DEBBIE DOWNER STRIKES AGAIN: a video

[broroona]

Who: bawhona Baroona
Broadcast: video
Action: SS Marsiva hospitality deck
When: idk 10/9 late at night, whenever that is

[The camera's set at an upward angle, as if placed on the floor. It shows a sliver of one of the hospitality deck windows and a man leaning against it, smoking. His clothing choices are... strange; a bright orange ski hat, a pair of pink and black gloves that might seem familiar-it seems more like a collection than an outfit. When he moves exhaustion slows him and though expressionless, there's a cloud of sadness that lingers around him.

Basically, he's being a moody spaceshit at some ungodly hour. Hi.]

You know-[He taps his knuckles against the windows, knocking some ash from his cigarette in the process.]-I used to watch the sky back home. Sounds dumb but there was something comforting about it.

[Sighing out a cloud of smoke, he stands up straight, slipping the cigarette between his lips again. His tone shifts from wistful to dry.] This view sucks. They're not stars anymore like this. Just places that are too far away.

[With another sigh, he frowns briefly, turning and pressing his back against the view, scrubbing at his hair. Looking way too done with all of this.]

I'm tired. Talking too much. [He kicks the comm, turning the camera so that it's looking straight out the window. A full view of the stars.] If you're awake, humor me. Which do you think is your home?

Comments

[amarant]

Mm...

If you went back, do you think you'd still watch the sky?

[broroona]

It's hard to say. The meaning of it has changed a lot.

I'd like to think I would, though. [He laughs softly.] I'd be out of luck trying to relax otherwise.

[amarant]

It would be nice if you'd still be able to have that.

...I'm not sure, myself. If I'd be able to enjoy it, still. I don't think I'd be able to feel the same way at all.

[broroona]

[A long silence before he speaks.]

Do you want to go back? To your home. To your sky? You said earlier you wouldn't mind being away.

[amarant]

...I don't particularly want to return. If being here or there are my only choices, I'd prefer it here.

[broroona]

There's more choices than here or there. You've got all the stuff in between, too.

[amarant]

Sometimes, it doesn't seem that way.

god he sounds like an advice column

[broroona]

It wouldn't. Right now you can only see two places: where you are and where you want to be. You can't know what paths are between them until you walk them.

[There's a pause.] That's where most people get stuck. Walking takes more courage than people think.

baroona i think my husband is cheating on me wat do

[amarant]

[ Laughs, quietly. ]

I don't often get advice like this... thank you.

cut his head off and put it on a pike as a warning

[broroona]

["Advice"?? Well, that makes him uncomfortable. Grumbling and clearly embarrassed:]

... I didn't mean for it to be advice.

[That's so... sappy.]

okay!!

[amarant]

In any case, thank you.

[broroona]

You're welcome?

[HE GUESSES?? what did he even do...]

[amarant]

It's been a long time since someone's talked to me like that-- it's a good thing, I don't mind it much at all.

You're right, though.

[broroona]

[Oh. He relaxes somewhat.] Experience teaches well. That's all. You see a lot of stuff when you've walked a long way.

[He coughs and even that sounds embarrassed.] That sounds lamer than I meant.

[amarant]

You must have gone quite a distance, hm?

It makes me feel that I've wasted too much of my life.

[broroona]

[Y U P sure not addressing that question]

You make it sound like your life's ending. You're here, aren't you? Make the most of it.

[A brief, thoughtful pause. Nonchalantly:]

If they try to stop you, punch them. Or I'll do it for you. You've got time.

[amarant]

No, it isn't ending, but...it feels as though I'll have a lot to make up for.

[ She does laugh at that, though. It's quiet, but there. ]

I appreciate the offer.

[broroona]

[Yes, he scored a laugh. Point for Baroona.]

It's a more selfish offer than it seems. I'll be happy to do it anytime. Just let me know.

[amarant]

Why is it selfish?

[ She could sure think of someone... ]

[broroona]

Let's just say I could really use a fight right now.

[amarant]

I've known people to do that as a way to work through stress...is that why?

[broroona]

[No.]

Yeah. I'm don't like being dragged around.

[amarant]

I can understand that... it would be nice to find a way to be free here, even if it seems unlikely at times.

[broroona]

It could probably come with time but it'll be hard if they're always watching us.

[HINT HINT they probably shouldn't be talking about this right now]

[amarant]

That's right, the worlds are watching.

...that is what she said, I think.

I'd like to know who they are.