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Who: Everyone messed up by the dragon plot, and visitors
Broadcast: N/A
Action: Blue Fish's clinic!
When: All throughout the Solrius dragon plot and through the space flight to the next destination.

[So several RPG characters, a dragon, and two messianic figures walk into a planet.

Everything is suffering and tears, there's a lot of dead people, there's no punchline. But, hey, for the survivors, the Blue Fish's clinic is treating wounds and generally being a decent place to rest and recover and pray you don't see a dragon again. And for those who weren't involved, there's enough people bedridden here that there may just be someone you want to visit.]

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No, you- [His fingers dig in, just a little, as he shakes his head.] What you did might just be what Exorcists do back in your world, but it means a lot to me. You didn't just save me, you saved Zaveid, and Lailah and Dezel. And- [Nope, can't say it.] ...and you saved Nightingale and Opal. And countless others.

I really, truly do mean it when I say I can't thank you enough.

[Hahahah he rubs the back of his neck a little guilty. Yeah. He's not so sure he acted exactly how an Exorcist would act when saving Sorey, but...eh, not gonna throw his former comrades under a bus. It's not like the Order can show up here.]

I'm just...thankful it worked. I wasn't sure if it would, I was...winging it a little.

[Yeah 'they woulda killed your creepy ass' might put a damper on the conversation. Well, more of one.]

You sounded like you were really hurting yourself.

Allen, are you okay?

[Excuse you, they would've killed your creepy ass and then study it for SCIENCE, okay. Get it straight

And at the concern, he just gives a shrug with one shoulder]

I'll be fine, Sorey. A few weeks, and I'll be good as new. Better even, now that I know my Innocence works properly again.

[oh well if it's ACADEMIC well that's a horse of a different color]

Does that happen often? Innocence not working properly?

Um...Sometimes. If it's damaged or there's something wrong with the Exorcist's mental state.

Anyway. Ever since I left home, I could use it, but not to its full power. Something would always block it...magic, the augment. But at least with the augment, it looks like I might just need the proper motivation to push through the block.

Push through the block...that the augment puts in? The same augment that will kill you if you try to remove it?

[like not to criticize but]

Yeah...that's probably why I was out for awhile, thinking back on it...

[my guy] I know I don't have much room to talk since you doing that saved me, but you slipping into a coma probably isn't indicative of your Innocence not being blocked anymore.

Maybe not. I'll test out my capabilities once I'm back on my feet again...hopefully without inducing a coma this time.

[He'd rather avoid getting scolded by Beverly over it]

What about you? What are you going to do?

[also clay will probably be glad if allen avoided a coma: round 2]

...I don't know.

[He hasn't exactly been avoiding thinking about it so much as just the idea of making any decisions at all has him paralyzed.]

I've been trying to help out here...and there's a lot of catchup to do on the Huntress. Sora's been taking good care of the maintenance while I was gone so that's fortunate.

...the seraphim will need pure vessels to avoid corruption. Maybe the shrine. I should...I should talk to them about it.

[Yeah but Beverly's scarier.

He listens, nodding a little. Yeah, it's probably good to keep him busy.]

...Sounds like you're not planning on taking the Shepherd's pact again then.

[It's not said with any judgement. Just as an observation]

[well, he's not wrong.]

I don't think it's safe. ...considering. [also there's 7544676 variables to consider and the biggest one is THEY WILL NEVER TRUST ME AGAIN AFTER I TRIED TO MAKE THEM MY MONSTER SLAVES]

...Considering you got corrupted?

[There's a pause from Allen and he lets out a sigh.]

Look...I won't pretend you didn't mess up. You did. And I can't tell you what you should do. That's something you need to decide for yourself. Maybe becoming a Shepherd again is a bad idea for you. There's nothing wrong with continuing your path another way, but...

[...]

Something tells me there's something more for you than living the rest of your days in penance.

Edited 2016-09-14 20:17 (UTC)

[Well, yeah, being scared that he'll fall again is a huge part of it, but more than anything else he's frightened of moving forward without Mikleo.

It's just a feeling he hasn't put to words yet, he can't put to words yet. Or ever. Stepping back into a winding path that he once shared with Mikleo, without him, doing the same thing he'd done before he destroyed what they all had together?

He can't do that. He simply cannot do that.]

...you're right, [he murmurs instead,] but I can't think about that right now.

....I'd imagine not, no.

[He offers him a sympathetic smile]

Take your time. You should decide things when you're ready. It's your life, after all.

Mm. Lailah says that a lot; says that a halfhearted Shepherd is much more dangerous than none. Though I guess we've seen the effects of that already.

[Sorey rubs his hands together again, as if they're cold.] I didn't get a chance to try and do anything for the planet. I saw Clay's call to action; do you think there's anything that can be done now? Even though we've already left?

Yeah...I can understand her reasoning. [Especially after...all that] I like Lailah, she's really nice!

[At that question he frowns and thinks]

Well...we're probably too far away now to send anything back. Why? Are you looking for something to do?

[Everyone likes Lailah, because she's wonderful. Puns notwithstanding.]

No, more that, [scratches the back of his head,] I feel awful doing that to those people, and not even being able to offer anything to the relief efforts. I don't- [Swallows hard.] I don't...think...I killed anyone. [And he really doesn't know for sure. He's very scared that his memories aren't completely there; there's a lot of blank spots. If he killed someone, just outright murdered them-]

[....

Honestly Allen isn't sure if he did or not for sure. It was too chaotic and too much space to check over every spot. And even if he did know...well, he'd probably be real tempted to keep it from Sorey for his sake]

...Right, I'm sorry. I don't know.

But- maybe you could ask Clay? He's an astronaut and he's really smart. Maybe he could think of a way to get at least something back to them.

[Sorey doesn't realize he'd been holding his breath until he's let it out. Had he been expecting Allen to know? Hasn't Allen already done enough for them?]

Right. Of course, yeah; I'll ask him. He, um. [He rubs his nose, trying desperately to steer his mind away from maybe you did.] He left me a pretty long message actually, telling me to never do this again. But in Clay sort of way. Said a lot of things I needed to hear.

Edited 2016-09-15 15:19 (UTC)

Did he? [His expression softens] That sounds like something he'd do alright. He's been really worried about you.

Mm.

[Picks at his clothes.]

I'm...glad he didn't have to see me like that. [Clay's a normal human; a lot like all the villagers Sorey meets back home. Well, from a place that already does space travel, anyway, but the principle is the same. Sorey is never very fond of the times when normal humans look at him differently because they see something they don't understand.] And I'm glad he's here in the Fleet. He takes good care of people.

Yeah. I'd be much worse off without him, that's for sure.

[ Clay kept him sane, kept him grounded. Even though Allen was the one with the powers, Clay was the one who made him feel less afraid. The last year in his life with Clay has been the happiest he's ever been, or at least since...

Since...

... ]

Sorey...

There's something I should tell you.

[Run, whispers Sorey's heart at the tone of Allen's voice, and it reflects in how he stiffens in the chair, as if to burst from it and bolt.]

...what is it?