axiomed: (You mean nothing to me anymore)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 03:49 am (UTC)(link)
I can't speak for everyone but . . . [ He hesitates, rubbing his knees. ]

When I was injured, I kept wondering if the people I cared about, no matter what had taken place, would come through the door. And I think it can be reassuring to know that, no matter how bad it gets, people are always willing to come -- come back.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-08 04:19 am (UTC)(link)
I guess I don't know a damn thing about coming back.

[ Is there even a right way to do it? Does a simple apology work, or does he have to earn it?

Wrath had been accepting of his company, even though he's damn sure he doesn't deserve her kindness. Fuck, he doesn't even deserve what Charles offers, either. ]
axiomed: (From the work of sorrow)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
Do you want to, though?
axiomed: (The weeks and months)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 04:52 am (UTC)(link)
Then that's enough to start with. You have to want to come back in order for it to work. Otherwise . . . it never does.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-08 04:58 am (UTC)(link)
I don't really have anyone else.

[ He doesn't really want to give them up, but if they'd be happier that way, he wouldn't deny them that. ]
axiomed: (How we lived together always)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 05:08 am (UTC)(link)
[ He folds his hands on top of his lap. ]

You have Wrath. Me. Ms. Carter. I've yet to meet Mr. Rogers but I assume his feelings are no different.

[ He breathes out. ] Maybe we're not meant to have the people around us. Maybe we're meant to live on the fringes. I can't say.

[ Maybe all Charles is meant for is the school and the dream and chasing after family and love would always end in heartbreak. ]

But come back when you can. Leave if you need to. The door is always open. It may seem unfair, but the truth is . . . life is like that. When you need to find yourself, you can't do it with the people you love. You have to do it by yourself.

That doesn't mean you've lost anyone.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-08 06:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ When he was younger, maybe, he deserved all the people that he had around him. After so long being a nameless weapon, it must have shifted. Now, he doesn't know what to do with the people he has got. They all have a place in the world, and he belongs in the dark corners.

So long as he can watch the ones he take care of from the sidelines enjoy their lives, he's.. okay with it.

Even though he's entitled to be a person here, it's not a safe bet, anymore. The glitches are proof enough of that.

He's been searching for himself this past year. Who even knows if he'll manage to find what he's looking for. Until he does, alone is how he works best. ]


They might not understand it like you do.

[ Everyone, maybe save for Wrath, knows who they are. They have history they can recall. They don't have to figure out who they are or what they stand for- or even try to muddle through emotions that still feel new and confusing or unwanted. ]
axiomed: (What turns we missed)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
No.

[ Waiting is difficult when the person you want the most is so close by. But Charles has the benefit of hindsight now. ]

But I'm sure they'd be willing to try. You come first.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-08 06:30 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not even first on my own list of priorities.

[ He's not even top five, Charles. ]
axiomed: (To fall so hard for you?)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-08 07:47 am (UTC)(link)
[ Quietly. ]

You should be. If you want to reclaim yourself, you have to choose yourself.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-08 04:26 pm (UTC)(link)
There have been more important things.
axiomed: (What turns we missed)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-09 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
Nothing is more important than you.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-09 02:29 am (UTC)(link)
Wrath is more important. Peggy is more important. Steve.

[ His crew. He'd rather sacrifice his own comfort to make sure others are taken care of, instead. ]
axiomed: (With some perspective and dedication)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-09 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
That's not how importance works. Maybe they are in the grand scheme of things, but you are a part of their lives. That makes you important.
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[personal profile] reconstitution 2016-07-09 05:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[ I think we're going to have to agree to disagree. ]

Makes sense.
axiomed: (Default)

[personal profile] axiomed 2016-07-10 01:58 am (UTC)(link)
[ continued here ]