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[cpt_ressentiment]

Who: The Crew of the SS Starstruck + Any Visitors!
Broadcast: Nah prob not
Action: On board the SS Starstruck, or on the spacestation if you like!
When: NOW! and until the next mingle.

[ Y'all know what this is? This is a mingle. So get in here and mingle it out, everyone. o7

We have plenty of new people, but we don't have plenty of room anymore! Never really figured out a more permanent solution to all that yet, did we...? How's everyone coping, hmm?

Welcome newcomers! And welcome visitors! To the oldbie crew - stay awesome. ♥ ]

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[notmutantbutmiracle]

[Wanda's eyes follow his arm, watching his hand hanging in the air, palm up. Together, they both look as if they are seeing something invisible, sitting in Felix's hand. Neither looking confused, only somber and yet comfortable in their shared sadness. Wanda does give his shoulder a light squeeze, and lightly wraps her arm around to his opposite shoulder, embracing him. However, her grasp is loose, easily allowing Felix to pull away, if he chooses.]

[There is a moment of silence as she contemplates his words. What he's shared with her about his own experiences, and what he has said about the nature of relationships in places like the Fleet and Paradisa. Eventually, when she does speak, her tone is soft, questioning.]

What is better then? To cut one's self off completely from others, or to allow for heartbreak?

[She does not sound angry or upset, purely searching for an answer that she does not fully expect Felix to be able to give. Yet, nonetheless, the words tumble from her mouth. She wants to hear them out loud, rather than purely as echos in her own head.]

[lord_wizard]

[It's harder to give in to the embrace than the simple touch, but he waits until she speaks again to pull away, turning aside of the bed to face her more directly and hopes she doesn't take that part personally. He's doing his best.]

I can't say there is any such thing as 'better', Wanda, but...I'd rather suffer that pain than be hollow instead. Besides, every time we seal one of those doors inside us...they win.

[It's a smaller war to wage than some might choose to fight when it came to their captors, but the one that Felix had not long ago decided was the most important.]

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[Wanda shows no signs of being hurt or offended by Felix pulling away. Understanding that such signs of affection might be uncomfortable for him, as they do not come all that naturally to her either. Her hands return to her lap, as she adjusts her seating to better face Felix herself.]

There is a certain... bliss to being numb.

But it is not a way to live. I am tired of this pain, but I know it only comes losing something that brought me great joy. If being numb means never feeling pain but also never feeling that joy, then I am not willing to take that path either.

[She gives Felix a small, sad grin. For all her talk, she still feels that hole inside, and knows that it will always be there. Yet, she inwardly acknowledges that she will not let it cripple her. It has not before, and it will not now.]

[lord_wizard]

[He returns the expressed, burdened by the same realization and the guilt that he had found momentary happiness where she was now deprived.]

Precisely. It's one of the few battles we have left to fight, and one we are all fated to lose, but I wouldn't bend to it even if I were here a lifetime. [Which is a thought he tries not to linger on]

There are some other ways to find that kind of bliss, though not all of them I would recommend, or for long. Trust me, I understand the temptation. [He smiles ruefully, thinking of vices he'd left behind and others he had not]

I'd be happy to treat you do a drink. [He doesn't expect miracles. He doesn't expect one conversation would bring her out into the light, but maybe it would help her find out where that was.]

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[A more warm grin finds its way onto her face, even eliciting a short giggle from her.]

Not too long, yet you still offer to treat me to a drink.

I may just take you up on that.

[lord_wizard]

[His answering sound of amusement and accompanying smile is a bit weary. Telling people things like that often left him feeling oddly detached]

I believe I have a small cache in my room for emergencies such as this, if you would like.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

How prepared of you.

[She giggles a little more, before nodding her head. She gestures for Felix to lead the way.]

[lord_wizard]

I'm a regular survivalist at this rate.

[He says over his shoulder as he climbs the ladder back to the hallway. It's only a few quick strides of his rather long legs from there to his own room. He doesn't wait to see if Wanda follows, but moves efficiently to searching through his closet. Among a few bundles of spare jumpsuits - which Felix believes is a far better use for them - he extracts two bottles]

Do you prefer the standard red or...green. It's best not to ask about the latter.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[Wanda lags just a tad behind, but comes enters the room as Felix turns with his glasses.]

Red, please.

[lord_wizard]

[In a way this helps him get himself together a little, even if Wanda hadn't been able to tell he'd been close to having more of his mask slip than he would have liked. It isn't his rooms in the Mirador, but entertaining a friend is a decent way to pretend]

Before you ask, I assure you I am not a lush.

[He paused, briefly, to locate the glasses he'd stashed in a his locker, and cleared his throat.]

That is to say, there's often little else to do. Is there any other subjects you'd like to discuss?

[Something other than heartbreak, for starters]

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[That gets a giggle, and a small snort from Wanda. She feels as though she's getting to see several different sides of Felix today.]

It had never even crossed my mind.

Discuss... well, it has been some time since we each have joined the Fleet. Perhaps some reminiscing?

[lord_wizard]

It has, hasn't it? [He smiles thinly, still a trace warily despite, or maybe because of, his earlier bout of honesty.]

Time seems so much harder to measure here.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

It does.

[She gives a slight nod of her head, but her expression takes on a fairly similar look to the one on his own face.]

Sometimes it seems like no time has passed. Other times, it seems like an eternity.