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[samahl]

Who: Cyril Lavellan
Broadcast: Open
Action: SS Starduck
When: Afternoon


[Cyril seems much better to anyone who happened to see him during his bender. He's put together once more, perfectly groomed and wearing something that compliments his frame. He seems cheerful, though a little thoughtful.]


I think I have a rather morbid question to ask, but one I find myself dwelling on recently. Bear with me...

If you knew you were facing your death, perhaps through illness or some magic that was slowly tainting your body, what would be the one thing you'd want to do?

When I try to think of my answer, all that comes to mind are lewd, shallow things. For once, perhaps, I'd like my answer to have more meaning. Perhaps hearing what you would do will help?

Comments

[samahl]

I think that's a good point. Though, I suppose part of it is being honest with what I actually want.

[paraclete]

Yeah. Usually, honesty does change things. Well, I can tell you what I would want, but I'm wondering, too, what you would say is worthy of being called meaningful. After all... [He must be smiling. He really sounds like someone who smiles. But he's not firm, and there's a reserved quality to his voice--almost aerial, like he isn't grounded to the conversation.] Otherwise, aren't you mistreating your own desires?

[samahl]

That may be the thing that I'm best at, though.

What would you want to do?

[paraclete]

Hmmm. [Acknowledgement. No judgment either way.] Well, for myself, I would wish to spend my remaining time in the presence of the person I love.

[samahl]

[Haha, well, hearing that hurt, but Cyril supposes he walked right into that one. Discussing death gets people to think about love, and it's not this person's fault he recently has been dealing with a broken heart. He is very, very careful not to show even a bit of his wounds.]

That's very admirable, and I'm sure they would want to be with you too. If they knew it was the last they'd be with you.

[paraclete]

[Likewise, Kaworu doesn't sound the slightest bit wounded even through a rueful tinge:]

But that's a little cruel, perhaps, for them to know it. I've thought before of how much I would suffer if it were me instead. If it were me, waiting on his death. So it's not a very nice thing of me to say.

So I'll tell you that I understand what it is to want a different want. To desire for yourself to desire different things.

[samahl]

It is difficult to think about the people we leave behind when we go, and what they must suffer when it happens.

It's enough to almost make me wish I believed in an afterlife.

[paraclete]

Is it? I would think one might want to rest, after death. Or is that selfish?

[samahl]

Oblivion isn't the same as resting.