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driftfleet2016-05-10 02:34 am
collegedropout) wrote in driftfleet2016-05-10 02:34 am
video.
Who: Sam Winchester
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Red Fish
When: Today-ish
[Sam's currently taking the time to heal after certain people we shall not name shot him in the arm; it's all good, it's all good. Pop some pain meds, keep the arm from getting worked too hard, it's going great. But now that he can't go do some work down on the moon, he's a bit more restless. Maybe he should tell Katie about his arm, have her work a little magic mojo...? Or should he just. Not tell the small child that someone shot him in the arm. Anyway.
He takes some time to voice some internal stuff. It was mostly spawned by Nightingale, and he can't help but speak up; it's utterly bizarre, he thinks, that he does that now. Speak up. He's still shitty at it, like, 60% of the time, but every percent counts. He compares it to the guy who was dying in a chapel not so long ago, and really, the amount of worth he's found in himself compared to then is staggering when he thinks about it.
Things change. He feels like he's been changing at a vicious pace for the last eleven years. But is that so surprising? Considering the friggin' circumstances, he supposes it only makes sense.]
Someone here asked me how to think positive.
More than that, how to be positive about yourself. And honestly? That's a work in progress. Don't get me wrong, you're talking to a hypocrite if I go... chiding you on healthy outlooks. But you know, someone from another world gave me a task, back when I was low — I mean, really low. She said... Even if it's only once a week, once a month, you should stop and remind yourself of something positive — about yourself. Some good thing you do, or some skill you have. Something that makes you you. Strengths. Foundations for others to work off of. Or hey, maybe you just like the way your nose looks.
If's kind of important, isn't it? Feeling like you're worth something in some way. I'd argue it's kind of a survival technique, right? Believing in your capabilities, they kind of help you get through rough situations. Help you be a better person, or contribute in a way that makes you feel like an important puzzle piece.
[He sweeps his hands though the air, palm-up, simply gestures that come with conversation. One arm is less lively than the other.]
And yeah, I can already hear some of you, telling me to pipe down on the armchair psychology, can it with the talk show advice. Kind of sappy, right? But I mean — hear me out, huh? Humor me.
What's something you guys like about yourselves?
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And if you give some creepy, flippant, or otherwise wise-ass reply for some chuckles, we get it. You like how edgy you are.
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: SS Red Fish
When: Today-ish
[Sam's currently taking the time to heal after certain people we shall not name shot him in the arm; it's all good, it's all good. Pop some pain meds, keep the arm from getting worked too hard, it's going great. But now that he can't go do some work down on the moon, he's a bit more restless. Maybe he should tell Katie about his arm, have her work a little magic mojo...? Or should he just. Not tell the small child that someone shot him in the arm. Anyway.
He takes some time to voice some internal stuff. It was mostly spawned by Nightingale, and he can't help but speak up; it's utterly bizarre, he thinks, that he does that now. Speak up. He's still shitty at it, like, 60% of the time, but every percent counts. He compares it to the guy who was dying in a chapel not so long ago, and really, the amount of worth he's found in himself compared to then is staggering when he thinks about it.
Things change. He feels like he's been changing at a vicious pace for the last eleven years. But is that so surprising? Considering the friggin' circumstances, he supposes it only makes sense.]
Someone here asked me how to think positive.
More than that, how to be positive about yourself. And honestly? That's a work in progress. Don't get me wrong, you're talking to a hypocrite if I go... chiding you on healthy outlooks. But you know, someone from another world gave me a task, back when I was low — I mean, really low. She said... Even if it's only once a week, once a month, you should stop and remind yourself of something positive — about yourself. Some good thing you do, or some skill you have. Something that makes you you. Strengths. Foundations for others to work off of. Or hey, maybe you just like the way your nose looks.
If's kind of important, isn't it? Feeling like you're worth something in some way. I'd argue it's kind of a survival technique, right? Believing in your capabilities, they kind of help you get through rough situations. Help you be a better person, or contribute in a way that makes you feel like an important puzzle piece.
[He sweeps his hands though the air, palm-up, simply gestures that come with conversation. One arm is less lively than the other.]
And yeah, I can already hear some of you, telling me to pipe down on the armchair psychology, can it with the talk show advice. Kind of sappy, right? But I mean — hear me out, huh? Humor me.
What's something you guys like about yourselves?
...
And if you give some creepy, flippant, or otherwise wise-ass reply for some chuckles, we get it. You like how edgy you are.
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Not a warning sign?
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Dealing with tall people like Sam must be a pain in the ass, bro.] I think your humor gets a pass then. That's one good trait.I'm betting you have more than that, though.
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Oh, I do. I graduated from Oxford and I am a professor in genetics and a few other minor subjects.
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Jeez, that's a pretty nice arsenal. Makes me itch to go back to college.
How's work?
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Though I might hold a few special classes here.
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But, wait - you said your own school?
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Not yet.
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Still, I'm sure you'll be able to get it going in no time. There's no real shortage of bright kids out there, right?
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[huh]
And these children are... uh. Born with their powers? Or are they given? Maybe through supernatural means?
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As for the supernatural, that's not really an aspect of my world.
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We have some like that, but... I mean, my experience with humans with powers is that it's usually induced by supernatural intervention. Save for psychics, I guess. Mentalists. A lot of them are quack palm readers, but we have legitimate ones.
[He thinks about himself, quietly. Of his time being someone with abilities. A freak. It was a dark time in his life, feeling outcasted, feeling dangerous. Not knowing why he was the way he was, only that it was bad enough that his dad would consider killing him if it came down to it and he 'turned'.
It's been so damn long, but it's also something that's never gone away, thanks to Azazel.
That dirty feeling.]
... It'll be good. For them to have a place to belong.
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For mutants, especially, it is important to have that security and hope.
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Everyone's got a right to that.
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It sounds like you're speaking from experience.
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It's been so long, he can at least say it's... easier to discuss. In comparison to what happened to him in the cage. Or the demon blood. Or anything regarding his brother — time and distance helps, even if he still feels tainted (and probably always will), but he also figures this guy gets it.]
Guess so. When I was really young, a... um — something supernatural infected me.
Because of that, I started having visions a lot when I was in my twenties. I was also having an easy time detecting spirits, even had a little telekinesis going on when I got particularly stressed and panicked. It wore off after the thing that infected me was killed later, but... it really freaked my old man out.
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I got my powers when I was young. I can understand how difficult it can be to process such an ability.
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Um.
But that hardly compares. I'm guessing you had a lot of trouble with acceptance, too.
People don't really take well to different.
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Most of the supernatural back home learned how to blend in. Not really a luxury for everyone in your world, though.
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