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driftfleet2016-03-20 11:18 am
reconstitution) wrote in driftfleet2016-03-20 11:18 am
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Who: Winter & You
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: The Iskaulit
When: 3/20
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How does everyone deal with loss? How much of an impact is it meant to have?
Similar. Unrelated. Is anyone familiar with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? I would like to know more.
[ Action >> Iskaulit ]
[ If you happen to be on the Iskaulit at any time in the wee hours of the morning, between two and six, you may run into Winter utilizing the gym. There aren't really posted hours, and that's usually when no one else is around.
The poor sandbags that he helped Jim hang all those months ago are getting a beating. Winter's focus is zeroed in on the same worn spot, but apparently something gives. Winter reels his left arm back, a high metallic whine the only warning before he lands a blow. It's enough force that not only does it knock the sandbag from its hook, but it goes flying across the room like it's nothing.
Emotional? Who's emotional? Nobody here. Mind your business! ]
[ Action >> Heron ]
[ Winter may have been restless before, but without Jim, this is something new entirely. Crew have been coming and going regularly over the past few months, but this is different. The Atroma decided that he should be captain? Over someone who would probably be more capable at it. He sees what you did there. You just couldn't pass up the chance to not have to change names in the roster, huh?
He's trying to wrap his head around it. Sure, he led teams on missions as the Winter Soldier, but that was different. He wasn't really calling the shots. Being Captain is new and scary and leaves room for so much to go wrong.
If anyone wants to bother him, or happens to be visiting, he is more than likely roaming the halls trying to burn off the nervous energy. He's comfortable with the ship, but now he wants to know it inside and out.As if he hadn't already done that. Honestly, he is distraught without Jim and doesn't know how to handle it. It's not as if he can talk to Natasha about it, either. Or Steve.
The message is more than clear- don't get attached. ]
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: The Iskaulit
When: 3/20
[ Text ]
How does everyone deal with loss? How much of an impact is it meant to have?
Similar. Unrelated. Is anyone familiar with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? I would like to know more.
[ Action >> Iskaulit ]
[ If you happen to be on the Iskaulit at any time in the wee hours of the morning, between two and six, you may run into Winter utilizing the gym. There aren't really posted hours, and that's usually when no one else is around.
The poor sandbags that he helped Jim hang all those months ago are getting a beating. Winter's focus is zeroed in on the same worn spot, but apparently something gives. Winter reels his left arm back, a high metallic whine the only warning before he lands a blow. It's enough force that not only does it knock the sandbag from its hook, but it goes flying across the room like it's nothing.
Emotional? Who's emotional? Nobody here. Mind your business! ]
[ Action >> Heron ]
[ Winter may have been restless before, but without Jim, this is something new entirely. Crew have been coming and going regularly over the past few months, but this is different. The Atroma decided that he should be captain? Over someone who would probably be more capable at it. He sees what you did there. You just couldn't pass up the chance to not have to change names in the roster, huh?
He's trying to wrap his head around it. Sure, he led teams on missions as the Winter Soldier, but that was different. He wasn't really calling the shots. Being Captain is new and scary and leaves room for so much to go wrong.
If anyone wants to bother him, or happens to be visiting, he is more than likely roaming the halls trying to burn off the nervous energy. He's comfortable with the ship, but now he wants to know it inside and out.
The message is more than clear- don't get attached. ]
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She'd be visiting Jim. ]
What are you doing here?
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Lookin' for you. I saw your post. What's goin' on?
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Didn't know who to talk to. I'll refrain from it in the future if it bothers you.
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That's awful sweet of ya ta offer. [And it was, and she meant it, although she also meant 'backwards' and 'broken' and 'if anyone ever actually tells you something like that, you should tell them to fuck right off with a chainsaw' and her entire expression softens, crumbles slightly inward.] But I think ya did just right, an' I think you've got the right ta talk to anyone anyway ya want to. I just came by... ta see if ya wanted ta talk to me. Just visited instead of responded on the communicator, that's all.
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She's concerned. He supposes she has a right to be with Jim gone. They were close. ]
Oh. [ He looks around the area, shifting in place. ] I didn't think it would be this hard.
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Would ya like to walk an' talk?
[Movement, she knows from experience, helps. She doesn't know if it will help Winter in the same way it helps others, but it might.]
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What did you want to talk about?
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Wanted ta find out what's goin' on [she glances over and up at him]. What's 'hard'?
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Missing someone. Taking their place.
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Who's gone home?
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She pales, catching her breath.]
--when?
[It never felt any different. It didn't matter how many times, it always felt like a knife of ice driven on a 45 degree angle through her 4th and 5th ribs.]
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[ He never thought that it would be him. Either of them, really. It was a foolish notion, apparently. ]
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Oh hell.
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[Useless words, but sometimes motives matter. She raises her head back to meet Winter's gaze. The color of her eyes has shifted with her emotion (anger, loss) to be more gray than green, the color of a hurricane. (She wished she was caught in a hurricane, that is easier to deal with. All you have to do is live or die.)]
I'll tell ya the truth: It never gets any easier. That doesn't make it any less worth it.
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[ It's never hit so close to home before, so he's floundering trying to make heads or tails of everything. Becoming captain happened like some smooth transitioning punch to the gut. Winter doesn't know if he's capable of being a leader. Especially an effective one. He lack's Jim's charisma. ]
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[Just to have someone to listen.]
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[ It's a small admission, but he feels safe enough around Rogue to speak his mind. ]
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[ Maybe. Eventually.. ]
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After a moment, she lit upon a corner of it.]
It ain't a sickness. It's a burden.
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Okay.
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