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[takeabow]

Who: Nova & U
Broadcast: fleet-wide; video
Action: On First Breath
When: August 14th, early morning

[ Nova looks... tired, especially if you saw her on her first day. She's sitting up on her bed and her space looks pretty immaculate and not at all lived-in. She looks a little anxious, and rebraids the bottom of her hair before speaking, visibly uncomfortable with the camera. ]

Uh. Hey. I guess. I hope I'm not waking anyone up. I'm new so... I don't know. I can't sleep. Does anyone have any tips? Or something? It's... well, it's not exactly quiet, because things make noise. But it's... sterile? It doesn't sound right, or smell right.

I don't really want to think about it too hard. Anyway. If you could tell me what you did when you were new...

[ She trails off, awkward and tired and lets the silence go on a little long ]

It's probably just a personal problem.

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WHATEVER IT'S FINE // video

[takeabow]

Yeah? I miss fresh air.

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[reconstitution]

I don't know what I miss.

[ He can't very well say that he misses the feeling of a weapon in his hand, or having a mission to complete. Direction.. While he gets some of it here from Jim, the rest of his time is spent attempting to find stability. Not an easy thing when all you know is skirmish. ]

...Purpose, maybe.

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[takeabow]

...Yeah, that too.

It's like, when I'm not fighting for my life, or my sister, I don't know what else to do.

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[reconstitution]

[ Winter is relieved that he's not the only one who feels that, and his posture relaxes a fraction. He looks briefly around the medical bay where he has holed himself up and nods in reply, worrying his lower lip between his teeth. ]

All I remember is how to fight. Doing my job to shape the future. Here is different.. Like a stalled engine.

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[takeabow]

[ nods ]

I hunt, mostly, when I can at home. I can't do that here, so it's just... [ shrugs ]

A lot of my memories are... not being able to make my own decisions, or thinking I am but it turns out it was to plan anyway.

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[reconstitution]

[ He's honestly speechless, and he flounders for a response that isn't him gaping. It's not just him? It's a relief, but also worrying.. ]

Mine are the same.

[ He watches her face for any tell that she could be lying, but as far as he can tell, she's truthful.. Or a very good liar. ]

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[takeabow]

[ you're in luck—she's a terrible liar ;D luckily she's telling the truth ]

...Really?

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[reconstitution]

[ He can at least reason that she would have no reason to lie about this thing in particular. It hits far too close to home from a complete stranger.

He gives her a nod. ]

Yes.

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[takeabow]

[ she draws her knees up, braid over her shoulder. she looks every bit the tired teen she is ]

Sorry. It sucks.

It was part of a reality show for me, so this place just gives me bad feelings.

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[reconstitution]

I don't know why I can't remember. There is nothing there.

[ There is, Bucky. Your noggin just needs a little push in the right direction.

They do have that in common; that weary, defeated look. Though Nova seems far too young to be put through that. ]

..Maybe there isn't anything.

[ A faint shrug. ]

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[takeabow]

There is something there. There has to be.

There was for me.

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[reconstitution]

I wouldn't mind if there were..

[ Having nothing was just..awful. There was no frame of reference for anything and it was frustrating. ]

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[takeabow]

I know the feeling but...

[ sighs ]

Be careful what you wish for?

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[reconstitution]

I suppose that is wise..

[ Still, it would be nice to have something.. Even if it were bad. ]

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[takeabow]

Yeah... but sometimes not being wise is better so... who knows. Definitely not me.

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[reconstitution]

[ He shrugs. ]

We will see.

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[takeabow]

I hope so.

In the meantime, if you figure out how to sleep, let me know.

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[reconstitution]

The same to you. I haven't figured it out yet.

[ Trying to sleep makes him restless, but rest was a necessity.. Maybe he'd just fall down eventually if he reached a tipping point.]

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[takeabow]

Maybe I'll just turn my room into a fake forest.

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[reconstitution]

...How?

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[takeabow]

I don't know. It was mostly a fantasy idea.

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[reconstitution]

..Maybe someone in the fleet can help?

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[takeabow]

With magic, you think?

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[reconstitution]

It's possible?

[ Apparently quite a few people in the fleet are magic, though Winter is still having a hard time believing any of it. ]

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[takeabow]

I've never gotten used to the idea.