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[reconstitution]

Who: Winter & You
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: The Iskaulit
When: 3/20

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How does everyone deal with loss? How much of an impact is it meant to have?

Similar. Unrelated. Is anyone familiar with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? I would like to know more.

[ Action >> Iskaulit ]

[ If you happen to be on the Iskaulit at any time in the wee hours of the morning, between two and six, you may run into Winter utilizing the gym. There aren't really posted hours, and that's usually when no one else is around.

The poor sandbags that he helped Jim hang all those months ago are getting a beating. Winter's focus is zeroed in on the same worn spot, but apparently something gives. Winter reels his left arm back, a high metallic whine the only warning before he lands a blow. It's enough force that not only does it knock the sandbag from its hook, but it goes flying across the room like it's nothing.

Emotional? Who's emotional? Nobody here. Mind your business! ]

[ Action >> Heron ]

[ Winter may have been restless before, but without Jim, this is something new entirely. Crew have been coming and going regularly over the past few months, but this is different. The Atroma decided that he should be captain? Over someone who would probably be more capable at it. He sees what you did there. You just couldn't pass up the chance to not have to change names in the roster, huh?

He's trying to wrap his head around it. Sure, he led teams on missions as the Winter Soldier, but that was different. He wasn't really calling the shots. Being Captain is new and scary and leaves room for so much to go wrong.

If anyone wants to bother him, or happens to be visiting, he is more than likely roaming the halls trying to burn off the nervous energy. He's comfortable with the ship, but now he wants to know it inside and out. As if he hadn't already done that. Honestly, he is distraught without Jim and doesn't know how to handle it. It's not as if he can talk to Natasha about it, either. Or Steve.

The message is more than clear- don't get attached. ]

Comments

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[ Unfortunately, there are only a few people with that ability, and all but one of them are gone now. The timing is just off, it's okay. ]

It's best that way.

[ He knows how it looks, he's not stupid. The people who were responsible for keeping him in check aren't in the picture anymore. He's a time bomb. Winter stops when she mentions both Jim and Natasha. The tightness in his chest squeezes just a little bit more. ]

If you have a point, make it.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[Wanda takes a moment to consider her words. The time it takes lasts long enough to likely grate on Winter's patience, as she appears to be considering what she is about to say very carefully. Finally, she manages to get it out.]

For how I have treated you. I- I should not have been so distant, but-

[She stops herself, appears to reconsider.]

I am sorry.

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Knowing what you do, it's understandable.

[ She's seen what he's capable of, his ties to HYDRA. He doesn't fault her for it. The apology throws him off, though. It's still a weird thing, being apologized to. Winter shakes his head. ]

It's okay.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[Wanda smiles softly, Winter's response is enough for her to know that her apology has not landed on deaf ears.]

If you ever want to talk, about... our mutual past... or anything really, you may contact me.

[She doesn't know if he ever would or will, but she figures that at least offering might, in some small way, make up for the absence that Natasha and James Barnes left behind.]

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I think you know enough about my past. [ The Calibration saw to that much. He's not angry at her for it. ]

[ Winter stays silent, thinking about her offer. With the three he talked to most gone, his numbers are limited. ]

..Alright.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[She gives a small nod of her head, acknowledging his point.]

Fair is fair. If you wish to know more about my past... I will answer some of your questions.

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I will let you know.

[notmutantbutmiracle]

[She gives a small smile, nodding her head once more. Feeling as though she's said all that need be said, she turns to leave. She stops to pick up the flower, laying on the ground where she left it, before exiting the room.]