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driftfleet2016-03-12 07:01 pm
astrobleme) wrote in driftfleet2016-03-12 07:01 pm
002. text + action.
Who: Shinji Ikari and you?!
Broadcast: Fleetwide.
Action: SS Heron.
When: 3/12.
[network.]
[Shinji rewrites this about a dozen times before he finally decides to post it. It reads:]
Hello. My name is Shinji Ikari. I'm a pilot that's stationed on the Heron. I'm sorry if I'm not using the network as it's intended, but I don't know how else to distribute this message. I've been a member of the Fleet for over a month now and I've met quite a lot of people who have treated me well. It's something I wasn't expecting at all. I haven't been in the best frame of mind, but people have gone out of their way to reassure me, offer to help me, or just talk to me. That's something else I wasn't expecting. I don't know why anyone bothers to talk to someone like me.
The point of this message is to say that I'm grateful. I'd like to thank all of those people, and repay them, if at all possible. I don't know some of their names or contact information, though. I do have an easier time of thanking my crew - I'm doing that now - thank you, everyone, for putting up with me. And hello to anyone who's newly assigned. Anyway, I'm on the Heron, like I said, and I have small tokens of my appreciation to give out if people want them. I'll be in the cargo bay all day by the gym equipment. Although it's kind of pathetic, a single conversation is enough to qualify for this. (Talking to people is helping my ratings...)
Kaworu-kun and Asuka, I have things to give you too. I know it's a little early for White Day.
Unrelated question: Is it possible to delete any content that's posted to the network? I'm guessing not, but maybe I missed an option for that.
Thank you for your time.
[action, aboard the Heron.]
[Shinji can be found sitting in the cargo bay, on a stretching mat, nearest to the gym equipment. He's young-looking and more than a little sleepless, wondering if he shouldn't have made that embarrassing post. He's in the middle of nervously, repeatedly digging his fingers into a netted bag of colorful marbles that he won from the arcade on the Starlight. They're beautiful glass marbles, each crafted to resemble a foreign galaxy.
This isn't much of a gift, but he hopes it isn't a stupid one.
He looks up whenever he has a new visitor. Before he says anything, he pauses his music player and takes out at least one of his earbuds.]
Hey.
Broadcast: Fleetwide.
Action: SS Heron.
When: 3/12.
[network.]
[Shinji rewrites this about a dozen times before he finally decides to post it. It reads:]
Hello. My name is Shinji Ikari. I'm a pilot that's stationed on the Heron. I'm sorry if I'm not using the network as it's intended, but I don't know how else to distribute this message. I've been a member of the Fleet for over a month now and I've met quite a lot of people who have treated me well. It's something I wasn't expecting at all. I haven't been in the best frame of mind, but people have gone out of their way to reassure me, offer to help me, or just talk to me. That's something else I wasn't expecting. I don't know why anyone bothers to talk to someone like me.
The point of this message is to say that I'm grateful. I'd like to thank all of those people, and repay them, if at all possible. I don't know some of their names or contact information, though. I do have an easier time of thanking my crew - I'm doing that now - thank you, everyone, for putting up with me. And hello to anyone who's newly assigned. Anyway, I'm on the Heron, like I said, and I have small tokens of my appreciation to give out if people want them. I'll be in the cargo bay all day by the gym equipment. Although it's kind of pathetic, a single conversation is enough to qualify for this. (Talking to people is helping my ratings...)
Kaworu-kun and Asuka, I have things to give you too. I know it's a little early for White Day.
Unrelated question: Is it possible to delete any content that's posted to the network? I'm guessing not, but maybe I missed an option for that.
Thank you for your time.
[action, aboard the Heron.]
[Shinji can be found sitting in the cargo bay, on a stretching mat, nearest to the gym equipment. He's young-looking and more than a little sleepless, wondering if he shouldn't have made that embarrassing post. He's in the middle of nervously, repeatedly digging his fingers into a netted bag of colorful marbles that he won from the arcade on the Starlight. They're beautiful glass marbles, each crafted to resemble a foreign galaxy.
This isn't much of a gift, but he hopes it isn't a stupid one.
He looks up whenever he has a new visitor. Before he says anything, he pauses his music player and takes out at least one of his earbuds.]
Hey.
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Buuuut you also get pretty good pretty quickly at coming up with creative ways to tell the truth without saying the thing you don't want to say. You know, saying statements that are not false, but also not direct.
Plus, as you get older, you learn how to shield your thoughts better. Still, I only ever lied to my master twice. I don't really like lying unless I have to.
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I guess I've always thought of lying as a necessary thing. Not to be used maliciously, but just saying things you think the other person wants to hear. There's a saying where I'm from: 'Lying is also a means to an end.' Being totally truthful is looked down upon even. I remember being told that only stupid children state their feelings openly.
It's like the opposite of where you grew up.
i'm sorry this is *so old*!! feel free to ignore it if you want. but i really do like this thread.
I can understand that. Since I've come here, I've learned many unpleasant truths I think I might have been happier not knowing.
Then again, I'm not sure it's possible for us to grow as people or for our relationships with one another to deepen without the truth, either.
please don't worry and take all the time you need!!
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But maybe I can draw on my own examples, and leave it up to you to see if there's any parallel.
Let's see...
A few months after I arrived here, some people ahead in the timeline of my world arrived. About twenty years into the future. They had some... chilling revelations. I learned that the war that I fought in was a farce, the cause I fought for a fabrication, and the men that died under my command died for nothing. We were nothing but pawns in a sick politician's bid for power.
I didn't feel very strong then either. I wanted to cry, and scream, and throw up. I wished no one had told me. ... Sometimes I still do, really.
Then again, if I'd never known the truth... maybe I would have gone back home still believing that the war was right and justified. Maybe I wouldn't have opened my eyes to the idea that the conflict was wrong to begin with, that we never should have been fighting. That I loved being a Jedi because I loved helping people, and at some point, I'd become so caught up in fighting that I lost sight of that. So in that sense... even though it's painful and I hate it, I'm still grateful to know the truth.
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... and familiar...]
I think we can agree that we don't want to be pawns in someone else's game.
That's the most important thing.
I don't know if I could deal with hearing about my future. You're strong, Ahsoka-san.
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At the time, I don't think I came out of my room for two weeks.
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So if you go back home, would you do things differently?
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First thing we're gonna do-- me and Anakin, I mean-- is bring the Chancellor to justice.
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That's good. People like that
[...]
They're the worst kind of people. So I hope it works out. If he can answer for his crimes, that's really good.
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When we're together, there's nothing me and Anakin can't do. We're a lean, mean, fighting machine. No one stands a chance.
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