System Mingle!!

[appletart]

Who: EVERYONE!!
Broadcast: If you want?
Action: In the current system!
When: ALL MONTH!!!

It's a system mingle! What are you up to? Exploring the surface? Living the best nightlife ever? Fighting off your own allergies? Doing your best to ignore Fred.....?


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[rebuildyourruins]

Ah, okay. Then I will go look at it, sometime.

[Maybe not this week, but the next time he's on the Iskaulit for certain.]

[dothelokimotion]

Whenever you like. I hear it helps for some.

[rebuildyourruins]

Is that why you made it?

[It's similar to the wall Loki had created inside the First Breath, just different in concept. There was a pattern there. Allowing recreations of things lost.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ his lips curve at that. ]

That's what illusions are good for.

[rebuildyourruins]

[Thor just chuckles quietly at that, going back to his drink. Even he will admit that reality is too harsh at times. It is now, at very least. Trickery has its place and he knows that these works of Loki's aren't malicious. It could be out of sentiment or just a will to see if it could be done... he's not particularly concerned what it is. Those efforts his brother has been making to do helpful things, though? That's heartening if nothing else is.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ at least it's no longer tinged with the bitterness loki carried in his heart for so long. the fact that he could even say so to thor is a large step. or maybe loki is just making sure what can be said is said. before it's too late.

he takes a sip. ]

I hope it helps, regardless.

[rebuildyourruins]

We'll see, I suppose.

[Help is such a foreign concept at this point. He knows Loki has concerns... still, the enormity of everything seems beyond help a lot of the time. Where do you even start?]

[dothelokimotion]

[ many, many concerns as loki clearly eyes thor skeptically before turning to his drink, his expression twisting. ]

Hm.

Do you remember what I said? On the ship?

[rebuildyourruins]

[Exhaling through his nose, he looks Loki in the eye.]

Yes. Which part?

[dothelokimotion]

[ for a moment, it feels like his courage fails him but loki presses his lips together, continuing. it's not about timing or the right place. it's about the things that need to be said. just in case. ]

The part about undying fidelity. I know that it matters to you, this idea of . . . failure.

[ he swallows tightly. ]

But above all else, I believe in you. It will not change.

[rebuildyourruins]

[His free hand curls into a fist on his knee, lips pressed tightly together. Being reminded of his failure, even like this, sends a frisson of tension through him. It's hot and suffocating.]

It isn't just an idea.

[That's all he wants to say about it. All he will say about it. Because what Loki said after is more important, even if it makes his heart ache.]

I haven't-- earned that, Loki. I didn't avenge you.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he wonders if it's worth telling thor that he never expected it. to be avenged, to be saved. honestly, it still sounds laughable to him. that loki would ever rate so highly. but it wouldn't help thor to hear that. instead he says. ]

I don't care.

[ which isn't entirely true. some small, jealous, needy part of him does. the weight of actions makes loki feel better about himself, but it's small and it gets smaller every time he sees thor like this. ]

I don't need you to earn it. I don't want — to be an unfulfilled ghost on your shoulder, Thor. I just wanted you to live.

[rebuildyourruins]

[Maybe Loki doesn't need it, but Thor does. He needs to do something, anything, to bring a sense of justice to those fallen. Loki stands at the head of a long line of them, Asgardians and friends and strangers alike.

At the same time Thor wants to grasp at it. This belief Loki has, absurd though it feels to him. He finds he doesn't have the same reserves of his own anymore to draw upon; he's been drying up for months, losing more and more of it as time went on.

A tiny shake of his head, centring, before he looks up once more.]

I did. I am. But it was at... such a cost. I didn't want it to be like this.

[dothelokimotion]

Neither did I.

[ but loki always knew that thanos would come for him. that it was inevitable. ]

[rebuildyourruins]

[In a strange, sad way that's heartening to hear. Thor knows this of course. Loki has said it before: he didn't want to die there. He wanted to live as well. Oftentimes though it can be hard to recall that, when the memory of Loki walking to his certain death still permeates his mind.

Thor musters a faint smile, on slightly steadier ground.]

What a mess.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki shrugs, taking a long swig of his drink. wherever you go, death and destruction follows. ]

One thing at a time, brother. One thing at a time.

[rebuildyourruins]

Yeah, I know.

[Easier said than done. He finishes off his glass and signals for a new one, shaking his head.]

We're here now. That is what matters.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki looks down at his drink at that. ]

Yes. Of course.

[rebuildyourruins]

[Thor watches Loki for a long moment, thoughtful.]

But...?

[It feels like there's a 'but' there.]

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki shakes his head. ]

You've summed it up, Thor.

[rebuildyourruins]

[He's dubious, but not going to push it too hard. This conversation has already had some dark detours. There's only so much picking at the threads of their lives that's sensible to do. Thor nods his thanks to the bartender as he delivers his new glass, rolling it between his hands a little.]

Now is important to me. To us.

[dothelokimotion]

[ he smiles faintly. isn't that why loki has been trying so hard, leaving no stone unturned? ]

It is to me as well.

[rebuildyourruins]

[A smile flickers over Thor's face as well, open and earnest. Now is all they have after all. They can't fully untangle themselves from the past, but the present can't be denied either.]

I'm glad to hear it, brother.

[dothelokimotion]

[ loki huffs. ]

Don't read so much into it.

[rebuildyourruins]

I'm only reading what's there. What you tell me!