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Who: Chara
Broadcast: Text
Action: Red Fish, if you dare.
When: during the day (as in not at 12:30 in the morning when I am posting this)

Just throwing an idea out here. If anyone can find medicine that actually works on these ridiculous space colds (and lets me have some), I will knit that person as many ugly sweaters as they want. I promise, astronaut's honor, or whatever they say out here.

[ Of course, those on the Red Fish also have to deal with this colossal trainwreck of an adolescent in person. More or less. They're kind of cooped up in their sweet counselor office, having created a makeshift nest of blankets and pillows (one from the bed they would normally use, the rest from the couch in said office), though they are occasionally willing to leave the office. Mostly just for food, though if anyone is in the kitchen at these times, they will get to deal with this kid kind of giving them shifty eyes the entire time.

Enjoy your meal! ]

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I know.

[ It took them two tries, but they did do it. ]

But it still doesn't change...what you are.

But it can change how we feel.

[For a little while.]

Didn't work for me.

Can I ask what it was you did?

I died.

[ And a part of them wants her to ask just so they can rub it in, that they hated humanity so much they wanted to be dead--

still, a part of them wonders if it'd be worth it. ]

I'm sorry.

[She is. That's so sad. Poor Chara.]

And it didn't change anything at all, would you believe that?

[ They don't know what else to do, so they laugh-- short, nervous. ]

[Her heart breaks a little, but she keeps her hands to herself. She wears the emotion right there on her face though.]

Because death is a stopping, not a transformation.

It wasn't supposed to be. And, it wasn't, not really. I came back, sort of. I mean, not alive, but...there. And now, here.

[ It's all a big mess, basically. ]

Coming back isn't all that uncommon. But there's better ways, you know.

[Death is messy.]

If it went how it was supposed to, it would've been fine!

[ Oh, geez. No, see, now they've gone and gotten angry and that's not a good thing to do, especially to people in positions of power. Having this much control over themself is unusual after all this time, so it was probably bound to happen, but still. ]

I didn't-- I mean, I shouldn't-- do you want me to go now?

Of course not.

[She's still gentle, and though she still doesn't reach out, she steps closer, cautiously.]

I don't know what happened to you, Chara, but it's okay to get angry. You don't have to be afraid to be yourself with me.

...why are you being so nice to me?

[ They don't back off this time-- if she does anything, they probably deserve it after that. ]

I like being nice to people who need a bit of kindness.

[Finally she takes the chance, reaches out, show enough they could back away, and just lays a very gentle hand on their shoulder. That's all.]

It's what I do, to change how I feel about how I was born.

[ She's a lot like someone else they know.

They flinch, but manage not to pull away. ]

Does it even help you at all?

[She let's her hand sit for a second, two, before letting it fall away. She's not offended. She understands not knowing what to do with kindness or affection.]

When I'm awake, it helps.

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[ They will never understand the people on this ship. ]

So...not really, huh?

No, it does. Just not exactly in the way I wish it would.

[ They're laughing again, not out of malice, but because it's the only way they really know how to deal with feeling like this. ]

So that's just how it is, right? Nothing going how you want it to.

I don't know about that. When I set my mind to it, I can get things to go my way. I just can't control everything. No one can.

Too bad nobody told me that sooner.

You're here now. Things could be different.

That's pretty optimistic of you.

Well, if you've hit bottom, may as well look up.

[Now she gives them a small, encouraging smile.]

[ And it's not exactly funny on its own, but because of who it's being said to-- to them, it's the funniest goddamn thing possible right now.

Oh well, at least they're laughing, and not crying. ]