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Who:Hux, Ulaz, and Keith
Broadcast: N/A
Action: Yes on the planet
When: Between 11/12 and 12/2

[Hux had arranged to meet with Ulaz and Keith aboard the Bishop. He finally decided now was the time to finish the conversation he had with Ulaz and to bring Keith in on it. As much as he didn't want to discuss the subject it needed to be dealt with. It wasn't something he couldn't keep hiding or explaining pieces of. It would bring out more questions...and then what if someone from his world and time arrived and told them the news? No. It was better they heard it from him and if they were to understand who he was they had to be told. To help emphasis the situation at hand, he even took time to wear his full military uniform that he arrived in.

Yet when they arrived on the Bishop, Keith had mentioned the Wishing Tree and seeking it out. Reluctantly, Hux agreed to go with Keith and Ulaz to the Wishing Tree. He had managed to avoid the planet the entire time since they started drifting once more. It was too cold for him and it reminded him of the planet Star Killer had been on. Now he was going to the planet to seek a Wishing Tree and discuss about said Star Killer.

He wasn't looking forward to the discussion, already having an idea of what the outcome would be like. Hux still didn't understand why he was putting so much time into this friendship he had with them. He never allowed himself to get close to any one else before. Why now? Why did their approval mean so much? With the loss of his father and their Supreme Leader was he trying to find a replacement? What did it matter now when what he was about to say was going to destroy what ever it was that was forming? He dug the his gloved fingers into the palm of his hand. He hated the fact he could see his own breath and how everything seemed to be much louder.

Hux halted in his tracks believing that he felt the ground shake and looked around briefly trying to see if it wasn't his mind playing tricks. He could have sworn he felt the ground move and was expecting part of the ground to split up as he had seen back on the planet. Back when he was trying to find the fallen Kylo Ren.

As he did so he moved to discuss a lighter subject before going onto the main one at hand. He didn't want the others to notice his startled movements.]

What did you find out about this Wishing Tree? What I wanted to discuss would have been better on the ship instead of out in this cold.

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Well... if you ask for something, it gives you a task to complete... and then, you get your wish, apparently.

[Keith had been torn on what to ask for... with the others asking for Atlas and the Lions, but he figured... as cool as a miniature Black Lion would be, he actually really missed his wolf. He wasn't expecting him to show up as a puppy again, but... well, he supposed it made sense. Most of their stuff seemed to be under a certain size. He just... needed to raise him. Again.

It did seem that the wolf was already familiar with certain things, though, so maybe it wasn't such a 'puppy' after all. But, for now, Keith was carrying the small blue canine fluff of an animal.]

[Ulaz had arrived on the Bishop with the rest of them. Of the plans to talk got waylaid by the idea of taking Hux to see the tree and see if he could get something from it. It seemed a reasonable way to get something that might be of value. And it worked, seeing Keith carrying a small black and blue cosmic wolf pup that he hadn't had on the ship recently]

People do seem to be getting some interesting things from the tree.

[Speaking of which, if the wolf looked over at him, he'd carefully offer his hand for the wolf to sniff]

It is curious what you might get.

[Hux gave an idle shrug and glanced warily at the creature. He had little interaction with animals in general and this was one of the few times he was up close to one.]

I have nothing of importance to receive. Everything's been the First Order for me. What tasks does it ask you to complete?

[Kosmo sniffed, cautious at first, but then relaxed. Ulaz could pet him if he wanted.]

It seems that it's asking people to do things in spirit with what this holiday and season represents here on this planet... giving to others, starting over new, redemption, forming bonds with those you care about... It's kind of nice in a way.

I went with Pidge. Shiro gave me pretty good directions, so it wasn't hard to find. And, now that I've been down there, I definitely can remember the way.

I warn you, though... the singing aspect of the planet is stronger there.

[When Kosmo seemed to relax, Ulaz did give the pup a bit of a pet as they walked]

Hmm... better than things it could be asking people to do.

[Bringing people together wasn't so hard if someone wanted to try and far less destructive than the other option]

[Hux scratched the bottom of his chin as he listened to what both have to say. He wasn't familiar with a lot of the traditions that the Fleet seemed to celebrate. The urge to sing or understanding the songs that were being sung he had no knowledge to. Nor did he have a desire to learn them.

I don't understand how a tree can ask you to do something and then reward you for it.

[He was thankful for the conversation as it at least started to calm his nerves. He still found himself warily checking his surroundings and tried to steady his own rapid heart beat.

Yet he wondered if he could be redeemed. Confessing is one thing, but being redeemed was different. ]

[Kosmo's tail started to swish in response to being petted.]

I guess... I don't know. It's an exchange. We're asking the tree for a favor, essentially... so it's asking us for one in return. It's only fair.

[Okay, Kosmo is an adorable pup. He was going to have to start keeping treats for Kosmo like he kept some for Procyon in his desk]

Exchange seems about right. It wants us to do something and then it gives it in return. I have the feeling this falls into the category of just going with what is happening and not questioning why or how it is happening.

I suppose that is the best action to follow.

[Hux frowned and pulled his coat closer toward him in an effort to stay warm and a way to shield himself from the unwanted thoughts that plagued his mind. He decided it was best to slowly inch his way into the conversation that he was originally supposed to have with them.]

I used to have a large base on a planet similar to this. It was largely inhabited. My people were the only ones that lived on it aside from the planet's creatures. Despite the snow and it's frigid temperatures, it was a ideal location for our operation and under the radar for being spotted.

I didn't think I would ever step foot on a planet like it again.

[Thankfully, the suits for the Blade of Marmora and the Paladins were designed to be safe in outerspace. It was a little easier to withstand the cold in those than in a normal coat. Kosmo's thick fur kept him warm.

And if he learned Ulaz had treats, then there would likely be some daily visits to the Blameless by the teleporting wolf.

Keith listened as Hux spoke about how the cold planet reminded him of a place he'd once been. The idea of an isolated base wasn't new to Keith, and he nodded.]

It's a good strategy to find an isolated place for a base in order to keep it from being found. And if you can find one that has a tactical advantage over an expanse of territory, even better.

[Ulaz had been wearing his Blade of Marmora suit today, having been training on the Iskaulit earlier in the day so he was warm as he walked with them. He wasn't cold in the least as they walked despite the fact he didn't seem to be wearing that much.

Ulaz would certainly welcome daily visits from the wolf for treats]

Yes, isolated and with conditions to prevent others from finding it ate the best options to look for when establishing a base.

[Considering the Thaldycon base was hidden in a space pocket in front of exploding space crystals and the main base was between two dueling black holes... yeah, the Blade liked hard to access places]

This one does have a greater population I'm sure.

[Hux gave a nod in agreement. It was a strong military tactic and had worked well. He had yet to figure out how the Resistance managed to get in. He knew the traitor had a firm hand in it, but there were still other pieces to the puzzle he couldn't figure out. The idea that Captain Phasma had been a key player in the destruction didn't come across to him.]

The base was centered around a weapon I had designed and oversaw the process of it being built. It was my way of being able to prove to my peers and Supreme Leader that I was worthy for my title.

Intentionally it's purpose was to draw the enemy out of hiding and end the war before it could fully start. I had been a naive fool to think that it would work that way. Our Supreme Leader had other purposes for the weapon. He wanted to use it to destroy worlds not just our enemy.

He believed that everything in their path should be eliminated. It didn't matter the lives that were cost or the resources that were lost. He had wanted to force his upper hand on things and would do what it took to get it.

[Hux couldn't help but wince slightly as he talked about the weapon and it's purpose. He thought he saw flashes of light and fire and kept thinking he was hearing shouts and cries of alarm that ran through the base. He found himself looking around for his people, momentarily forgetting where he was.]

[Keith listened as Hux divulged more about this base. It started to sound familiar... very familiar.]

When you have someone who uses the title "Supreme Leader", they don't tend to be forgiving to their enemies.

It isn't uncommon for people to aim for stability and peace, only to take it too far... to the next step of domination.

[But, for a moment, Keith wasn't sure if Hux heard him. He recognized that far off look... he'd seen it in Shiro. Hux was reliving something that had left a mark.]

Hey... Hux? You still with us?

[Ulaz frowned (more than usual) as he walked listening to what Hux said. He did thoroughly agree with Keith's assessment that anyone with a title such as that is not interested in keeping the peace.

Anything he wished to add was stopped when Hux suddenly stopped, looking like he was hearing something that wasn't there.

He reached over to put his hand on his shoulder. It might help him reconnect with reality... or it might cause him to attack. If it was the latter, Ulaz was prepared for that and not putting Keith in that position]

Are you well?

[There was a delay before Hux registered that Ulaz and Kieth were reaching out to him. When Ulaz placed his hand on his shoulder it was enough to pull him back to the present. His expression cleared from confusion to recognition.]

I'm sorry. It's this planet.

[He rubbed his forehead with a gloved hand and tried to steady his own breathing to calm himself down.]

I've been reluctant on stepping foot on this planet, due to the all the unwanted memories it might bring up. I apologize for this behavior.

[Keith quirked an eyebrow for a moment, and then shook his head.]

You don't have to apologize. That happens to people sometimes.

[Granted, better it was just here than in the middle of a battle. And, no, it wasn't entirely as normal as Keith was making it, but he didn't want Hux to feel too bad right off. Getting him calmed down first was more important.]

If you want, we can take a break.

[Kosmo squirmed a little in Keith's arms, so he put the pup down. The fluff-ball immediately planted himself at Hux's feet, and rolled over, offering his belly for rubs. That would help the red-haired human feel better, right?]

[At least the contact had seemed to bring him back, but it was worrying that he was having issues with the environment of the planet. Though it was making sense why seeing him like this.

He glanced over Kosmo as the wolf squirmed, still keeping an eye on him as he flopped down in front of him. Well, the wolf was trying too]

We don't have to do it now.

No, this has to be done now... no breaks for this. It's bad enough that I'm appearing weak in front of the two of you.

This isn't an easy discussion for me. If I didn't trust the two of you, I wouldn't be making this effort to do so or caring about it. It's....strange to feel these emotions. I believe it's also adding to the stress of being upon this planet.

[Hux glanced at Keith then at Cosmo before he knelt down to pet the wolf with his gloved hand. He wasn't sure if that's what he was supposed to do having never interacted with a creature. But it seemed that's what the wolf wanted him to do. He looked at Keith to see if this was correct. He glanced at Ulaz unsure of how the other felt with his actions.]

I've spent a long time seeking approval in people who refused to acknowledge my achievements or myself. Knowing it was the only way I could survive. Even if what I had to do was considered right or wrong....I did them if it allowed me to live. It cost a lot of who I was what ever there was still left that hadn't been buried for the sake of the First Order.

[Keith came over and crouched down with them, encouraging Hux to keep petting Kosmo's belly. The wolf wagged his tail in a lazy swishing motion.]

I appreciate the trust. [He gave him a small smile. He knew how hard it could be to trust someone.]

It sounds like you had a hard time while you were growing up.

[Sure, Keith had it rough, but he'd never felt like his life was on the line if he acted out at school.]

[Ulaz appreciated that trust as well. He knew from their previous conversation that Hux had had a hard time when he was younger, basically raised in a situation where he was only tolerated because he was needed by a much larger force.

Some part of him does disapprove of Hux's actions, being complacent in the destruction of worlds if not carrying it out himself. On the other hand, he had done things that he wished he could have avoided as well all for the sake of information and not standing out. They were similar, he and Hux, in that way]

Unfortunately it can be hard in that situation. It takes a lot to not lose yourself what is being requested when there is no other option but to follow it.

[Hux appeared to relax a little clearly enjoying the little bit of interaction with Cosmo. He wondered briefly what it would be like to have an animal companion.]

Your companion is very friendly and so trusting. I'm glad you were able to find one. The tree gave you him after your task?

I feel that some of it is knowing when to pick your battles and how far you can push the other. But even that can be tricky and fail you.

[As Hux had recently learned with Kylo. Before the destruction of Star Killer base he was able to figure out how far he could push the Knight, but now it seemed to be anything set the man on edge. Even with the Supreme Leader Snoke it was hard to gauge on where he stood and what might cost his career and life.

He gave a wary sigh and got back up, wanting to continue the journey to the tree and to finish the difficult discussion.]

We used the weapon to draw out the enemy from their hiding. Only our Supreme Leader wanted more then that. He had ordered their entire system to be destroyed. He believed it would wipe them out and any support they had with it.

I'll admit...that it had been a proud moment for myself. I could finally use the weapon that I had helped design and to show to my peers that I wasn't someone to be messed with. I could finally get my father's approval.

Only now...I'm not sure what to think. I find myself conflicted. I've done everything for the First Order and then I heard all the different stories the two of you shared. I've always thought that our cause was the right path and that this was where I truly belonged. This would also give me back my home planet as well.

Yet, I don't know now. Before I've arrived here I wasn't sure where I belonged or what my purpose was.

[Reflectively he clinched his right hand and dug his fingers into the palm of his hand. The glove kept the pain away that would have been there, but he still did it out of stressful habit.]

[Keith nodded at the question.]

He's actually from home. I found him while I was on a mission. It's nice to have him back.

[Keith stood as Hux did. Listening, he hesitated to answer right away. He remembered the feeling of power inside the quintessence field, how it had been so easy to just... use it because it was for their goal, the goal they thought was right. But it was twisting them, as power can be known to do. If Allura hadn't stopped them from continuing, he was pretty sure they would have just kept battling for eternity in there.

He was torn, honestly. He understood wanting to do what was right, wanting acceptance and respect from one's peers, and doing what was needed to survive. He also understood how all of those things could contradict one another depending on the person making the decisions. It was a lot to think about. He clenched his own fists.]

Back home, we were allied with someone who, unknown to us, was running an experiment to find a better source of energy. The problem was, his experiment and research was killing a lot of people. Yet, he believed that it would save even more if it was successful.

I still really don't know if he was right, but I do know that those people... they didn't know what was happening until it was too late. None of them knew where they were being taken, what was going to happen. They just blindly went because they trusted him, and believed him to be a savior. And he let them think that way. He never completely lied to them, but he never told them the whole truth, either.

They didn't deserve that.

[He took a deep breath.]

I don't-... I don't condone that weapon. But, I think... I think I understand why you created it. I just have one question.

Would you do it again? Knowing what you do now?

[By now, Ulaz had heard the story of Lotor and what he'd done. He had only ever had reasons to doubt Lotor at home because of military party line, which he had learned after being a spy to take with a grain of salt. Having word from the paladins what Lotor was doing was different than this. Given he had no possible interaction with anything in their timeline, he couldn't see for himself and judge, so he had resolved to remain cautious of the prince.

The question that Keith posed to Hux was a good one and looks over at the other, waiting for an answer]

[Hux looked at the both of them in the eye when he answered and spoke in firm voice.]

No. I wouldn't. I'm responsible for the lives of an entire system. Five planets. Not only that I'm responsible for the lives of my men. That weight alone has taken a toll on me.

The Supreme Leader had wanted me to use the weapon again on another system where the enemy's base was found. I couldn't go through with it. I managed to argue with him and make it so we only targeted the planet that had the base. Not the entire system. He eventually agreed to it, but I also felt he sensed a weakness in me. I'm honestly surprised he didn't kill me for that.

We never got to destroy it. The enemy found us and attacked. I believe through inside help....they got in. Our weapon was destroyed and in the process it took the base and entire planet with it. I barely escaped only due to the fact I was sent to retrieve our co-commander who was dealing with his own mission at the time. I managed to find him with enough time to get out, but just barely. I couldn't say that for my men.

Some of the older staff felt I should have stayed with the base and went down with it as a general should. Many are displeased with the out come of the events. I often wonder if I should have stayed behind.

[Keith listened. There was tension through his frame as he did, and he carried a somewhat severe expression, but he didn't react beyond that. He was used to trying to keep certain aspects of his temper in check. Plus, Hux didn't deserve them jumping to conclusions. Keith's already seen what that can do, and it didn't do them any good, especially here in the Fleet. So he'd hear him out.

Still...]

And no one thought it was overkill to destroy an entire planet for one base? I know you talked him down from destroying the entire system, but...

[It was like Nacxela all over again. Destroying almost a third of the Galaxy when Keith knew they could have likely wiped out their force with a few well-placed battlecruisers... He still wasn't convinced that the Galra were backed against that solid of a wall to react to that extreme.]

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