it's not our fault it's an april mingle

[ladybro]

Who: S.S. Blameless
Broadcast: N/A
Action: Yes, for crew-mates and any visitors!
When: Month of April

[ aww mingle, no. ]

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[passingthrough]

[She nods, looking away for a moment. She doesn't like the suspicion and caution she feels when these things come up. She knows it isn't fair to him, but trust is hard enough for her with no obstacles in the way. After all, she trusted Piotr more than anyone and he... Well, there's a reason she's dead back home.]

Yeah, that would be a good thing for him to have. I know some people with engineering augments too who would be willing to help I'm sure. Winn, Vision, Kirk. [Maybe she just collects engineers.]

[beathach]

[he watches her, then finds himself speaking up. As bad at it as he is sometimes, Hank has always been defensive. Not overly so, but . . . in this case, it's a little more warranted. And he wants to put her at ease] The last thing I really built that wasn't - uh, a necessary rush job was the set-up in my office. I had it so it could monitor all the main television channels and record what came through. [he smiles a little, poking fun at himself] I might hide from the world, but I try to keep up on what's happening.

[he files away those names with a nod of thanks] Winn is - Kara's friend, right? [there's nothing wrong with collecting engineers though] Thank you, I'll keep them in mind.

[passingthrough]

[She might not be able to show it yet, but she does appreciate how hard he's trying when this is really just her problem. Sure, there is a suspicious part of her saying that could be a ploy on his part, but she doesn't really think so.] It sounds useful. Should be a little easier here with the network. [She watches it pretty intently herself.]

He is. They're from the same world. It sounds like you and Kara really hit it off.

[beathach]

It's already easier. I don't need to set up a bunch of television monitors to know what's going on. [and he's incredibly glad for that, because his office was a mess.

He lifts a hand to rub the back of his neck, a little awkwardly] Mm, we did. She's - very nice. We spent a while talking when I first arrived.

[passingthrough]

She is. And she was very quick to defend you when I reacted terribly and childishly to her suggesting you help Winn and I out.

[beathach]

[oh my god Kara]

That seems to be going around . . . [everyone defending him. He winces a little] Sorry.

[passingthrough]

I'm pretty sure that's supposed to be my line.

You didn't do anything wrong, remember?

[beathach]

[he purses his lips]

I know. I have a habit of apologizing for things that aren't my fault. Not - exactly. [he briefly smiles]

[passingthrough]

For the record... You don't seem like him at all really.

Not that he and I ever hung out in his lab and chatted, but just another reason to seem different I guess.

[beathach]

Mm . . . I'm glad for that.

[he considers something for a moment] My . . . original future, not - whatever's coming now. I didn't survive. But I know . . . I didn't become like that then, either. Logan would have said something.

[passingthrough]

I'm sorry.

About the lack of surviving, not the part where you don't become evil. Not that it's still coming. Well, okay, it is, but only in that because we're mortal kind of way.

[beathach]

[he quirks something of a smile]

Only because of that, mm. And it's - fine, it isn't going to happen anymore, so I don't worry about it.

[passingthrough]

Fair enough. It's a good thing not to think about. Especially if you don't have much control over it.

[beathach]

Well . . . admittedly it helped having amnesia for a long time, too. You can't worry about something if you don't know it happened in the first place.

[passingthrough]

It sounds almost peaceful put that way. [There had been some low moments in the prison when she just wanted to forget it all. Fortunately not something she ever set in motion.]

...Not to minimize it. [Erik had spoken of it some and it's nothing a person should be forced to go through.]

[beathach]

You're not. [he runs a hand through his hair, lips twisting] I wish I could say it was peaceful, though. Memories didn't come back in order, and - even with three of us there, it was a constant guessing game.

[passingthrough]

Yeah, it kind of ruins it if they're just going to come back. I've met a couple of people here who can't remember back beyond a certain point.

[beathach]

At all? [were they from a similar place like Kyriakos?] That . . . seems unpleasant.

[passingthrough]

One of them seems very secure in just being who he is now. I'm not sure exactly how Sascha feels. [Other than extremely lonely, but that's not necessarily related?]

[beathach]

Ah - that's good, at least. As difficult as it seems.

[passingthrough]

Yeah, probably a healthy way of handling it. I would think I'd be kind of obsessed with learning the truth and afraid of it too. Then again, maybe without the memories I'd be completely different and do none of those things.

...Were you very different?

[beathach]

Different? [he crosses his arms as he considers, before he shakes his head] Not . . . very, no. I mean, I was more - relaxed? But only because I didn't have the memories as to why I was more - uptight, I guess. Paranoid.

But I was terrified of my memories sometimes. Especially after I remembered this happening - [he gestures to himself] - without any of the context behind it. I knew I'd remember some . . . pretty bad things, and even knowing the end result, since Charles and Erik had told me some of it, I was still afraid of it.

Honestly, though . . . I'm more different now, having gone through all that.

[passingthrough]

I know I can pass for human and probably have no place to say this and should stop here, but... It's not a bad look. [It does remind her more of the Dark Beast than he did before so that isn't great, but that's her problem and not his.] I mean, you get to feel however you feel, but I think you'd be accepted here. I hope so. [After all Kurt is walking around with a similar look. Both of them.]

[beathach]

That's what I'm told. [he says it lightly; that's all he's ever heard, here and in Kyriakos, at least so far. It's still so strange to him] And I hope so, too.

[Hank gestures behind her, to the door that's still open] The old me would've locked that door and wouldn't have opened it for anyone but Charles. Maybe Erik, if we didn't start arguing first.

[passingthrough]

Locked doors mean very little to me, but I see your point. Is it getting old? Being told you're accepted for who you are?