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driftfleet2016-09-03 11:21 am
killedwithlove) wrote in driftfleet2016-09-03 11:21 am
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Who: Cole to everyone
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Pathstone
When: Now
[Cole is actually looking at the camera, which is a minor miracle for those familiar with his habit of leaving his communicator next to him and pointing at the ceiling.]
How do mortals know what you're feeling? Varric used to tell me what it was, or Jove, or Solas, but they're gone and now I don't know what these feelings are. I can tell how to help other people and how to navigate their hurts but I can't do it with my own.
[He gives a small sigh and looks off somewhere. A fluff slug climbs over the communicator screen.]
Broadcast: Fleetwide
Action: Pathstone
When: Now
[Cole is actually looking at the camera, which is a minor miracle for those familiar with his habit of leaving his communicator next to him and pointing at the ceiling.]
How do mortals know what you're feeling? Varric used to tell me what it was, or Jove, or Solas, but they're gone and now I don't know what these feelings are. I can tell how to help other people and how to navigate their hurts but I can't do it with my own.
[He gives a small sigh and looks off somewhere. A fluff slug climbs over the communicator screen.]
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If Old Nan would still live he could've trumped her stories with even more fantastic ones.]
How does a person become a...feeling? You do not know happiness? Or anger? [It would make sense. Not?] Mortality is a different thing, ser...
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A feeling who became a mortal. Or like one. Gained shape, form, face, facets.
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Did someone put a spell on you? I know magic is common here...everyone treats it as if it is something simple like the weather.
[A sneeze followed by a long pause... This truly hurts his head. If a person would be a feeling how could they truly be a person. Because a person felt more than just one feeling.]
It sounds troubling. [To say the least.]
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There was a boy, called Cole. He was dying. Alone and slowly and he was scared and he needed someone. Anyone. So... I came to him. I had to be more, because he needed me to be more.
Compassion understood Cole. And when Cole died, became Cole.
It was frightening and confusing, but I've learned about being a person more. And now, Solas said I would feel more and more things, but he's not here to help me understand what they are.
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And of course he wonders how a feeling called compassion could take over a human body and bring life to that. Robb never likes it there is something he cannot explain. Like magic.]
You gave life to a dead boy...? [It is only half a question.] And now you feel different things than what you are... [A pause as he tries to understand this a little while suppressing his wariness.]
What is it that happened that made you feel different? Than compassionate...?
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[Cole seems horrified at that idea.]
No, this is my body! Not his, his was burned, with the rubbish, so no one knew. This is all me! I just... remember his life. Lived it. Look like him. But no magic. He didn't want to be a mage, so I'm not a mage.
He died and rushed to the Fade and through me and I thought I was him, but I'm not, but I sort of am, I remember being him.
sorry, he absolutely doesn't get it
But whose body is it then? If you were compassion and the boy’s body is burned... Have you taken another man. [Is it necromancy?] How would you achieve such... [Forbidden] ...things.
Did you create a body then? [He looks fairly normal, as far as he can see on the screen.] You know... [Such things belong to black magic and Old Nan told me that is bad.] ...you should be careful with that. Such...abilities.
it's cool... no one does, including him.
Spirits shouldn't be in mortals. Alive or dead mortals, it's not good for anyone involved..
[Without being there, face to face, Cole can't read Robb at all. His voice and mannerisms mean nothing, he can't understand them without his empathy.]
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That is warging. [Robb shakes his head and thinks of Bran... And then he thinks about how he and his younger brother have grown apart...] Skinchanging.
[His voice sounds a little sad when he says that.]
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[The idea is positively preposterous to him.]
Ghosts are the souls of dead people.
Spirits aren't dead people. We're spirits. Valor, Compassion, Rage, Wisdom, Pride, Envy, Despair... Justice.
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Mayhaps in your world you are. But not in mine. [That is the best way Robb can understand this.] Ghost and spirits are one and the same where I come from. They haunt tombs and old castles.
Are the other spirits also able to make a body?
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[So there.]
I... don't know. I support so. If they wanted to.
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Very well. I will not elaborate on that.
[Duly noted, Compassionate Spirit Inside a Body That Looks Like That Of a Dead Boy...]
It is an odd story...ser. [He can’t help it.] I hope you are able to...determine your other feelings. [That was the other problem, not?]
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[He says it like someone has told him to say it in these situations, rather than because he means it.]
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Yes. Thank you. [He has no idea what to make of this.] I do not know an answer to your questions, I think. Just ask people if you feel odd. And they can help you, I think.
[Can this man truly be helped if compassion is the only thing he can understand?]
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Thank you. For trying to help.
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[Odd complicated feeling-ghost-spirit entity or not, loneliness can be tough on anyone.]
You are welcome.