passingthrough: (Worried [Illyana])

Want to just deal with a couple recapchas and finish it here?

[personal profile] passingthrough 2016-07-09 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[She can feel how badly Winn wants her to promise and to mean it and still she hesitates because she doesn't want to make a promise she knows she'll break. Finally, she settles on a compromise.] I won't walk away, but I'll call Jim. If this thing that isn't going to happen, happens.
winn: (67)

sure

[personal profile] winn 2016-07-09 05:20 pm (UTC)(link)
If you get hurt - I'll never forgive myself.

[ and he knows it's playing dirty, but it's also true. hurting anyone would be nearly impossible to deal with but hurting kitty? when she trusts him not to - she trusts him, after everything she's been through...that's huge! - she trusts him to be different, he has to be different. he doesn't want to hurt anyone, but it's so much worse to think of hurting the people he loves the most. of course jim is on that list, but jim has a list of his likeliest weaknesses, jim knows how he thinks, jim is an engineer, jim is the one training him, and jim doesn't rely on superpowers - that gives a lot of chances to resolve the matter quickly and peacefully.

that is, if his crazy first move wouldn't be to get rid of jim before he suspects anything. there's no escaping this self sustaining loop of fear. he really will end up losing his mind. ]
passingthrough: (Fond - Light smile)

[personal profile] passingthrough 2016-07-09 05:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Then I won't get hurt. [She rests her forehead against his.] Don't put such pressure on yourself. And trust me too. Aren't you the one always saying I'm smarter than you? I don't just rely on my powers. [She adds a soft kiss.] And trust yourself. You'll find your way back.
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[personal profile] winn 2016-07-09 05:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, but if I'm -- and you're not, it gives me an unfair advantage.

[ she'll care about him and he -- he doesn't know what it's like. he hopes he'll never be so far gone, so deeply controlled that he'll stop caring completely but a part of him knows that may be naive - if he's not in control he's not in control. it wouldn't matter how much he cares. ]
passingthrough: (Fond - Gazing up Near kiss)

[personal profile] passingthrough 2016-07-09 06:32 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, it would. But I have several unfair advantages too. I know asking you not to worry about this is probably the most pointless of things, but maybe your augment goes off and this happens or maybe you become tiny!Winn and the issues we have completely different issues to deal with. There are so many possibilities in the world. Don't cheat yourself by only thinking of the bad ones.
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[personal profile] winn 2016-07-09 06:38 pm (UTC)(link)
Don't knock tiny me - tiny me can give you a hell of a headache.

[ he tries to humor her, he really does, but she's right - it's pointless to tell him not to worry about it. him being a kid is worrisome too, before his dad he would've gotten into so much trouble here, running around and poking his nose in everything and being excited about everything. after his dad...he was so messed up for a while there. he doesn't want any of the people who love him now to know him then. ]
passingthrough: (Concern - This will be hard)

[personal profile] passingthrough 2016-07-09 08:25 pm (UTC)(link)
I would never knock tiny you. Hey... Is there anything I can do to make this better for you?
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[personal profile] winn 2016-07-09 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Never say never, it may be the only way to get me to stay still -

[ he tries for a joke, it falls flat in his ears. ]

I don't know. [ honestly. as long as the augment's in his head, he's going to live with this fear. ]
passingthrough: (Fond - Light smile)

[personal profile] passingthrough 2016-07-09 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Then I will just keep loving you and we'll see how that goes. [She curls up against him and brushes his hair.]
winn: (07)

[personal profile] winn 2016-07-09 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
I like this plan.

[ he kisses her forehead lightly, and tries to just calm down for now. ]