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Who: Caesar Zeppeli & open
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: None
When: 2/27

Where I come from - or in my family, anyway, and families like mine. You give your child a special name at their baptism, the name of a saint that's meant to protect and guide them in life. It's just sort of a thing that's done, I never questioned it when I was young other than to wonder why my father chose what he did for me.

Mine is Anthonio, after Anthony of Padua. You're supposed to pray for him to find lost things, any kind of lost things, even ones that aren't tangible - lost faith, for example. It's funny but I don't think I ever actually have. Prayed to him. I always wanted to find all the things I lost by myself, which doesn't actually work that well all of the time.

The patron saint of today is Gabriel of Our Lady of Sorrows. He died on February 27. That's the thing, saint name days are named after the day a saint died on. So Gabriel died on the same day as me. I've been wondering if that's important - if I should recognize it in some kind of permanent way. Or if I should just try not to think about it, except that doesn't work very well either.

The other thing is that I remember having very strong opinions about some of the saints when I was younger. Catherine of Siena defied her parents and cut off all of her hair so she wouldn't be encouraged to marry. I used to think she should have done what they asked of her. Now I think if I ever had a daughter, I'd want Catherine to watch over her.

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[shit]

[OKAY IN FAIRNESS TO HIM HE WAS NOT ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT THE FACT THAT EVERYONE INCLUDING BOTH SUZIE AND JOSEPH COULD READ THIS AT LITERALLY ANY TIME]

[ALSO IN FAIRNESS TO HIM that's incredibly stupid, so, you know.]

[Be chill Caesar. Don't be weird. It's just a question. It's not good or bad, it's just a question, because, you know, people ask each other this kind of question when they're Serious, or so the legends go, and Elena said he should be honest about it, and just because she's gone doesn't mean that her advice wasn't still solid. Not to mention the fact that she's pretty obviously a lot smarter than you, kid, so be chill and be honest.]

Uh

[oh my god]

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[There is . . . some delay here, while he tries to get his shit together. Admittedly part of this time is spent staring at the wall and internally screaming, but one cannot be calm and put-together all the time (or, in his case, most of the time), so he's taking baby steps.]

[The second step is thanking God for the fact that this is text and not video or voice or, heaven forbid, in person, because he would actually have caught fire by now. And the third step is remembering that if she doesn't hate him for actually literally getting himself killed like an asshole, she probably won't hate him for anything else.]

[That's the theory, anyway.]

[Okay, trying this again.]

I like kids. I always wanted to have kids, before. I think I still do but it's not really just a thing I should want or decide or something like that, which I don't think I thought about before, but

[Stop.]

Yes. The short answer is yes. Sorry.

...I was just going to say that's really cute...

[oh my god]

Because most fathers hope for sons, right?

[@ GOD PLEASE JUST LET HIM DIE HERE HOLY SHIT]

Right.

I think I'd be better as a father for a girl, though. Maybe.

[get him a DRINK]

I think you'd spoil her rotten and nobody would ever be good enough to marry her.

You'd make Madame Lisa Lisa's pillar test look like a walk in the park.