We Lost Our Doctor and All We Got Was This Lousy T-Shirt

[namisan]

Who: Bloodsport crew and visitors!
Broadcast: Nope
Action: Bloodsport
When: It's a mingle!

[New crew!  Old crew!   Something something dark side of the force.  (Sue me, your captain's tired.)]

Comments

[namisan]

So there's just Sam left. Or is there someone else I don't know about?

[pneumo]

I don't remember biting anyone else...

[namisan]

Mmm. So did Kitty and Winn accept your apology?

[pneumo]

Uh-huh.... [ Kitty even hugged him! Total forgiveness right? ]

[namisan]

Great! So seems like people at least understand what was going on.

So why are you still hiding in Bigby's room?

[pneumo]

H, hiding?? [ BUT ISN'T THAT WHERE HE'S SUPPOSED TO BE NAMI? ]

[namisan]

You've barely left that room in over a month. You don't call that hiding?

[pneumo]

Well...'cause... I didn't want anyone to have to see me and get mad....

[namisan]

So hiding.

Look, Sascha-- [Mrr. How to word this.] If people are mad at you for what happened, hiding isn't gonna change that. It's not fair if anyone thinks you should, either.

[pneumo]

But... If I'm not around, they won't be mad at me or scared. And I can stay, and no one will hate me. [ That's the theory, anyway. It's what he's used to doing back home--staying out of the way, watching when he can, wishing he was somehow a part of it all. ]

[namisan]

Do you think people hate you now?

[She can't say nobody hates you, because look... people get freaked out easy. She did. Instead, let's make another point.]

Hiding because you did something wrong, that's just... quitting. You'll never feel better. Nobody will ever get the chance to feel otherwise about you. And you'll sure as hell be miserable for the rest of your stay here, and nobody who matters wants that.

Here's another question while we're at it: do you think you did something wrong? Or are you just repeating back what other people said?

[pneumo]

I... [ Well that's...a good question, actually. Sascha doesn't usually think on those terms. He's used to doing nothing wrong and being hated for it, thinking the problem just lied intrinsically with himself and he ought to fix it somehow. He's always done whatever he can to please people. ]

...I made Winn scared. That's wrong, right? And I bit you.

[namisan]

You apologised. People are gonna be freaked for a while, but they'll get over it. If you really feel bad about it, get out there and make sure that's not the last memory they have of you.

[pneumo]

You mean--talk to them....? [ That's a mildly terrifying thought Nami ]

[namisan]

Only if you want to. But you should still be out there having a life, either way. They'll come to you when they're ready.

[pneumo]

But I feel bad about it... [ And that guilt is enough to make him want to avoid putting the "burden" of seeing him again on them. ]

[namisan]

That's good. It means you're not a jerk.

But you can stop wallowing in it now. It's been weeks.

[pneumo]

W, wallowing...? [ Does that meaning hiding? Because he's still mostly behind the door frame right now ]

[namisan]

Wallowing. [It sure does mean that, and-- Sascha. 8|]

Will you stop doing that? Sit down. I'm not gonna bite.

[pneumo]

You mean--I'm allowed to come into the room??

[namisan]

Of course you are! Oh, for--

[She breaks off, pointing near murderously at the nearest seat.] Sit.

[V. reassuring, Nami.]

[pneumo]

[ OH-SO. But it gets the desired result at least because Sascha makes a short sound and nods, hastily moving to obey. He has not the amount of guilt necessary to overpower the fear she invokes when angry. ]

Okay!

[namisan]

Now. [That she has you actually sitting down, she leans back, putting her feet up on the table.]

How much of this has to do with what Wanda told you?

[pneumo]

--You know the scary lady???

[namisan]

Yeah, I know the scary lady. She's not nearly as scary as I am. Answer the question.