it begins...

[nerdeology]

Who: You! Us! Everyone!
Broadcast: ???
Action: All over! It's a planet/moon mingle!
When: 8/15-9/12, or until captcha kills us all

Show some spirit! It's a new system, and that means new people, new shenanigans, new adventures, savvy? You'd better have enough moxie to thrive in this one...

Or maybe you're just here for the food.

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[twicewed]

"No, I didn't see. But- " he took a deep breath, putting a hand on Maglor's cheek. "You're still my grandson, Maglor."

[bythewaves]

The eyes that look back are so, so very old (and mad, too )

"Thank you." Is what he says, and he sounds like he means it, but his eyes say "You don't understand"

[twicewed]

Finwe knew he didn't truly understand but he hoped to in time. For now, though, all he could do was be there for his grandson. "Nothing can change that, I mean it. I held you when you were born, you took your first steps with me. How could I disown you?"

And that had been his problem with Feanor. He couldn't turn his back on his firstborn.

[bythewaves]

A sigh and Maglor ducks his head.

"You probably should." He says quietly. "It would probably be better if you did not associate yourself with such as I."

[twicewed]

"As long as you wish for me to be here with you, I will stay." Finwe was firm on that. "You were once a baby in my arms, you trusted me to take care of you no matter what. How could I abandon you?"

[bythewaves]

"Because of what we are... what we have done. Grandfather, in many ways, I abandoned you."

[twicewed]

"Cana-Maglor. It wasn't your duty to protect me- it was my duty to protect you, your brothers, your cousins, and your father," Finwe said seriously, kissing the top of Maglor's head again.

[bythewaves]

"I ran away." He whispers softly, brokenly. "When the Dark came, I ran, and I left you there alone."

[twicewed]

"I would want you to run. You couldn't face Morgoth on your own," Finwe assured him softly.

[bythewaves]

"You did." Maglor says softly, voice empty and dead. "You were brave, and I was a coward, and you should never have had to face him alone."

[twicewed]

"I did and I would give my life again and again for your brothers, your cousins, and all of my children." Despite all mistakes Finwe would not hesitate to sacrifice himself for his family.

[bythewaves]

"I should have been there." Maglor turns to cling, allowing himself this moment of weakness.

"I'm sorry, grandfather."

[twicewed]

Finwe held his grandson tight, silent for a moment.

"I'm sorry too. I never wanted any of this to happen."

[bythewaves]

"Nor I." Maglor lets his grandfather hold him, and decides that it is alright to be a little selfish and stay here for a while.

"Will you stay?"

[twicewed]

"Always, for as long as you want," Finwe promised his grandson softly, kissing the top of his head. Maglor could be as selfish as he wanted, Finwe wouldn't judge.

[bythewaves]

"I... I may... I may send you away. Sometimes. I ... I am unusued to ... so many people."

To family, he means. He has no problem with strangers.

[twicewed]

"I will respect your wishes," Finwe assured him quietly though there was a pained look in his eyes. He didn't want to make his grandson unhappy.

[bythewaves]

"I'm sorry." Maglor says miserably. "I hurt you. I do not mean to, grandfather."

[twicewed]

"You did not. I only want what is best for you and your brothers and cousins. No matter what I must sacrifice or endure, it is always worth it in the end," he assured him gently.

[bythewaves]

"But I still hurt you." He says sadly.

"Somehow, I always only hurt the people I love."

[twicewed]

"You also bring me joy." His grandsons always would, no matter what.

"When you are happy, so am I."

[bythewaves]

"I do?" He blinks at him, and ducks his head shyly.

"I will try to be happy more then."