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[ It takes her a little moment, a handful of seconds, really, to figure out who exactly is being given to her when the otter is passed into her arms, but seeing as Hank and Erik are to one side and there's no way Erik would be here in this condition without Charles... Well, there's another thing she didn't know. There's no point dwelling on it for now, though, even if it makes her heart stab with a little ache, and all Raven does is take the otter into her arms, shifting her clothes into something softer before she goes and sits down, brother in arms. ]

I thought it was your job to take care of me, Charles.

[ Crossing her legs under her, she cradles him against her body before she breathes out, trying not to let on just how afraid she is. Broken ribs, hiding as an otter, some terrifying message about her family getting hurt... It's not right. ]

[ He huffs, shaking. As an otter, a lot of the effects are a little muted but still extreme. Taking this form doesn't limit the pain, only makes it easier to escape. And Winter's screams are still shuffling around in his head, making it jarring and difficult to concentrate. ]

I've always been bad at that job.

Not as bad as I made you think.

[ He might have smothered her a little sometimes, but he still took care of her. He gave her a home and a life and saved her from what could have ended up being death - and she was thankful for that, even if she never really showed her appreciation. Even now she knows her brother and she's careful, letting her fingers brush over his head gently. ]

Focus on me now, okay? Just me. I'm right here.

[ Charles doesn't move, just lying there for now. His breath comes in short puffs. Talking was difficult. ]

Okay.

You can - my mind, if you want.

[ She's still not as comfortable as she's sure he would like, but -- ]

If your telepathy works right now. I've never really seen an otter telepath before.

[ He stops himself from shaking his head, just barely. ]

It . . . doesn't work in this form. And I couldn't. I looked too deep into someone's mind. It was . . . painful.

Charles.

[ It comes out as a gentle sigh, her arms lifting to hold him a little closer. She wants to do something more but she doesn't know what, and it makes her hurt a little bit. She can't help him and she doesn't really know how to fix ribs on an otter or help bandage or -

She closes her eyes, leaning down gently. ]

Honestly, Charles...

[ He watches her with his large black eyes. ]

It's . . . all right. Just let me lie down.

With me, or alone?

[ She shifts, grabbing one of the pillows and moving to adjust it, stroking her hand over Charles' head again before she places him down. She can settle down at his side, face to face, but only if he's ready for it. ]

[ With that, once he's placed on the table, Charles switches back. He winces as the pain rushes back. Breathing heavily, he carefully makes sure his arms are nowhere near his sides. He couldn't afford to touch his stomach right now. Fresh bruises can be seen on his face and arms. ]

Charles -

[ She doesn't move for fear of jostling him, but she reaches out with her hand and touches his hair gently, stroking her fingers over him. She wants to cry but she doesn't - Raven is a master at keeping herself strong now, and not giving into her own emotions, because she had to when she was chasing down mutants and learning their fates.

Instead, she draws her Hank back and watches him. ]

I know where the painkillers are, if you need them now.

[ He nods. Winter's memories have threaded themselves with the physical pain and if Charles wasn't already experienced with this kind of absorption, he wouldn't be very coherent right now. Instead, he slowly pushes the memories back and anchors himself with the people in the room. ]

Painkillers would help. [ A little wry humour. ] He kicks pretty hard.

It's a good thing I used to live here, isn't it?

[ Raven is careful as she moves up, going around the lab and around Hank and Erik to gather the things she needs - painkillers and a few small icepacks, another couple of pillows that she places for Charles to tell her what to do with. It's then that she moves back, offering the medicine and waiting for him to guide her into helping him a little more.

She makes sure that, alongside all of this, her mind is deliberately a little bit more open than usual so he can anchor himself to her if his telepathy relaxes and calms. ]

[ Charles guides her hands into putting the icepacks on his stomach. Once he rolls up his shirt, his sides are mottled with purple bruises. After that's done, he sighs and takes the painkillers. They will ease some of the symptoms, but painkillers do very little for the kind of headaches Charles gets from a deep meld. ]

You don't have to do that if you're not comfortable. My mind can't do much like this anyway.

[ He just needs the steady hum, of Hank, of Erik, of Raven. It was like a security blanket. He couldn't manage anything else, not even a telepathic thought, not when his head ached of forgotten memories in a cold cell at Russia. ]

[ Raven shakes her head, moving carefully to settle down beside Charles. She resists the urge to reach out for him and touch him, hesitating before she breathes out and draws her hand back, settling herself down. She doesn't want to put herself in the position of accidentally hurting him, and she's content to wait until the painkillers and icepacks start their work. ]

It's not that I'm uncomfortable. I'm not used to it, Charles, it's been ten years. [ And she remembers how she had reacted to him at the airport and in Washington and she wonders if he realises that it was because he was ordering her, not because he was using his mutation. ] But I want to be used to it. I'm not the little girl I used to be, scared of it and you digging into something. I trust you.

[ And there's no hesitation there. She does trust him. ]

[ He reaches out to hold her hand. If it shakes, he doesn't say anything to that effect. ]

I can't anyway. Not yet. I went deep -- too deep.

[ That poor man. Even now, while Charles is hurt, he's worried for Winter. Worried for what the consequences will be. He could have helped him, if he wasn't so weak, so unused to his powers. Before, this kind of ability would have been easy, quick. He wasn't prepared. ]

Then we can do it later.

[ Raven takes his hand, squeezing it gently - and then she moves. Leaning down, she shifts to settle down at his side, letting their hands slip into something a little more comfortable. She knows there's more to this, but she can't do anything to help him right now. His mind is too hurt, and his telepathy is too vulnerable.

Instead, she deflects. ]

Do you remember the time we made blanket forts? We were teens, but we wanted to mess around.

[ Charles' expression is unfocused before it clears up. ]

We made a mess of the living room. Mother was out of town so we had free reign everywhere.

[ It was the small freedoms that mattered. The servants were out of sight so they could indulge in their fantasies. Sheets were thrown over chairs and tables while Charles prattled on about their blanket kingdom.

He smiles. ]

You were the king and I was the queen.

[ They had made a massive castle out of blankets and pillows and found some snacks to hide in the middle. She can remember laying down with Charles as he prattled on and on about his imaginary kingdom and his subjects while she just stared. She'd been there for a long time by then, but it was the first time she'd really felt like she was safe and, maybe, home.

It's easy to breathe out a little noise, to smile and watch her brother gently. Things are still difficult, but they have this. ]

I think I wanted you to wear the dress though.

I don't think I have the legs for it.

[ He shifts, trying to get comfortable and an pained hiss escapes his lips. He stops trying. ]

I made all the rules, didn't I?

You have the hair for it.

[ Raven reaches out, gently, and begins to move and adjust pillows. Her bedside manner might need some work, but she knows how to do this - and she's careful, not wanting to jostle or hurt him too much. ]

Most of your rules were very sensible. That's why I hated them.

Too sensible for my own good.

[ He flashes her a grateful smile. ] I'm surprised you haven't asked about the otter.

Just a little bit. But that's what I was there for.

[ She moves, shifting so that her back is against the wall beside him, more so she can see him than anything else. ]

I figured if you wanted me to know you'd tell me eventually.

Raven, I want you to know everything. I sincerely do, but I don't want it to come from me dismissing your problems with my own experiences.

[ He breaks off, looking at the ceiling. ] There was a game in the library long ago. Each of the teams were pitted against the others and the deal was to convince our . . . benevolent overlords that we deserved to live. Their minds . . . were black and sickening.

So one person from each team went up to make their cast. I went up to defend my team.

[ He stops. ] I went up to make our case. And I did so, knowing I was condemning other people to die. And they did die. Painfully. Slowly.

And this form was given to me as a gift. For winning.

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[ The first sentence is enough to make something inside of her shatter. Isn't that exactly what she had said to Erik? That she wanted to learn about Charles, but the only time she ever got the opportunity was when he was trying to empathise with her, but it just ended up feeling like a competition? The fact that he knows and understands it means something to her, especially after years of thinking that he was ignorant and blind to what she was feeling. ]

It's not much of a victory, is it.

[ Slowly, Raven lies down and she settles, careful not to nudge or push Charles too much. She needs to be close to him right now, and this - what she's going to talk about - isn't easy for her. Instead, she reaches out and brushes her fingers against his face, her thumb pressing into his eyebrow gently before she draws her hand back. ]

I went and talked to Erik. About this, the library and all the things that you've been through that I don't understand. I don't know details because I didn't want them, not from him, but... I know what I need to do, Charles. I know that if I want to understand, that if I want to come to terms with all these things I'm ignorant to then I'm going to have to ask and I'm going to have to listen. They're not really my strengths anymore, but I'm going to try.

[ Shifting, she touches her forehead to his shoulder, eyes closing. ]

I've been alone for a long time. I think I've forgotten how to be around the people I love.