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[paraclete]

Who: Kaworu Nagisa and anyone who has the time to read his super boring blogpost (or anyone who's having tech troubles?!)
Broadcast: fleetwide
Action: N/A
When: 6/6

I did something recently, and I was reminded of how enjoyable it is. So: you can let me know if you're trying to repair or operate any electronics, and I can help. :)

It led me to something interesting, though. Fleet, I'm wondering: can you trace the lines of your special course back to one outstanding event? There are many things which contribute to the quality and experience of a person's life -- first love, rebellion against authority, the realization of goals; death and loss, apathy then grief; the stunning circumstances surrounding a birth. But maybe there's a day that prophesied your fate, and it could be that, at the time, you had no idea an extraordinary event was happening. That's how it happened for me. I couldn't have known that the day of one person's birth was enough to present me with purpose. It would take some time for me to realize that. It's a joy to know that this one event which was predestined for me is something to be celebrated. What about you? The moment that stands out to you as fate's hand, did you know right away that it would change your life? Or were you blindsided?

Now, while I'm thinking of all that... I'd like to request something of Ikari Shinji-kun.

Comments

[paraclete]

[UHHHH LMAO. Okay, so, technically, he is a parent. But it's very complicated, very abstract, and very painful; so let's nevermind that. Let's... nevermind...

Thankfully, Kaworu is practiced in the art of deflection.]

I'm actually referring to the birth of my best friend. :)

[wolfehawke]

Oh! Well, that's a lovely sentiment, then. I can relate, actually.

[Less his best friend and more the man who would become his heart... who is currently in the fleet and doesn't remember him in the slightest.

Yeah he doesn't feel much like adding smiley emoticons anymore.]

[paraclete]

I'm happy if you can. Love is the most important thing I've ever felt.

["Become his heart", huh... That's something Kaworu would be able to relate to in turn. He tends toward extremism, black and white ideals, and when he says that Shinji is his "best friend", what he really means is that he defines himself by his feelings for Shinji. If he gets going, it'll be really clear really fast that he's thoroughly a fanatic.]

[wolfehawke]

[Adalwolfe doesn't respond right away. To have it so unabashedly written out like that, Love is the most important thing...

He can't say that, not right now. Not when his love is ostensibly not here. Or he is which is worse. Adalwolfe can't avoid everyone forever out of fear of seeing Anders' face and feeling that ache in his chest again. Not that it goes away, not really. The whole situation begs a question.]

What would you do if he didn't remember you?

[paraclete]

[Luckily — for Adalwolfe, perhaps, not so much for Kaworu — this is something Kaworu can speak of with experience. Shinji doesn't know that, of course, so Kaworu's going to play this conversation off as purely hypothetical, but...]

Get to know him. Retrace my steps. I think we'd manage to become friends again.

[wolfehawke]

That sounds good in theory, but in practice it seems more difficult, somehow. He's younger than when we first met, and acts differently because of it.

[paraclete]

If you had stayed with him for decades, and if you had watched him become an old man sated by life and filled with experiences you never would have foreseen, would you still love him then?

[wolfehawke]

Of course I would.

[If they got the chance to live that long.]

But there's a difference. I would have been there for the changes, perhaps even caused some as people do in a relationship, but this now is because he hasn't yet experienced what his life will entail and now, because he's here, it may go in a different direction.

It likely will.

I don't know if I fit into his new life.

[paraclete]

That's fair. But I was thinking there is some similarity. You would still be watching him make a new journey.

Whatever this person is now, and whatever he will become, he has the same spirit.

Speaking of which, do you believe in the idea of soul mates?

[wolfehawke]

[The same spirit? Oh Kowaru has no idea how wrong he is...

And Adalwolfe can't explain or he'll risk branding Anders as what could be construed as an abomination, and that's the last thing he wants to do.]

I didn't, but I'm starting to a bit. There are people here from other versions of my world who banded together with a version of me also from their world. Each one, drawn to them, just as in mine. It's hard not to believe in fated meetings when faced with that.