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driftfleet2016-03-20 11:18 am
reconstitution) wrote in driftfleet2016-03-20 11:18 am
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Who: Winter & You
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: The Iskaulit
When: 3/20
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How does everyone deal with loss? How much of an impact is it meant to have?
Similar. Unrelated. Is anyone familiar with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? I would like to know more.
[ Action >> Iskaulit ]
[ If you happen to be on the Iskaulit at any time in the wee hours of the morning, between two and six, you may run into Winter utilizing the gym. There aren't really posted hours, and that's usually when no one else is around.
The poor sandbags that he helped Jim hang all those months ago are getting a beating. Winter's focus is zeroed in on the same worn spot, but apparently something gives. Winter reels his left arm back, a high metallic whine the only warning before he lands a blow. It's enough force that not only does it knock the sandbag from its hook, but it goes flying across the room like it's nothing.
Emotional? Who's emotional? Nobody here. Mind your business! ]
[ Action >> Heron ]
[ Winter may have been restless before, but without Jim, this is something new entirely. Crew have been coming and going regularly over the past few months, but this is different. The Atroma decided that he should be captain? Over someone who would probably be more capable at it. He sees what you did there. You just couldn't pass up the chance to not have to change names in the roster, huh?
He's trying to wrap his head around it. Sure, he led teams on missions as the Winter Soldier, but that was different. He wasn't really calling the shots. Being Captain is new and scary and leaves room for so much to go wrong.
If anyone wants to bother him, or happens to be visiting, he is more than likely roaming the halls trying to burn off the nervous energy. He's comfortable with the ship, but now he wants to know it inside and out.As if he hadn't already done that. Honestly, he is distraught without Jim and doesn't know how to handle it. It's not as if he can talk to Natasha about it, either. Or Steve.
The message is more than clear- don't get attached. ]
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: The Iskaulit
When: 3/20
[ Text ]
How does everyone deal with loss? How much of an impact is it meant to have?
Similar. Unrelated. Is anyone familiar with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder? I would like to know more.
[ Action >> Iskaulit ]
[ If you happen to be on the Iskaulit at any time in the wee hours of the morning, between two and six, you may run into Winter utilizing the gym. There aren't really posted hours, and that's usually when no one else is around.
The poor sandbags that he helped Jim hang all those months ago are getting a beating. Winter's focus is zeroed in on the same worn spot, but apparently something gives. Winter reels his left arm back, a high metallic whine the only warning before he lands a blow. It's enough force that not only does it knock the sandbag from its hook, but it goes flying across the room like it's nothing.
Emotional? Who's emotional? Nobody here. Mind your business! ]
[ Action >> Heron ]
[ Winter may have been restless before, but without Jim, this is something new entirely. Crew have been coming and going regularly over the past few months, but this is different. The Atroma decided that he should be captain? Over someone who would probably be more capable at it. He sees what you did there. You just couldn't pass up the chance to not have to change names in the roster, huh?
He's trying to wrap his head around it. Sure, he led teams on missions as the Winter Soldier, but that was different. He wasn't really calling the shots. Being Captain is new and scary and leaves room for so much to go wrong.
If anyone wants to bother him, or happens to be visiting, he is more than likely roaming the halls trying to burn off the nervous energy. He's comfortable with the ship, but now he wants to know it inside and out.
The message is more than clear- don't get attached. ]
action.
[ He doesn't really feel inclined to explain why right now. ]
action.
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[ Mostly, he's reluctant to let it go for that reason alone. It's what makes him something in between Bucky Barnes and the Winter Soldier. ]
action.
[He seems to be considering that very intently, at any rate.]
I never got to pick my name... But I guess I still like it, even if my mom gave me it...
action.
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[He moves to sit down on the edge of a work-out bench, looking down at his feet.
A thoughtful silence washes over him for a moment, and he furrows his brow.]
Maybe that was when she still liked me...
Before things got real bad and she didn't care anymore.
action.
She stopped caring? [ What the fuck kind of parent-- ]
action. cw for talk of child neglect/abuse JUST. IN. CAAASE....
He nods, looking back down. Kicking his feet slowly where they hung.]
Mmhmmm. After my real dad died. She got bad. She didn't want to do anything, and she got a boyfriend who didn't like me — and then she'd just sleep and smoked the bad stuff. [He mimics a cigarette clumsily.] And she sleeped a lot, all the time when it was sunny outside.
She stopped talking to me so I'd... go play outside... I had action figures... So it wasn't very bad.
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That's not how any of it works, though.
What does he even say to that? All that on this kid's shoulders is overwhelming. ]
I'm sorry. Things can be better here. Make you forget about home for a while.
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It's okay... It was real bad, but it wasn't forever!
Whenever I get sad or things are scary or hurts, I just remember that it's never forever, and then I feel better. All the bad things go away because the good stuff fights it. Like when the super sentai fights the monsters!
That's what the bad feelings are like.
[He knows it doesn't go away, but it can still get better!
After all, he found Kaze, and then he found Heather and Netherlands... So even though he misses them and it hurts his stomach and makes his eyes burn when he thinks about them sometimes, it's okay, because he got to be happy, too.]
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[ You know, for a seven year old. He doesn't get what the super sentai are, but they fight monsters, so that's easy enough to understand. ]
Are you finding good things here, then? [ Because even if everything is temporary and things can end in a moment, if there's nothing good, then it not being forever doesn't matter. It feels like it with no real end in sight. ]
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[He nods very sagely, looking pleased.]
I just made friends with a fighter guy with a cool metal arm! I think that's good.
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[ It's still bizarre to him how easy it is making friends. He's still expecting there to be some sort of test for it. ]
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You know, my dad's kinda like you! He's real tough and he fights.
I learned some stuff from him!
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...
But m'not very strong like I am right now...