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Who: opal and you!
Broadcast: text
Action: goldstone if you so desire
When: some ungodly hour of the night

guess who's super bored again??? it's me and i'm ignoring 100% of these stupid rumors so whateverrrr

which means it's time for truth or dare, so hit me with whichever you want and i'll give you something and then vice versa or whatever i guess

if you choose dare you're legally required to use the video function to prove it though

[ooc: unbeknownst to her (for the moment), opal is under a compulsive honesty augment glitch! so if she seems much more truthful than normal, that's probably why.]

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the story about how we met is different than the story about how we got together

both are kind of weird

The best stories usually are.

Which one do you feel like telling?

i mean neither of them but if we're talking comparatively, definitely the one about how we met

Hm. If you don't want either, I won't press.

But if you want an equal exchange, I'll give you a story about me and Alex.

you go first

So when I met Alex, I thought she was the weirdest kid on our ship. That didn't mean much at the time: Jason, Tay, and Chie had their own quirks. Here's this Space Jam-obsessed kid, making fun about faith and telling me "the fun never stops" on the Paisley.

We had the communal bunks then. After meeting her, I slept mostly in the med bay.

Then her birthday rolls around, and she's not exactly celebrating it, and she stops cracking the jokes long enough for me to realize she's pretty awesome when she's not humming Taylor Swift under her breath. That's when we really started talking, rather than awkward his and byes.

you know somehow i didn't realize you guys were together

how long have you been a thing

(also why can't she be awesome WHILE humming taylor swift)

Because we aren't ~~anymore~~.

No matter how much I love her, I won't be in love. I couldn't do that to her.

(If you like Taylor Swift, then sure! Maybe she's awesome!!)

what are you talking about

that sounds either not true and/or dumb

Then maybe I'm an idiot.

I don't want to say anymore in public. She doesn't deserve that, so idk, tell me how much I suck.

give me a second

[And then she switches the feed to something encrypted.]

there now we aren't in public

There's not much more to the story.

We dated for about eight months. We broke up and we talked it out before and after, but I didn't say anything because she left the Fleet and I was beating myself up over it. I don't know if I'm in the wrong. I could be.

can we start with what you meant by the whole "i can't be in love with her" thing because that's throwing me off

Sure.

It's stupid. I know it's stupid, but I wasn't being the boyfriend she deserved. I wasn't putting her first when I needed to, or thinking of her when I should've. Not because of anything she did. She's amazing. Anyone would be lucky to have her.

I don't know if I told you. I'm amnesiac, and every so often, I'll get a piece of myself back and realize I used to be someone different. Someone that wasn't the kind of guy Alex would date. She liked this sappy tea-drinking medic, and I wasn't that guy. (Old me was a dick.)

a bunch of tl;dr for "I'm an idiot and I don't think I should try dating anytime soon."

dude

as someone who has lived through the whole "dating someone while being an amnesiac" thing

you are totally overthinking it?? just focus on who you are now

I'll try to.

But until I figure out who I am, I don't think I'm ready for a relationship with her (or anyone).

you already know who you are right now though?

you're trying to figure out who you used to be but it doesn't matter anymore

I guess. It doesn't feel that simple, tbh.

I know who I am now, but the more I remember the old me, the more confused I get.

do you think remembering more about who you used to be is going to change who you are now

because that's not really a thing

It was in my world.

But you've got a point. Just because it was a thing there doesn't mean it has to be.

yeah

amnesia is hard but don't let it fuck with you

It sure is.

Thanks, btw. I needed to hear that.

it's cool

always here to prevent people from thinking regrettable things

Late night me appreciates it more than you'll ever know.

don't make it weird, late night stefan

anyways you said you wanted dare this time right

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