driftfleet | (no subject)

Who: Obi-Wan Kenobi
Broadcast: Text
Action: Iskaulit
When: Jan 30th

A: TEXT

I think it's time I retire from teaching for a while.

I don't suppose anyone knows a decent way to pass the time?

B: ACTION

[ When Stefan announced the prayer room, a quiet place for meditation, Obi-Wan had been thrilled. While he enjoyed and cared for the Huntress, quiet is not something they are known for. After talking to Anakin, he knew he was in dire need of quiet and inner peace

He does not regret ( he can not regret )

And yet.

In a way he had envisioned as a child, it had always been Master and Padawan, together. Even when separate, they fought together, learned together, believed in each other. But Qui-Gon died all too soon, and for so long, Obi-Wan threw his hands up against tradition. When Yoda told him to be Anakin's master, he chose to be Anakin's friend. He did not caution against attachment, only warned where it might lead.

He breathes heavily, his legs folded on the mat. It's not working. The Force is still too quiet, too alien at this moment. It doesn't understand his sorrow.

Obi-Wan chuckles, opening his eyes and pushing his hair back. It should be used to that by now.

Looking down at his hands, he's quiet when he speaks. ]

Please help me.

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

Strife is both bitter and dangerous. Jedi function as peace-keepers, as cool heads where none may prevail. To make sure the galaxy is in balance.

That sounds like a great responsibility. Why do you feel you may have failed in your endeavors?

My students are following a different path. While I do not begrudge them of that, I wonder if perhaps I wasn't very circumspect in my teachings.

And perhaps, I might have missed something I should have taught or said. Something I should have done.

[ He pauses before firing off another message. ]

I'm not accustomed to doubts that linger.

I understand well. Doubt is an adversary. It's a hindrance; it muddles the mind and stunts happiness. It causes progress to hesitate.

Because of this, I feel it's important to believe wholly in your actions. It's unavoidable to make mistakes throughout the course of your life. Instead of idling with them, you must persevere onto the course of your future. Because it must happen that you will make a mistake, once you have made it, you resolve not to make another. You move beyond what you have done, and instead rejoice in what you will do.

What I'm saying is that there is always hope for improvement. I think it's sad to stop doing something just because you don't think you're good at it.

I doubt I could fully stop even if I wanted to.

I simply need some . . . time, I suppose. To reflect. To see if I am ready to change. Or even whether I can.

I've always had hope. And I will continue to do so.

I'm simply . . . meandering a little.

That's reasonable. I think it's probably natural to have a static period. Just don't let it consume you.

[He doesn't mean to be bossy, or even a know-it-all, but he's used to dispensing philosophy for life.]

When you're resigned, your joy will cease. That's what I've found to be true.

If I knew how to, maybe I would resign.

As it stands, it's not an option for me.

[ But Obi-Wan doesn't know how to quit or surrender. He may stumble, get sad, feel lost. But he has never truly stopped what he was doing. ]

Yeah. It's not an option for me, either.

I think that being a teacher is a valuable undertaking. And being a student sounds difficult. Each of you must have had struggles.

There have certainly been plenty of struggles along the way.

But those struggles are important to me. . . As it must be for them.

Yes. A struggle leads to growth. I'm happy for you.

Thank you. I'm glad someone is.

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