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Who: Uchiha Sasuke
Broadcast: Fleetwide!
Action: Marsiva
When: This very moment.

(broadcast)

[ Sure there are bound to be the occasional less-than-thrilling broadcasts but this one may be a new low, with the camera focused in on a nondescript blob that turns out -- with some acquired distance -- to be a knee. The feed shakes then and there's the loud metallic tap tap of the device being knocked against the framework of one of the generic cots aboard the Marsiva. Tap. Tap. Tap. The only other sound is that of the painfully bland music in the background, without a word being spoken.

At least this inept user finally turns the communicator around to inspect it at another angle, granting any viewer a flash of dark and impractically spiked hair before the camera then focuses on equally shadowed eyes and a severe expression.

No, he's not going to panic. He probably already did that internally before he even tried to figure out the communicator ~~less than successfully~~. Send aid. ]

(action)

[ Sasuke will be easy to encounter either sitting on that cot and fiddling with his communicator, exploring the bay thoroughly, or staring with incredible and difficult-to-read intensity out into the murky void of space. Godspeed. ]

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Or the realization of your own weaknesses.

[ zuko can be a leader, and is one, now -- but he also recognizes where his failings are. mostly because he's failed a lot. but with failure comes learning, young nephew.

or something. ]

Which also makes for a good leader.

[ fyi

but zuko seems to pause, considering something, before continuing ]

You can just ask questions; you don't have to fish around.

I thought the implication was obvious. You have to rule a country so you shouldn't shirk away from tedium. That's part of the process. [ He shakes his head, however. ]

But if you want me to ask a blunt question, then I'll ask the unrelated one that's been on my mind.

What is it, in full, that you know about me and my past actions?

[ sasuke he is not going to be court therapist when he is firelord okay take ur lectures elsewhere.

but at his prod, the question he had been expecting comes up, even though it's still unwanted. ]

All of it.

[ he seems to think that should be enough without going into the gross details of itachi murdering everyone and madara being a massive piece of shit ]

You can actually say that confidently without knowing where I've just come from, yet?

[ But he has to wonder if it's actually true, and how that makes him feel. Intruded upon, mostly. ]

Yeah, I can.

[ evenly. not confidently, exactly, or boastful. zuko mostly looks weary. sasuke's past sucks even more than his does, in his opinion. ]

You wouldn't have bothered talking to me for this long if you were still in the middle of it.

... I wouldn't bother talking to anyone. [ No, he'd be too busy trying to get back to it, to succeed in seeing his goals carried out. ]

But the war's ended now.

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[ zuko supposes that's true. ]

-- Good.

[ really, truly. war is terrible.

zuko pauses. ]

Mine is too.

[ he has to keep reminding himself that this sasuke doesn't know, but at least it takes some of the spotlight off of sasuke, and some of the pressure. and a quiet invitation that he can ask questions, too. ]

[ It's not a surprise to hear another commonality now after Zuko has stated others, really. ]

Who did you fight? [ After another one of those short pauses in which his thumb hovers over the button to disconnect. He's interested but it feels like too much at the same time. ]

[ he almost moves to be brutally honest (my family), but even zuko has the tact to realize that might be too much. and he considers it for a moment, settling back against the wall. ]

The old ruler of my nation.

[ my father. the murderer of his mother, probably. currently without his ability to firebend, in jail for the rest of his life. my sister. insane, unbalanced. chained, because she can't be trusted to be free. ]

He was tearing my world apart, and needed to be stopped. We succeeded.

[ but, before sasuke can ask another question, if he so chooses -- ]

I can tell you more after you're settled on a ship.

[ Sasuke immediately gives images to the words but the people he can envision that were tearing his world apart were his own relatives... and himself. The thought that Zuko apparently already knows that weighs him down and serves to do nothing much more than potentially deepen the dark circles under constantly over-stressed eyes.

He hates being at a disadvantage, and more than that he despises invasions of his private history. ]

Aa. None of it's changing now... It can wait.

It can wait.

[ in quiet agreement -- but sasuke seems to have gotten what was bothering him out of the way, and zuko has given him enough to think about. so he switches subjects. ]

While you're on the Marsiva, I'd take advantage of the food and facilities. You won't have something as nice again for awhile. Explore and stretch. The ships are a lot smaller than the main one.

[ what else, what else ]

You should be shuffled in two or three days, so you have a decent amount of time to look around. Enjoy the privacy while you still can.

[ while zuko loves his friends, the ships are confining. the marsiva is infinitely less claustrophobic. ]

I'm accustomed to being kept in a small place with unbearable people. [ He did live in various cavelike tunnel hideouts with Orochimaru and Kabuto for two and a half years, to say nothing of dealing with Karin and Suigetsu at any point. Juugo, the occasionally homicidal maniac, was the most tolerable one. ]

But I will. Already I feel too lazy just sitting here and doing nothing.

... not that you would understand that. [ l o l look he's developed a really terrible sense of humor. ]

[ well zuko doesn't think most of the people are unbearable, and he's about to open his mouth and say that -- ]

The people here aren't --

[ did uchiha sasuke just tell a joke ]

-- you're right, I wouldn't.

[ god this is such a weird week ]

I'm sure your new ship will be thrilled to have the fourteen course meal you'll make when you get there, though.

[ two can play at that game douchebag ]

[ If it doesn't involve mocking someone he hasn't mastered it yet. ]

Whatever I prepare will be more useful than going to your special room for counsel, right?

Just because you have an augment doesn't mean you're any good at what you're supposed to do, so don't hold your breath on being useful yet.

[ xo ]

And at least I get a special room.

[ this has devolved into a completely mature conversation ]

I've known how to cook for years. [ I was living alone at age eight, thanks for the memories, man, THANKS ]

If you don't know how, you're pathetic. Don't project the uselessness of your role onto me.

You can know how to do something but not excel at it.

[ firelord zuko is having supreme douche uchiha sasuke cook for him if it is the last thing he does tyvm ]

But I'll be waiting for you to prove me wrong. Your attitude isn't going to help your crew mates like you very much, so you may as well provide something.

[ ALSO HE WAS AN ARISTOCRAT SO FUCK YOU HE NEVER LEARNED HOW TO COOK except in ba sing se and adstring and now he can survive for the most part thanks ]

[ SASUKE WAS FROM A NOBLE FAMILY TOO they just all shuffled off the mortal coil too early. ]

How they feel about me won't make a large difference in the long run. Like I said, I don't plan to start fights. [ Though whether he plans for it or not clearly doesn't mean it won't happen. ] I'll do my job and I'll do it well. I don't half-ass projects that I set my mind to.

Then any ship would be happy to have you.

[ so long as you don't open your mouth ]

Mine is missing a cook, but you've already ticked off Allen.

[ apparently ]

He'll have to learn to live with his anger like the rest of us. [ It shouldn't just be us antagonists left with hoisting that burden, okay. ]

Or do you believe the impetus is on me to make him comfortable?

[ zuko would agree except his uncle raised him better than that ok ]

. . . If someone were that angry with me, I would want to know why. And I would want to fix it.

[ honestly. ]

But what I think isn't really what matters here.

[ it's what sasuke thinks, and what he wants to do. and judging from his first statement, zuko is pretty sure sasuke is clear on how he feels about it. ]

I've generally found people pretty forgiving, though.

[ ... they're hedging back into difficult territory so quickly but he refuses to look away. ]

I know why he's angry with me. He's close to Ino, after all, and my actions caused her and the rest of the village pain. All that I can do that will matter is to show through my actions that I've changed.

I'm not going to beg for approval or forgiveness, because I'm not seeking instant gratification. I expect a difficult road.

[ redemption is a difficult road. zuko is certain he'll be on it for the rest of his life -- and it is difficult territory, and zuko can feel the tension, but there's a mutual quiet understanding. even if sasuke doesn't know zuko's story, he knows that zuko knows his. and zuko understands, on a personal level, how difficult this can be.

zuko's friends forgave him, but it wasn't instant. he had to earn their trust, particularly katara's, in order to be accepted. but zuko has the even harder job of forgiving himself, and finding his own peace. he's gotten better at it, and he's grown to understand why he made the choices that he did, but it doesn't help erase the pain his family has caused, or zuko's part to play in that. ]

... it is difficult.

[ finally. sasuke is sharing, so zuko can share a little too. ]

Who knows if it ever ends, but moving forward is all that really matters. People see it, in the end.

{ he pauses. ]

It's the right answer, anyway.

[ what sasuke said. ]

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