driftfleet | 02; Therapy

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02; Therapy

Who: Milla
Broadcast: Fleetwide Video
Action: SS Bluefish; Her office
When: Jan 23rd!

[Milla sits at her desk, trying very hard to seem like a professional.]

So apparently I'm supposed to be some guidance person or whatever but I haven't done any guiding at all! So that's it, it's time I earn my own way around here!

[Proudly:] Whether you're on my ship or not, come to me with a problem and I'll solve it! That's right, right here and right now. I've got this down.

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I guess it's hard knowing their today was better than the one I worked so hard towards. I know I messed up and didn't do things the right way but... I did them the best I thought I could.

[But she's a mistake. It's still so easy to think that way. In her timeline where everything she thought went right actually prevented a brighter, happier future.]

You're right. There's no use dwelling on it. And changing it is just... against the natural order of things. [Says the dead girl.] But it's just hard to not think why I couldn't have done things better, the way things ended up for them.

...Yeah. I know. Retrospect can be a serious pain in the ass. Especially when other timelines are involved.

[a sigh] Sorry, that's something I'm still learning how to deal with.

But, I think you're pretty alright- if that means anything to you.

It does. I want... to be Milla like I was before I knew there was another one that everyone liked better. So I screwed up a lot! I'm learning. Just because I'm not their Milla doesn't mean I'm worthless!

[She hesitates before shaking her head.]

Well, maybe if I fake confident like that, I'll become confident. Sometimes that works, you know. But it really does mean a lot, hearing it from someone who understands. I like you, too. You're a pretty nice guy after all.

...Heh, it sounded pretty good to me.

[He makes a face at being called nice]

Hey, don't go spreading stuff like that around! You'll ruin my rep! [even if he has...no rep to speak of shhhh. The face eases into something a bit more positive though] But...yeah. It is nice to talk to someone who gets it. Doesn't happen all that often- don't know if that's good or not.

I wouldn't wish it on anyone. Well, maybe some of the people I know just a little when I'm really mad! [She laughs, shaking her head. The truth is even if she wishes they understood how she feels, she doesn't want them to just for her sake.] But you know, if you ever want to complain about something, even if it's tiny, I'll listen. I probably understand too after all.

[She adds quickly.] Not because it's my job! Just you know, because... you're nice. [Shit she said it again. She backpedals fast.] A-And because it's my job, of course!

[Milla you just said it wasn't that.]

[He gives something that sounds like a chuckle]

So which is it? Because it's your job, or not because it's your job?

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