentence, though. That much is clear in her tone. She knows him well enough to have a good idea of what the rest of it was going to be. It's not really a question so much as a dare. Dare you to finish that sentence. Because she wasn't angry before, but she is now.]

I did what was right. Did you-- did you think you would just turn Barriss in, and that everything would just go back to normal after all that? That I could just go on pretending like the Order has our backs, that the way they conduct themselves is right? They don't, and it's not!

[ He knew he went too far, but in the moment, he thought of her leaving, turning her back to everything that they were, everything that they were raised to be. Those heroes. The ones looking out for each other. ]

Yes, I did! Because that was our lives!

[ This isn't how he imagined this conversation going. Maybe Obi-Wan was right - talking to her doesn't help. ]

You didn't just leave the Order, Ahsoka, you left us. Me and Obi-Wan and Master Plo. Every one of our friends.

What-- so I should have just stayed? Just like that? Stayed in an Order I know doesn't follow their own Code, in an Order I no longer have any faith in, and who no longer have any faith in me? ... That's the answer? I should have just stayed for other people, regardless of my own feelings, and swallowed my doubts?

I'm sorry, Anakin-- maybe you can do that. But I can't.

[ He's quiet for a moment. He could say, he could hear Obi-Wan saying - no, lecturing - how that would be the Jedi way. The Jedi always put their feelings aside, for the good of others. They have done that for eons.

But he doesn't believe that. This is more personal for them. It's not about the Order, it's about him and Ahsoka and how they were supposed to have each others' backs. ]

I had faith in you. Did you have any in me, as your Master, when I asked you to come back?

Of course I did! I still do. Anakin, I trust you more than anyone.

But this isn't about you. I can't-- I can't stay just for you, even if part of me wants to. That isn't the Jedi way. And it's not healthy, either. I have to find my own path.

[ There it is. The painful truth. She can't stay for him. ]

Fine. I don't want to talk about this anymore.

[ End feed. ]

Anakin--

[And then she's cut off.

There's a surge of emotions through their bond-- anger and frustration, but also pain, hurt, betrayal, confusion-- before Ahsoka roughly severs it and shuts down.]