driftfleet | 04

Who: Winn and you!
Broadcast: y!
Action: on the Tourist!
When: August 2nd

[ some of you may have noticed that winn has been uncharacteristically quiet for the past...16 days. he's not really sure how to address the elephant in the room - he knows these two weeks and change have been hard on the people he loves but for him it's like no time has passed and the dissonance is hard to bridge.

it's a good thing he has a not at all unhealthy coping mechanism set in place. ]

You know, if we're entertainment on a reality show, the least they can do is give us like a recap - you know your basic [ in a tv announcer impression ] here's what you missed on the Fleet - or - last week, on the young and the Drifting - [ he rubs the back of his head before shaking it ] Well, maybe talking about the 'least they can do' isn't such a great plan...first order of business - what'd I miss? Second order of business - if you or anyone you know has ever fallen into an unexplained sleep here or at any other kidnappy world - I'd appreciate it if you'd answer a couple questions, they're a text attachment at the bottom. Sorry if it's been done before, I'll gladly take a link to any previous research as well as fresh data. Third order of business -- hi. [ he gives the camera a little wave and a nervous chuckle ] Um. Yeah, I'm, I'm fine, I should've opened with that but if you know me the order isn't really gonna surprise you that much and if you don't you're probably really confused right now and looking for the off button - it's to your right, right on top, there you go.

That's it, I guess....good morning, Drifters - don't forget to drink your coffee! Winn out -

[ except he's not all the way out. hank and cisco each get the following message to their personal numbers ]

I need to discuss something in person. My place? [ he can't really leave kitty yet ]

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That might be better than having them sit on the bed now anyway.

True.

[ he laughs and kisses her forehead ]

I love you.

[She smiles fondly at that. The forehead kisses always feel like they have extra affection in them.]

Love you more.

[ there is always extra affection for kitty. ]

Not possible.

Tied? [Soft kiss.]

Tied has a nice ring to it.

[ and since he's gotten to feel her love on the planet, he can believe it, too, though it already feels like a distant dream. ]

It does. [Nuzzling.] While you were gone I realized I love you even more than I thought I loved you which was already a lot. Just don't use that as an excuse to disappear again.

Did you?

[ he smiles, stroking her arm. ]

So what you're saying is you love me most when I'm seen and not heard?

[ how else can he deal with it if not by joking? ]

Heeeey. Don't you dare take it as a negative. [Nips his jaw. She figures he's just being playful. He better be!]

[ he's absolutely being playful, the fact that he's just complimented his looks is a huge tell.

he laughs, and humms his content at that nipping. ]

So, any other epiphanies?

Um, [for a second she thinks of telling him something she and Tyrion discussed before shaking her head.] I can make an alarming amount of money when I want to distract myself? Windrose is really well stocked on food.

Doesn't matter how well stocked we are, it's still gonna run out too fast.

[ he shakes his head ]

Did you do anything but work?

[ yeah that's concern she's hearing and no he doesn't care it's hypocritical but thanks for asking. ]

True. Maybe the next stop will be even better for food.

[She runs her fingers through his hair.] No. I spent a few days with you. [Is that less or more concerning?]

[ he's not sure. ]

Did I mention I'm sorry yet?

[ he really is. it's not going to keep him from possibly putting it through this again if his theory is correct and his continued poking evokes more anger - but he is sorry. ]

I know. I also know it's not your fault. [She kisses him softly.]

You know if...something happens...I want you to be happy.

[ it breaks his heart having to say it, he hates having to say it, and the way he holds her a little tighter, the way everything about him tightens betrays it. he doesn't want to think of them failing - but it's a possibility, a very real possibility. and if it happens, he knows she's strong - she'll survive it - but if he can make it a little bit easier on her by braving this talk, he should. ]

I know. [She says it again and her voice breaks. She holds him tighter.] I want that for you too.

...As much as I worry about you coming back with memories of someone else I do want you to be happy. There or here.

I am happy.

[ he kisses the top of her head. he can't imagine moving on from kitty, doesn't want to imagine it. ]

So am I. [She burrows against him.] You know what I mean. [If she's gone. The same way he meant it. She knows she's bad at being alone. That she would move on eventually if he was gone, but she doesn't want to think about that.]

[ he knows. but he's not her - he can't imagine anyone else ever loving him like kitty does. it took him almost 30 years to find one person who saw past his faults to virtues even he can't see, to expect it to happen twice feels idiotic.

I'll find you is what he wants to say - but he can't. not only is that an impossible promise to guarantee - but it will negate the very purpose of this conversation, put a burden of guilt on her if he's the one to go that he doesn't want for her (well - selfishly he does, he wants her to fight for him, to go find him). so instead, he just keeps stroking her arm. ]

You know what's great though? We're together. [She kisses his cheek.]

Mmhm...that really is great.

[ he smiles ]

I'll make an optimist out of you yet.

How are you going to do that, handsome?

I'm already doing it.

Sneaky. [Kissing.]

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